Friday, November 20, 2009
Officially lost itPS:READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
(WTH,YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!AFT THE AMAZING TITLE ABOVE!)
(WTH,YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!AFT THE AMAZING TITLE ABOVE!)
the only normal shot(read on if ya wanna know)
YAYY,i gt pink earphones~ ^^
cookiemonster got tortured!!;D
crazy idea of putting my slippers on doggy(what?!the night is long and cold,brrr**)okay,saw and heard some crap,
so was in a foul mood,
or shld i say crazily abnormal mode?
btw jerk,
why bother lying?
i would've let you gotten away with the truth,
that bloody fucking hurt me,
now I'm definitely gonna get you back..
so,
(1)i cried like mad first,
my eyeballs felt like popping out of my sockets,
my face went really red
(2)i scribbled in a book like fuck,
(i was trying to write a poem,
but to hell with it,i ended up scribbling!!*%%&%)#&#)*#&#)
& yes,that page(or a few more) had a few freaking big holes
(3)i listened to my zen stone plus,sang out loud cried even harder,
i was singing lyrics i didnt meant ->[Its alright its okay by ashley tisdale]
& NO,ITS NOT ALRIGHT,NOT OKAY..
(thks to that jerk-sicle,i had a relapse of asthma,
fuck..was alr not using the inhaler for so long alr.. :/)
(4)Danced to the music like mad
errr,mostly just shaking my head,til my hair gt real messy :P
(really helps to de-stress...& makes you really giddy!!)
after the crying,dancing & singing marathon,
i went into the laughing & camwhoring marathon
(1)I was looking at a joke book
laughing my bloody ass off at things that i didnt even found funny,
but it did helped make me better,
well just laughing at thin air would even help,
if only the tears would stop!!
(i feel like a bloody fool,crying and laughing..-.-)
(2)I was doing the crazy toy talk to toy stuff,
and almost let them ripped everything out of themselves(of cuz i controlled it)
& going HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA all the way
(well,plus some evil statements like :"got ya good eh?!!****")
(3)I made ugly faces and took those ugly photos
(which i am not going to post the photo)
(4)i tried to do many weird expressions,
& laughed like mad
dont mind me,
i gotta have my moments too,
if not i will go mad,
hope this will be passe stuff,
but you know what?
i feel damn freaking good aft all the above stuffs,
why??
basically,i feel human again,(i emote what i feel)
that im alive..
you may not feel the same,
but usually,
i like to keep problems to myself,
being able to express it out feels damn good~
anyway,i shld be okay soon(:
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
am v.happy that i vented,
fuck,dont mind vulgar post,
ya know when ppl lose control,
this is what happens,
oh,wth?
might just delete this irritating post anyway,
cuz its embarassinggggggggg the way i handle my emotions
(but me chose venting over embarassing,sheeshhh.. :/)
i hate ppl probing,so dont start.. *stares&points at you w index finger*
bad patches happen in life,
don go into mine,
or i will demand your's 1st!
*bleh bleh bleh*
right now,aft typing,i am amazingly calm and positive~ :D
wow wow,the power of venting your rantings~
[PS: will still bear the grudge,im a petty person,afterall,you got me so worked up!!]
