Teach me how to stop .♥.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Sore loser

yes,its affirmative..

okay,
im supposed to go ahma hse tmr!!^^
bake cookies,pizza,sushi...and maybe some others(so it would seem),
but i wanna go shopping w mama tmr toos.. ):
oh sheesh,
why cannot arrange on tues?!!:/
when is ng sihan coming back from her trip?!):
wanted to go her hse bake and maybe go out w her for a movie while im there!!):
*sulks*

merry xmas!!^^
well,belated..
i actually forgot this yrs xmas!!:O
kept slipping my mind.. :P
celebrated w family(*groans*)
Renee jie jie's boyfriend gave us roasted turkey or smth..
LOL,its wrapped so exaggerated(tightly)w aluminum foil.. O.O
and some kind of ham too(pretty scary,its in BIG chunks!!)
i think its cuz her boyfriend works there or smth,
but wow,sooooo much freebies lehhhh!!
i wanna work there too!!
(not that im sarcastic/not happy) (:

im arranging next thursday,
go out w jf,sm,hp^^
sch reopening soon,
plus next yr o's,shucks..):
wonder how many times i'll feel like giving up?
it'll be hard work for my tuition teacher(& me of cuz)
im scared of her reaction/qns..
very sudden,she will go "WAIT,WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
than i'll go "errrr..*this that this blah blah blah*"
and she'll go "YOU CANT DO THIS!!"
and i get frightened,cuz its always sudden..
i thought that my maths really sucked..):
but she said im good in basics,can answer her qns,
need more practice,but im better than her other students
(whoa,gt hope arhh?^^)
i laughed and she went "REALLY!!!"
haha,i think shes cute sometimes(her voice is like a doll/little girl)
but scary sometimes too..
(im really scared of making mistakes,she qns me like imma suspect)

after o's next yr,
during that longggggggg holiday,
if i can pass the parents interview,
im locked for teaching tuition!!!
YEAHHH,DONT NEED OTHER PPL TUTOR ME,
I TUTOR OTHERS!!~~yeayeayea
plus,i think tuition is really damn good to earn from^^
(HAHA,sounds as if im doing it for the money:/)
of cuz,
i'll be teaching primary sch!!^^
i wanna teach brandonnnnnnnn~
(one student my dad's teaching)
cuz i feel that he's really like me in the past,
(i can tell frm the symptoms!!)
but he's giving up too young and frm his work,he's really not trying..):
i really wanna help him,because in primary sch,
i had ms ang to help me,
i wanna return the favour back to society(:
i think i might be able to make it,
he will be p5 in 2011^^
but its a lil too early to talk now right?
i might wanna do some other jobs next yr :/
will try to stick to this though..(:

next yr,new start...
im gonna apologize for being such a petty person,
to certain ppl..
forgive me wont ya?(:
im sorry im such a small person,
angry at such a small thing,
i'll do anything to have you guys back,(if you still want me back)
i'm sucha sucky&rotten person..
arghhh,how come im pissed at every single thing?!!!:/
how can i only rmb the bad things and overlook the good things you all have done for me?
i'll try to fix the mistakes i have done..
nobodys perfect,the same goes for me..
i swear i'll rmb that...

syahidah,
i miss you loads too!!):
i wanna crap w you again,
and piss you off HAHA!!!;D
you're one of the ppl who makes me look forward to sch!!
so you better not try to absent yourself ahhh!!
gonna tag ya back soon!!^^

Monday, December 21, 2009

Because you're no longer worth it

NICE SONG~

i went downstairs just now,
almost kanna hit by a soccer ball,(its a miracle it missed by a bit*phew*)
a malay boy(apparently the one supposed to catch the ball)
said "BOOOOOOMMM" really loud when the ball bounced off the floor,
and i was really stunned,
than he started laughing..aft that,he asked "hey,are you okay?"
and than i started laughing,
i dont know what was so funny,
maybe cos i escaped a bump on my head or cos his laughter was infectious..
whooooooshhh,my first laugh today,
i still cant understand why i laughed so hard,
but it felt goood,
although i dont think ppl will normally laugh in a situation like this?0.0
aiyahhh,who cares?
i had a nice time laughing,
instead of being upset like some kind of grumpy anti-social human being..

