Teach me how to stop .♥.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Balanced out the good and the bad

I couldnt take it,
no matter how i told myself i didnt care,
i still did..):
soooooooo,mental breakdown on sat's remedial,
i just didnt know whr it went wrong,
do you know how frustrating is that?!
i put 101% effort,its wrong and no-one told me whr or how it did!
fuckyou man!!!
hot tears just rolled down my cheeks,
i admitted defeat..

BUT BUT BUT,
thanks to tuition teacher,i'm back on it!;D
the teacher was so nice!;D (btw,its a new teach),
she saw(apparently my face was red and i was still crying) how i was,
and encouraged me,
and of course,she help to undo all my knots of confusion,
she encouraged me to try,
i have never heard for such a long period,
that someone asked me to try and w/o pressure told me it was okay to get it wrong,
what she wanted wasnt the correct answer,
but my thinking processes and she really drilled it in me..
she recognized my efforts,not just the answers..
and she was really funny!(which will be our little secret*it was really evil*!;D)
so teach,i salute you!;D
i believe in you!!;D
you are the one!
the one which will help me to improve,
cos now,its definitely clearer than b4 a gazillion times~

anyway,
about gambling,
i didnt lose and didnt win ._.
papa tan won $20(he shared $10 w me:D)
uncle ahgong won $60 at the last round,
(he was losing in the first place,so wow!)
so,he happily went off to a pub to celebrate his winnings~;D
cos last round all of them "showhand"
damn cool luh pls,
the banker almost cried~!
i bought lottery,
1614,came out 1684(sat one)
wtf?!my pocket money~~):
what made me really pissed was it was by a mere digit,
curses!!!
*ohno,am i turning into a rotten gambler?;P*

today,
slept in late,
i felt so lazyyyyyyyyyy~
couzieee jolyon and Renee was holding a stall in flea market,
wanted to drop by and ask them to help me sell toos,(and shop ard in the meantime:P)
but why must it be soooooooo far?!>:(
lazy me forgo that idea too,
so lazy to travel cos papa tan dont want fetch me!!>:(
anyway,
the whole family went for dinner in fajar,
but i didnt wanna go(AGAIN its laziness)
mama tan also lazy,
so poor us stayed at home eat maggie meeeee~
i hate the stupid metal pot!
my noodles are soggy!!!>:(
anyway,
papa tan is gambling mahjong and blackjack now,
(win a few more $$ okay?!!!!)
and OH OH OH!!!!
he won lottery no.4865!!!!
$500 lehhh!!
he come back i wanna plead w him to share again,
i bet i'll be very successful!!;D
papa tan is generous~(infact sometimes too generous)
fufufu,POCKETMONEY RAISE!!;D

anyway,
photos frm last sat's gambling
(so my post doesnt look dull ;D)

me!(yes,i took my school bag ard,too much homework!!>:( )

with snowy!;D

gobbie says:"where is the food?!gimme gimme the food!!!!" *drools drools*

lining up for food

dayi who is making the pizza and saying:
"Dont take photo of me!i gambled all night and have panda eyes!"
wow,damn pro,go IR win $650 not enough,still go overnight mahjong!
rawrrss,gimme some luck too!!!

the mahjong ppl

the poker ppl,
last round played "showhand"
thankgod,i won $4 plus due to that,
if not no win no lose again.. ._.

eating pizza when gambling!;D

*clench* guess how much i won?!

$8.40!havent included notes and additional $$ dayi gave me,
she regards me as her lucky star,
so mahjong winnings were all mine!!;D
uncle bet odd and even no. w me,
i won,it was even!!!
so he gave me all his winnings for blackjack!;D
i have a cool uncleeeee~

cool vintageyyy phones,
(apparently i was bored..): )

chio right this cat?!!;D

Rotting in progress...

chinese,what am i supposed to do w you?!!!Rawrrs

okayyyyyyyyyyy,the end of photo uploading,
going to slpppppppppppp~
tmr will also be a long dayyyyyyyyyyy~
i wont give in anymore,
i'll hold on w all my might,
and that will simply be tiring...
but worth it,
oh,and i wont rely on you anymore,
its my future,so i know how to handle it!
stop wasting my time and confuse me!
i'm much better alone!!
wait for it,wait for the big explosion coming your way..
i hope you get your retribution(i know u will)
i only wish i could witness it!!;D

Friday, February 26, 2010

Killing brain cells in progress:
It's an all maths day! ):

Going for maths remedial l8r,
after that having maths tuition,
*Yawns* how sucky can my sat get?!
cant i make a choice btwn the 2?
i rather dont go remedial,
still have to walk so far to school,
torture leh,
at least tuition is come my hse right?
i was whining abt it so long,
again and again,
i just wanna give it all up,
the harder i try,the harder i fall
dont give me nonsense that i didnt try hard enough,
cos you have nv seen how hard i tried to stuggle out of fail..
dont be surprised if i dont turn up for olevel maths,
cos i cant be bothered anymore!
today just go remedial show face,
i'm just gonna dream~
what for sia remedial!!$#$%&^*(#%#
im so damn pissed,im fuming!!!!

