Monday, May 31, 2010
Evil spelled backwards is liveall kinds of ideas to run away and escape from this stress popped up in my head,
im so used to being an escapist plus coward who doesnt want to face up the truth,
i feel so "strawberry!" (chinese pupils shld know chao mei zhu)
what happened?!
today's chinese o level sucked big time,
paper 1 didnt come out on teenagers,
paper 2 lost 8 marks (I TOTALLY LEFT IT BLANK)T.T
FML,FML,FML
im sooooo gonna retake if im not getting an a2!>:(
sheesh,damn pissed!!!
i blanked out on easy words and wasted alot of time deciding on the qns,
1st time didnt finish p2,
last night whole night couldnt slp,
roll here roll there,roll everywhere~
now fretting over whats past(grr,stupid stupid me!)
and during the test i couldnt focus!>:(
damnination!
i wanna retake,i wanna retake,oh I SO WANT TO RETAKE!
feel much better aft venting my frustrations 1st thing to sihan,
and and and talking w my aunt,
she said huifang jiejie retook and marks jump from b3 to a1,
(not possible for me,BUT BUT,makes me feel better!;D)
im glad we have another chance to make it right again,
aft this incident,i will be careful of my time management!:D
i guess this is what you call you gain smth and lose smth,
i lost marks but gained experience~
WILL NOT MAKE THIS MISTAKE AGAIN!>:(
(better not or i'll bang my head on the wall)
byebye,
off to follow my idol's twitter,
ohmigosh,im sucha fan!xD
didnt expect that i'll go gaga over it,
wowzaaa,wonder when i'll finish reading all the twits?
i feel so out of touch w the world,
no twitter,no facebook just left w a blog,
HAHA,will get in touch w the world aft o's!;D
Saturday, May 22, 2010
worried sickOH MY GOD,
we couldnt find him anywhere after hours and hours of searching):
we reported it to the police,
(i gotta admit,the policeman was kinda cute *giggles*)
BUT BUT BUT,
you're reaching the climax!
smartyass lucky ran back home in the morning,
THANKGOD HE KNEW HOW TO COME HOME!
as for where he went,its a mystery indeed...
only he knows and everyday i ask him where he went ;D
shit,didnt study that day for paper 1 test,
cos obviously i cried the whole night,
crazy lucky,went for an adventure!
i shouldnt make use of that person,
i shouldnt!i'm such a sick person!
they say its easier to be loved than to love,
but i guess i just have to wait for that someone who loves me as much as i love him,
thats why that will be that special someone...
yes...i shouldnt...i cant be cruel to do it for fun,
i cant step over his life,for fun..
yes,i just shouldnt..
sorry,i'll have to push you aside again,
only memories of him runs though my brain,if i could help it,
i would,but i stay helpless..
stop stepping all over me,
if you're as good,you wouldnt have ended up like a fking loser plus escapist plus gutless!
dont think you're at the top of the world,
everything can still change,
enough of the chit chat,
i guess i just have to prove you wrong!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
You drive me crazymy god!i was so peeved with it,
i tried master reset and everything blah blah blah,
than i got so angry(cos nth was working)i threw it on the floor,
it works!:D
bad thing is,i gotta reset everything in my phone cos i pressed reset -.-"
i guess i overthrew my phone..
i throw it when i get mad,
i throw it when i sleep(opps!)
i throw it when it doesnt listen
i throw it when i get your text or dont!
poor phone..):
but a throw helps!
i lost my pinkyzenstone):
i found my keys!:D (inside my shoe!HAHA!)
this sucks):
today i learnt something new,
isit the older you get,the more you forget your manners?!
went shopping w mama today(glad to say i bought 2 shoes!:D)
those aunties step,push,shove,squeeze and hit me and they still give me the black face!
but a teenager accidentally pushed me and said sorry,
ironic much?
isnt it the older ppl who preach and preach abt manners?
not talking abt all the old ppl but seriously aunties,you have children too right?
this is how you teach your children?!
if i can know so much to say a sorry,why cant you?!
the maddest thing was a lady ran her baby's pram wheel over me w/o apologizing,
i mean have you any idea how much it hurts?!
i bet if i was the one who did anything to them,
they will demand an apology..
typical aunties,grrrrrr!>:(
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Sick and tired of youcant you just sit back,listen and console me for once?
every word you say seems to compete with mine,
and is that really necessary?
idk how much longer i can take this shit!
what do i actually mean to you?a punching bag?
does bringing me below your level makes you happy?
why do you expect me always be there for you when you are'nt for me?
you really take things for granted,i have my own life too
so what if i just wanna believe?
you cant stop my thoughts,run your own life!
didnt expect you to keep dashing my hopes,im so disappointed..
sooner or later,i will no longer be there for you,
you make me feel bad abt myself just so you can feel good about yourself..
why do i have to tolerate this pain?why must i let you feel joy at my expense?..
end of mye feels so nice,
but i feel bad,cos i did last min revision..
sometimes i will wake up in the middle of the night feeling startled,
and i will start fretting over the questions at exams,
makes me regret which sucks):
and my time management sucks which made me beat myself up):
sad sad sad...):
got no eyes to see the release of results..