Sunday, December 20, 2009

It hurts,because it matters

is'nt it sweet?!

screw my fringe,so long alr.. :/ i really dont know what to do w it..
cut?NOOOOOO,my hair is on strike,it takes long to grow!!T.T

i guess this is the only pic i took successfully w my hair tied up,the rest simply sucked..
my hair is sooo damn hard to tie,sch reopen how?!!
*groans*

lucky camera shy?NOT!!he was rubbing his face w his paws!!

yes,im showing off my long nails!!:D

yeap,upload pics alr,
byes,wait til i go outing than i take more plus write words..
(if i can stop cancelling them!!>:( )
"home sweet home" is not there for nth!!

*PS:i hate zhenghua cc,why cant it shift somewhere else?!i dont even use the facilities,and it annoys the crap outta me (all the karaoke singing!^&%$$%) wanna know how i woke up today?!!one uncle was singing so horribly and out of tune plus its high note,i'm not a good singer either,but at least i dont wake ppl in the morning w my terrible singing!!pls lahhh,consideration lehhh..wonder if i can call the cops?0.0*

that uncle just ruined my morning and i got really pissed off..
well,you dont see me waking him up w high notes that could break a window,
do you?!!!
grrrr...

Friday, December 18, 2009

Because you're not the one not feeling it;
it hurts more than you'll ever know

nonetheless,
i still cared,
even though i swore i hated you right down to my gut,
i was still worried

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What kind of an idiotic fool am i?..
the kind that lingers on even when everyone moved on..
how stupid,screw it!!!!
*^#%%@)&_

Monday, December 14, 2009

I hate the way i dont hate you

Sunbathing lucky,we encourage that,it kills germs and he enjoys it~^^

no lucky is not camera shy!!
he rolled off the cushion,scared me to death when i heard a *thump*,
when i on lights,he remained slping like that.. -.-

i was taking the pic of the sky,LOL at the bird passing by!!
one day i shall have enough photos of the sky for a scrapbook!!^^

3 dads 1 mom,
love this show to bits,
HILARIOUS,plus the guy in the middle so handsome!!^^

had tuition/pure torture today,
for emaths,next week POA,and maybe physics,
all under the same teacher,
WOW one heck of a superwoman!!:O
(and one hell of a time for me!!>:( )
2 hrs straight lehhh,
i thought she might run out of things to say,
but apparently not..
as i feared,she asked qns i didnt expect..
haishhh..
like i want go JC or poly,
than the big qns "WHY?" -.-
she said "actually maths is very easy to score"
i glared at her and she changed her sentence
to "but all the formulas can drive you mad,alot of ppl have that problem"
thats alot better!!must bring other ppl in,
make me feel better!!^^
but i still feel irritated,
MATHS REALLY SO EASY TO SCORE MEHH?!!
UNTRUE HOR SIHAN?!:/

in the middle of the lesson,
she suddenly said
"OHNO!I FORGOT PUT COUPON,
HERE GT ALOT PPL ON PATROL NOT?
OHDEAR,I RUN NOW TO PUT COUPON!!"
HAHA,CRACK ME UP,
and i did naughty stuffs,copy answers frm behind!!FUFUFU!!
but shes nice,she go through slowly by chapter^^,
(although i made her repeat,I GT CONFUSED!!><)
she made me realise,
its not as simple as i thought
(no wonder i always get wrong!!!)
but she give me soooo much homework!!X.X