*okay,not a gd time to blog when you're angry*

today going auntie pengleng hse!
(My cupid papa's friend,he matchmake her w uncle royston & they gt married!;D)
gambleeeeeeeeeeeee~
blackjack again!!(mental calculation*WTH?!*)
but at least i get money for it!
who pays me to do maths in sch?!!i still have to pay sch fees!!!
dont give me the blah blah blah crap that its abt my future,
COS IM NOT LISTENING!!!
to suffer all these is not worth my future!!!!

*okay,im really gonna start smashing smth if i continue blogging,so im off to torture!*

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I HAVE PHOTOS TO UPLOAD,
JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME,
SORRY..):
TESTS ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!
THIS WEEK PACKED W:
POA,CHINESE,F&N,SS,MATHS
I EVEN HAD A DREAM;
ALL THE TEACHERS WERE CHASING ME FOR HOMEWORK,
MDM CHOO & MRS GOH ASKED Y I FAILED MY TEST WHILE STRANGLING ME,
(NOT AS IF THEY WILL REALLY STRANGLE ME IN REAL LIFE)
LAUGH ALL YOU WANT,
BUT IT WAS SUPER SCARY!!)':
(not to mention VIVID!>:( )

I HAVE MC FOR TMR!^^
~~ONLY GOING F&N FOR MY COURSEWORK!!^^~~
oh what the hell?my mom dont let me go..T.T

*Happy birthday to sandy 22/2!
i texted you alr,you nv reply..):
did you change no. ?*

Friday, February 19, 2010

Forgetful

Im more confused in the month of feb,
i swear im not joking!
if i did that in jan,its understandable,
but feb?!Eugenia you're really nuts!!
1. SUPER STUPID;i actually brought last years expressions to school-.-
i nearly rolled on the floor and died w laughter,
i was still so happy in the morning that i rmbered to bring expressions-.-
2. I wrote the year 2009 on my paper,i didnt do it in jan,wth is wrong w me in feb?!:/
3. Guess what?!i forgot number 3 now,I REALLY DO HAVE IT,i forgot.. ._.

haishhhh,
i was still so happy my memory got a lil better in jan,
i could still memorise lil lil things,
now its back to square 1 plus worse off.. -.-

this is not the good period to test me,
and im sooooooo not study smart,
maths confirm fail like hell again,
win alr lor,i tried so hard again and again,
all i get is a freaking F..
and F&N,dont need say,
of all things test me maillard browning?!!!
wtf?i go memorise so hard the others sio..
and wth is w vitamin names?!-.-
i wanna die w tears drowning liao!!!!!!! T_T
someone tell me to work harder pls,
if not,im getting more demoralized..):

dayi said she went integrated resort in s'pore aka casino,
she won $500!!!
wow,better share and give me bigger angpow luhhh!!!
hopefully IR lasts until i turn 21 yr old,
dayi must bring me there!!!!!
i think by that time,
she would be filthy rich!!!

i hate hate hate HATE the new sitting arrangement,
such a pain in the eye that he is in my range of vision,
sucks ttm can!!!!!!
unluckily,it had to be him,
the person i hate the most,
and the person who triggered me to revenge cos i cant let him get away w it,
(if you have been reading my previous posts)
piss me off somemore,
i'll make sure you get it(this is probably the only benefit,TORTURE!)
this i definitely wont forget to do..
FUFUFU,
sweet revenge is the best!

Monday, February 15, 2010

第一朵不是爱情的玫瑰

The food was much more than this,i was too hungry to take photo by the time it started xD

LOOK AT MY NAILS! *SQUEALS*

do i look different?xD

grey contact lens!omg,bloody hell difficult to put in!>:(

im sorry if me eyes scared you!><

I love my silver-y nails!plus my rose ring!xD

camwhore in car,i was rotting!

camwhore in car AGAIN or i would turn mouldy!

