Thursday, March 4, 2010
Frustration
isnt it cool?!;D i forgot what made this somehow.. ._."
Blue is copper!;D i rmbered!yayness!;D
if we cap it up,we could sell it,cos isnt it nice to collect?!;D (ONLY BLUE~)
shaoyang's one,MINE!!,hweemin's one,seeyun's one ;D like deep deep oceans!;Dlike according to height right?~
mine!!;D (yes,those are my fingers,i cut my nails!)Today i was feeling moody and frustrated,
for idk what reason!!
i'm probably crazy,
but i guess i did a pretty gd job of covering it,
cos no one asked like "why u emo?"
i still have to tell others myself b4hand i didnt feel like talking,
but i still talk so much.. :P
im not meaning what i say eh?
but i really feel that way inside and it kinda fumed up sometimes!!!
im giving up solving this mystery,
it just makes me more frustrated!!
anyway,
2.4 run today,
i swear i really didnt feel like running,
but everyone was so competitive,
it makes you wanna go too i guess.. :/
my legs ache and i suck at it now,
gonna train my stamina and hope i make it for the test,
I DONT WANT RE-RUN!!
but exercise makes me really awake,
(so does the foul smelling ammonia during chem),
i sound contradicting,run or dont run good? *sigh*
who really knows anyway?
hahax,i'm really abnormal today,
so forgive me?;P
today both xy and xx went for percy jackson and the lightning thief,
if only the show started later,
i would go..):
but sadly,i needed to go settle some misunderstanding w C,
everything was okay~:D
rumours are really scary stuffs!!
(and ppl shld mind their own business!!)
gossiping is bad enough(i admit i do gossip and quite alot :P)
but thankgod it was forgiven and forgotten,
also another beauty of life~
aft that lunched w C b4 going home~
im really irritated by smth i usually overlook,
(i must be crazy somehow)
and i gt really angry to the extent i felt my blood boiling,
you are being used and you dont even know it!
and when i see that kind of situation again today,
smth inside me snapped(i did keep a straight face though)
ARGHHH!!!you ppl are too much!!!
but since the person who is being used doesnt mind,
(and apparently doesnt realise)
i figured i shldnt care so much..
i have much to worry for myself anyway~
&,
i dont wanna fake it anymore,
i'm so tired of going according to some stuffs,
can i just follow what i like?!
i feel uncomfortable although i hide it,
but today i really had it!ARGHHHHH!!!
&,
i'm tired of de-coding your thoughts,
you nv say what you really meant,
your words always sound so mocking!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
you're making me topsy turvy!!!
im so tired of doing what you like,
accomodating also has an extent!!
dont let my acceptance of who you are let it get over your head!!
i have stuffs i dont like too!! (to: s)
idk what to do,
all i know is that i had it and smth exploded in me,
today really sucked,
totally not my kinda day,
and im tired of handling all these non-sense,
luckily,no chinese remedial tmr,
i will take this time to bring lucky for a walk and get a breather :D
then i'll think through my next step b4 i make my decision..