ohh, NG SIHAN BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY(15 DEC)
i miss her soooooooooo much!!T.T
promised to meetup b4 holiday end,
(and b4 the terror of o'level strikes)
gotta move my butt on the last week of holiday,
full of outings for ppl i miss lehhh,
MUST MUST MUST..
i've been so lazy lolling ard at home that i kept cancelling plans.. >:(
*tsk tsk*
my parents thought theres smth wrong w me.. -.-
whats wrong w you ppl?!!!
i go out you all keep calling irritating the shit outta me,
(even went to the extent of calling ALL MY FRIENDS,JERK-CICLES)
i don go out,you guys keep forcing me to,and thought i was sick?!!!
LOL-ED,i suspect you ppl are the sick ones.. -.-
just wan to leave the best for the last week of holiday heaven~:D
AND DONT WORRY,
I WILL GO OUT,SICK OF STAYING AT HOME W YOU PPL ANYWAY!!

*if i close 1 eye & forgive you,does this means i have to close both in future?!!*
*does it feels nice to play w my emotions?!!may karma strike you,BAD!!*

-i feel evil,and it feels damn good-

Sunday, December 13, 2009

LALA-FIED DAY~

what i wore today~^^ and i dont know what to do w my fringe anymore..T.T i think i shld leave it long til i find a good hairstylist who wont ruin my hair!!>:(

lassie and gobbie

*yawns yawns*

my lunch,pathetic?T.T no flavour soup only eggs and noodles!!T.T

all bored to death,that makes both of us.. ):

so i didnt sleep the whole of yesterday,
(must be too excited!!)
too bad ng sihan that pig only turned up l8r in the night,
i was so bored..T.T

auntie came to fetch us,
(as agreed^^)
she didnt know i was tagging along,
SO SHE DIDNT BRING DELICIOUS FOOD!!!
WTH?!I STARVED MYSELF THE WHOLE DAY FOR NOTHING!!T.T
anyways we started chatting fast once i stepped into the car,
than my mom asked me to call them,
i really forgot since i was happily chatting w them,
i told them(since i was really sorry,like it seemed no manners),
and we laughed it off,
typical mummy making a mountain out of a molehill.. :/
*well actually,i dont like calling ppl,especially part of the family tree,it feels weird..since i dont really see them(except on probably new year?) and my dads side,every year we will shake hands,but it feels so foreign like we just knew each other.. :/ so much for that,but every year,my uncle try to crack us up and get us together(like giving us money to go buy smths at downstairs convenience store!!^^) that gesture is enough for me(:*

than they started mahjong,
i started off w playing w the doggies~!:D
than wrapping ng sihan's present i brought along,
(lol,i forgot wrap it at home!!:O)
since they were absorbed and ignored me,
first time i wrapped a present,
to me,it was horrible,so crumpled at the side..):
plus the note i attached i spent soooo long to write,
i wan it to mean smth,but not sound too mushy and gay..
it was so difficult!!!T.T

fell asleep on the couch,(FOR ABOUT 1 HR PLUS MINUS?)
was really grouchy abt them disturbing me now and than,
i guess i blabbered lotsa non-sense and gave some attitude.. :P
what is a person lacking of slp supposed to do?!:P
than when i was awake,
i was forced to play w them when uncle left,
by then i was seeing stars so gave it a pass.. :/
than they just played w 3 ppl,
like how the hell you do that?!:O
ask them,they are pros sio..

in the end,
joined them,
due to constant nagging and they provided me w winwin policy..
lost and win,lost and win..
the vicious cycle just went on,
so pissed!!:/
i only earned 30 cents in the end ._."

my meal was only instant noodles(lunch),beehoon(dinner)..
awww,
I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE A FEAST!!>:(
nvm,still gt next time..(:

am tired again and my head feels heavy and blank,
will update tmr if i missed anything out~
stay tuned all!!^^

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Life stinks,get over it (i wish it was that easy)

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i dont know what to post,
maybe i going my granny hse tmr,
aunt is coming to fetch me & mumsy,
so sweet *awwwws*
baking,cooking,creating
than maybe i have some pics to upload!!
ISNT THAT FANTASTIC?!
actually,dont you find cooking amazing?
something plain on its on can actually combine w other ingredients to make smth..
MOUTHWATERING?!
that,i'll never understand..