Shaky last shot ):

my CNY dress!;D

snowy♥(HAHA,randommmmm)

my cute uncle started giving out gold bar chocos!xD

okay,

i put all photos according to date,

except for the 1st one,(if not how it fit the tittle?)

btw,that tittle is in chinese textbook too,

so credits to that!;D

hmmmm,

shld i go through the days one by one?
i'll try to keep it short and sweet ;D

Reunion dinner at my hse,

my mama was complaining about all the hard work,

so my ears suffered,

and i agreed to help out due to her using all the guilty treatment on me..

i vacuum-ed the floor and ironed the clothes and well,help out,

it was super hard,

especially since im on medication...AGAIN!and it cause drowsiness..

doctor said i exercised too much=swelling at the back of my thighs..

wth?!im not some kinda athletic!

i only played mini tennis,LOL!

although i admit,i did try a lil too hard that week xD

doctor wanted to give me MC for new year,

HAHA,that doc cracks me up!xD

anyway,i hate steamboat,cos the taste of everything mixed together is weird,

so kind mama cooked me a seperate tofu soup!

ALL MINE!FUFUFU!;D

on lunar new year day,

had..what shld i call it?..
new year blues?xD

i just blabbered and threw my temper,

cos my parents were forcing me to wake up,

i admit,i dont have any new year spirit.. xD

took hours to stuff in my contact lens(i was damn pissed)

then off we go,

1st stop tiong bahru,

i didnt even wanna get outta the car,lift or my shoes!

that was the most uneasy one okay?!

i havent been there 2 yrs,(i was sick last yr)

so my face was being squeezed ard like dough

(sooner or l8r they would bake me!)

MINGMING WAS THERE!♥

(so it was much better)

i missed him ;D

i was being fussed by my auntiesssss,

and they told mingming im not going there enough cos of him being unkind,

HAHA,at that time,

he was eating tidbits,

SO HE DUMPED A WHOLE LOT ON MY HANDS!

so sweet~;D

too bad no pics again,

i was so uneasy there,

i didnt even dare to move much,

call me coward,

but it was intense,

the ppl i hate were just so close,

if i lost control,i might just chop away at them,

im not exagerrating man...

2nd stop,

Jurong east♥

i could finally be me!

so carefree,not tense and excited,

i miss sihan man!!!!!!!

dayi was making alot of food,

so i fussed ard her and joke joke ard,

then off to ahma's room for aircon,

they were playing mahjong...

5 plus huifang jiejie's boyfriend came,

hope they'll last long,am so happy for them!;D

i bet dayi's damn happy jiejie finally found a boyf,

but she so chio,so worried for what?!

(btw,thats what i always tell her)

she just want to get her to move out,

so she have 1 less person to wait to..

haishhh,i'll never understand adults,

why cant they just say how they feel?

not as if i will laugh at her if she said she want jiejie to find happiness soon right?

i guess when ppl grow older,

not everything is appropriate to be said,

i too hesitate,but not as much as most ppl,

what shld be said will be said..

*sigh* when you r young,ppl forgive you,

but its different now,cos ppl expect you to mature..

it kinda sucks..

i guess im in alot of ppl's hate list for being sarcastic.. xD

this yr i dont need go ahgong there!;D

i hate S and E,but i miss jolyon..):

i knew i shld have just went,

my uncle always cracks me up there too xD

so daddy went himself and gt me my angpows!;D

3rd stop,

sihan's cousins hse,

i feel better w them then at tiong bahru,

her little cousins were cute!xD

slack at the playgrd,

shared some funny class stuffs while on the see-saw,

played some wild swing,

took some unglam photo(like LOL,we were in skirts!xD)

but i still wan some of them,

all w sihan,my lousy phone no batt..

sihan's cousin gave us roses,

thus the tittle (textbook you are so true!)

i think my generation of ppl are so lucky,

we experienced eclipse and now lunar new year plus valentines,

(actually is there more?suddenly cant recall.. :P)

cool much?!

the passing of time didnt change much,

it did for 2 ppl;the hate disappeared and we werent no.1 enemies anymore,

cos we grew outta it,

but for the rest,it didnt..

cos i was willing to forgive,you werent willing to forget,

and we're back at again..

so much for being friendly!