was smsing my errr,
sms pal?!O.O
haha,she sent wrong sms to me,
and we starting being friends there,
weird much?!:O
so far,i only know shes melissa frm eunos,16 going 17,
its kinda exciting,and i cant stop guessing how she looks like, :P
but i guess im cool with just the suspense..
shes so cute & funny,hahaaaa,was nice talking to her,
shes so open to share her stuffs w me too!!^^
hope she patch with her boyfriend soon,
she was soooo mad at him,(cant say why,its private)
HAHA,its weird how much stuffs she tells me,
but i find her very chattable plus friendly~
maybe we dont know each other thats why?
another reason to keep it a suspense,though i hope to know how she looks like one day~^^

okay,im talking too much alr,
will blog again tmr,(if i can wake up to go to grannies tmr)
will relink joan soon~:D (loves plus misses)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOTJ8kAJKZ8 --->its a nice song~^^

yamada toro monogatari(aka 貧窮貴公子 jap vers) its really cute plus funny~

3 fathers 1 mom,the baby's reaction is soooo funny!!

quiz show 2,its really makes your heart skip a beat,so unexpected!some of them damn cruel,make ppl cry..T.T

-now you know why i hate leaving my tele :P-

Monday, December 7, 2009

More than meets the eye

you must be thinking
"WTF ARE YOU DOING W A LEMON?!!"
wait til you see its true colours

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look at lucky's face,he must be thinking
"what a phenomenon!really looks like an orange(colour) and also like a lemon(shape)"
thats why i name it
ORMON/LERANGE
*laughs at own joke*
ormon sounds better!!;D
i think im lameeee,but who cares?!i hadda good laugh!!^^
fufufu...

i found these gel candles the other day,
gt these frm someones wedding~
(don ask me,i didnt even know the human myself!!)
i did one in pri sch,but mines a mess..T.T

blood red juicy watermelon,
really nice to gobble it like no tmr!!^^

i just watch this on tele,
hana yori dango final or aka boys over flowers(jap version)
so cuteee luhh
gotta love MIO~
(omg,i like advertising for them ><)

spend my days on tele or com,
*laughs*
really a time of my life~:D
i think i can live like a couch potato forever,
ahh the harms of media~

that day chance upon a nice channel,
the guest on that show i think his name is 李准基?[korean]
i only rmb he acted in the show "my girl"o.o
so funny luhhh,
his reaction and all to taiwan food,
[spicy century egg,pigs ears,pig blood intestine,pig blood soup]
omg,it sounds scary luhh,(no wonder he like that right?)
he was like asking the host to eat first,
than he dared to eat,
but most of the time,
his eyes almost popped out of his sockets,
HAHA!!!
and he was teaching the host some korean song,
and the host gt the rhythm wrong,
than the host asked "is he gonna beat me up?*gives cute and innocent eyes*"
HAHAHA,than they laughed like mad~
so hard to describe here,its just plain hilarious!!
his reaction is always funny on the show!!^^
and he looks so much better w/o the long hair >:(

haha, am hooked on korean shows and idols,
(now i understand why so many ppl are,koreans are sooo good!)
(i bet their economy shooting up like madddd)
that day saw re-run of asia music award show or smth,
it was nice to see live performance of superjunior and girls generation~
ON BIG SCREEN TV(instead of unclear youtube)
love mostly the dancing luhhh,so together~!!^^
poor things,they were panting so hardly..):
but some of them sound different on LIVE(in a kinda bad way)..T.T

okay, i dont know what to say alr,
cos i just tonned at home and watch teley,
what do you expect me to say?
just found another weird(but sucky) thing about me,
i never get nosebleeds, bloodshot/sore eyes
(the natural way when staying up all night or smth)
(unless i deliberately go rub soap,and yes,i've tried and succeed!!^^)
that really sucked, cos in primary sch, so many ppl get it and can go home straight,
so good right?!:O
call me crazy,but i'll do anything to skip a days sch!!>:(