Friday, February 12, 2010

kind xinyi who waited for the damn long bus w me ^^

LOL,screwed hair!>:(

we camwhored!and many ppl were staring 0.0
who cares?!
we love our wallets and am not afraid to showoff!;D

Lucky's weird ways

he likes sitting on top of a high high stack of newspapers,

he squirms ard and falls asleep like that.. -.-

mingming the leg slapper pouting!(unclear cos i gt it frm me mama's phone..): )

i wanted to take sweet revenge using this,but i gt no time to put the plan to action,
wasted right?!
and that person bloody made me pissed!!>:(
he's so messing w the wrong person!!!
imma bad bad person..
and im gonna think of another good evil plan..(ask me,u know u wanna know..)
fufufu,
wanna contribute?;D

i guess i'll miss this cute simpson the most )':

I think im blogging only on weekends/holidays,
HAHA,normal days can make me feel v.tired..):
school was pretty boring,let me summarise...
thankgod no chinese spelling or i drop dead there!>:(
teacher went off to hall,so i chiong my lit CA,
ohmygod,my setting and atmosphere!>:( 10m byebye~)':
nowadays is all chiong chiong chiong,
but it never really succeeds..i never really finish all!T.T
maths learning standard devision;i dont dare tell mr tan its easy,
i'm afraid if i do,all those stupid + horrendous mistakes will pop out!>:(
F&N i finished R&D and handed up;12 pg leh,im happy i finished it!;D
concert was so-so,i was tired and hungry,
so i turned grumpy and whined about those ppl!>:(
& i dont help rotten ppl to cheat,so there!dont irritate the crap outta me!

anyway,after school,
today finally went LJS to eat,
omg,been craving for it so long sio..
and lim xinyi got coupon!
hmmm,what else happened?
shop shop shop and talk craps,
time flew,and we went back ard 3 plus,
crazy much?!;D

CNY is coming to town~
ang powwwwwwwwww~
i miss sihan,i miss gambling,i miss my relatives(well,not all,but yea,in general..)
crazy shopping tmr,
i'm soooooo last minute,
research shows blood type O ppl are lazy,
wth,aft saying this,i feel like im blaming it all on my blood ><
i know for other blood types too,
ask me if you wanna know(there's more)..its coolszxsxz(and true for me)

now i cant rmb anything,
cos im tired,despite afternoon nap 4 hrs..zzz
i tend to blabber non-sense and repeat them over and over if i run outta topics..
so you better dont catch me in sleepy mode
is the above words all sleepy mode?
am not sure,i gotta check when im awake,
or i'll just add more and more crap,
lazy to look through again,
so if you detect errors,
just close one eye luhh.. xD

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Every little thing

Lucky in red!♥

Girlgirl!♥ what a good dog!:D *sigh,if only lucky is half as nice*

Chen yihui!:D ♥

hmmmmm,
let me see where i shld start from.. ._.??
that day went bangkit w yiro,hweemin & yihui,
was a super tired day,(but the only day we were all free)
grouchy old eugenia didnt catch everything they said ):
and they said my frequency range became shorter.. T.T
so i became their mom for the day (OMG,it sounds old!>:( )
told them only for that day,
if not ppl will start asking me whr 3 daughters popped out frm?!
okay,haha,who will really ask me that?:P
walked walked ard,i treated them drinks...
and we played ard the playground
*that day i wore PE shorts!:D so played wildly*
we were bored & sat there guessing how many ppl were in the lift/what floor they going to..

now,
some no linkies stuff,for a longer post :P

I burnt my tongue!>:( pain pain.. T.T
Ms rafiyah agreed im more of a writer than a summarizer :D,hmmmm,my writing style comes from own experience(i can give greater details),if i were to fabricate one,its just plain weird,to the extent that i myself also want to rip it,it sounds FAKE!(LOL ><)
Played heart attack on fri,with 2 grps of ppl,xiaoxuan's reaction was plain funny,when she saw i had both hands free,she looked as if she was watching a horror movie!i shldnt show both hands out,i keep hitting the book instead of ppl's hands..):
i slept almost the whole of my saturday away,sobs sobs.. ):
i wanted to go see mingming today!>:( screw it!i shldnt have slept so much on a sat..T.T
i wanted to go and see sales ard there too,next week will be packed w ppl,how to go?!):
Mama wanted to make me feel better,so promised to go bpp w me,but now,I'M ALL ALONE AT HOME ): I SLEPT AGAIN!!*^*(%^%(*&^#$!#@&( i admit imma pig..)':
I'm smacked w homework and test..)':
sometimes it just gets so hard to hold on to everything that i really want to let some go,but can i afford to let go?will there be regrets?...who ever knows anyway?:/

U-kiss new song!:D
i swear they always come out w big hit dance moves,
and the music is damn nice too! :D
enjoy~,btw,pause me flash fetish!:D