ohh!!
one funny thing,
guess how i lost my first tooth?!
WHILE EATING PORRIDGE!!!
pretty stupid luh,
since b4 i ate my lunch,i ate biscuits and an apple,
but it didnt fall,
LIKE PLS,PORRIDGE IS SO SOFT SIA..-.-
AND I SWALLOWED THAT FIRST TOOTH!!>:(
DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT DROPPED TIL I SAW BLOOD ON MY SPOON..
HAHA,
I RMB IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY,
LIKE DUHHH,MEMORABLE 1ST TOOTH LEHHH!!!>:(

this post is soooo nonsensical and no link!!! :P
ENDING WITH THIS:

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it,
I hate the way you're always right, I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

-ADAPTED FRM MOVIE:10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU-

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Uneasy

The clouds looked beautiful that day,
too bad the sky was too un-blue-ish, *sulks*
if not,will be really pretty..
PS: The extremely bright thing is my light bulb *laughs*

i found these books at home!!
coooooool~,
but once i open the pages,
haishhh,forget about reading it.. :/
chimmmm chinese wordsssssssss,thick pages=sheesh!!

been sleeping longer hours these days,
when i wake up,
i get energy rushes,
*laughs*
lets see,
i just exercised yesterday,
like extreme exercise,
sit-ups,push ups,hoola hoop,jogging
for about 1 & a half hour,
HAHA,i keep this up,
i might get 6 pacs,IMAGINE THAT!!:O
i think i really went mad,
lucky stared at me,scratch,licked & jumped up and down my legs,
haha,poor lucky..(:

scary dreams on hold,
but still had ridiculous ones,
that day,
i dreamt about compo test,
chinese plus english combined,
i think the teach only give 1h 45 min?!:O
i cant rmb anything and i totally freaked,
in the end,i think i only write 1 para each,
(my dream didnt last 1h 45 min,felt like 15 min)
still,i woke up sweating...and swearing,
the thing i hate about my dreams is : IT FEELS FREAKING REAL,
you can feel the tension and all,
like reality.. :/
and i have a qns,WHY DO I ALWAYS FLUNK IN MY DREAMS?!-.-
anyways,aft i woke up,
i forgot i closed my door,
so i ended up with a bump on my head too,
talk about unlucky!!>:(
(lucky not doing his work of keeping me lucky!)

these days,
have been watching movies,reruns of drama online and searching for songs for zen stoneyyyy~,
love my alone time~:D
but side effect,
i think alot about things,
like what could have been if i didnt do certain things or actions,
crazy much?(:
also alot of day-dreaming,
but will always suddenly,out of nowhere think:"what was i thinking just now?:/"
seems like my brain cant go solitary,*laughs*

anyways,some nice movies i've watch,
to help if anyone out there is boredddd~
most of them from MIO tv or you can try youtube,
(1)Raise your voice [really saddddd,but nicee]
(2)Ice princess [sci-fi,about ice skating]
(3)Doctor dolittle1&2 [comedy]
(so ironic,how can he be called do little when he do so much?!:O)
(4)Daddy daycare [comedy]
[gotta love eddie murphy(i guess its spelt like tat?:O)]
(5)A cinderella story
(6)swan lake [its classic man]
(7)twilight [its on youtube like finally!^^]
(8)Lizzie mcguire movie [i like the songs ^^]
(9)Flubber [the name is cute,so i watched,fufufu]
(10)10 things i hate about you [NICEEEEE]
(11)101 dalmations(real life doggies)
(12)x-men
hmmm,than i cant rmb the rest,
(will edit post when i do..)
can try korean dramas on youtube,
NICEEE man,

okay,im blogging off,
gonna cook my own lunch,
will be careful not to blow me or the kitchen awayyyy~^^
waiting for my aunts call,
cookie plus pizza making recipe pls!!~^^