Sunday, June 27, 2010
Before sch reopen post
my completed homework!!!(*SCREAMS*)feels weird posting pics of my homework,LOL-.-
but BUT BUT,
i completed all of them today and im proud of it!^^
my little babys~(hehs,let me be self absorbed in the moment~:P)
(okay not only today,yesterday started at ard 3am cos i hadda nightmare T.T)
of cos had a little tv break,computer break and nappy break in between^^
im glad i can finish them,the time now is 1am,
but now that i have finished them,i cant slp cos my hearts thumping too fast,
you know the adrenaline rushing through like mad,
seemed like mission impossible to complete all by today,
but i still did it,YAYY!^^ (still happy like madddddd)
but still feel that i should have done revision,
awwww,always like that,but when having holidays,happily forget all,tsktsk :/
nevermind,too late for regrets,just have to go all the way now w/o regrets,
chiongggg ahhh!
Im reluctant abt sch,
i miss my friends,i miss my teachers,
i miss laughing like mad til you cant laugh anymore and your tummy hurts in a good way,
i miss the funny jokes teachers and students converse with..
but,i really hate rushing to sch(im always rather late,or so i stupidly think),
i hate rushing classwork cos i'll be writing crap
(when teacher threatens he/she wont release us unless we finish it),
i hate tests...
ahh well,life cant just be a bed of roses can it?
Friday, June 25, 2010
Time is running much faster than i amPause my playlist,its at the bottom left hand corner~;D
these are my keys,
I put my name there cos i left them behind at the com lab the last time
scared the shit outta me,
well,anyone see this ard,
pls give me a punch and return it to me,love ya~;D
-i just want to rip out those images from my mind-
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Words left unspoken
i srsly dont know why you give birth to me,dont your children matter?WHY DIDNT YOU PROTECT WJ?!
how could you?!you will never understand,because you dont feel the loss,
but for me,whenever i think abt the times we could have,it hurts so much..
to you only your mother matters,every single time you go running back,
i'm not saying you cant,but dont you rmb you have a daughter?me?
only your side of the family matters,they are the top of the world,they are the greatest,
their achievements make you proud,
than what abt me?
im always compared to them,nth i do is ever alright for you,nth i do makes you proud,
im always blamed and in the wrong,why am i always the one deemed lying?
have you ever turned and look at me?
what am i for anyway?
for you to make use of when you are old?
than at least pretend that you care,
im not childishly venting my anger,
its just that im disappointed far too many times,
i feel stampled on and if i continue believing,im afraid i will really go mad..
i must have sinned like mad in my previous life like maybe burnt a country or smth,
but this system is ridiculous!
its all in the upbringing and brainwashing,
unfair to just put it all on me,
damn screwed!
i feel much better aft venting,
oh,and nice lecture LGJ,KGJ & KSM!<3
funny plus meaningful
i will always rmb it!^^
"Life is like a rollercoaster,full of ups and downs,you have to experience a high slide down to have the momentum to go higher,best thing abt rollercoaster is that it does not start without a safety bar so feel free to enjoy your life's rollercoaster"
"Will you live for envy of your friends?will you live the dreams of your parents?or will you live for yourself,finding what you like and can do best?"
super inspiring~:D
Saturday, June 19, 2010
WHAT A PAINcrazy kids running over other ppl's scandals,and damaging the walls with bicycles
if they did that to my sandals,i will kill them immediately!
guess i dont have the life of having good neighbours!
kids will be kids eh?but i dont see why they can damage other neighbours properties!
im so peeved!>:(
and when im peeved,i take revenge!
heh heh heh...
i have the perfect plan to pay them back...
Friday, June 18, 2010
I realised the reason i hated it all,was because i could never have it
wheee cupcakes!^^trial on coursework part B,
which is food science kinda thingy,
makes one feel important!;D
but so hate-ious that we have to be so precise,
but yea,have to be fair to compare results
and i seriously hate pastry margarine,
so sticky and gooey,i hope i never have to touch it again!(i know i sound so spoilt!><)
but im so proud of me and WL's experiment outcome!^^
it was messy and rough texture in the beginning :/
but it smoothed out and is a pretty brown shade,
im so proud!*sniffs sniffs*,so drama sio,LOL :P
but everytime i use the school's kitchen,i feel so grossed out,
didnt really want to eat but had to do it for evaluation,
after that,felt like puking and i didnt have lunch,
one thing good abt school's kitchen,can help you diet!;D
seriously,i dont know if its just me,
but place is ant infested and by the way i do things,i wont dare to eat it!(><)
for my cooking practical only azry ate it,
i warned him,shld have made him sign a contract too,
incase he gets food poisoning i shldnt be responsible eh? (><)
lucky for me,he is still living (okay im over exaggerating!-.-)
but looking at the way i cook,i feel full enough alr and grossed out by some stuffs :P
i've only found out today how i've been used,seems like i was your friend,but only when you need it,
what a fool i've been,believing that you're my friend
only to find that everytime im called,its when you are alone...
i could put down the things im doing because you are important to me,
but can you?seems not,
seems like you are the only impt one revolving in your own world
seems like a woke up from a long dream and in the end,i still hurt more than you do...
from today onwards,im gonna put myself priority before anything else,
i have to be more selfish instead of selfless,maybe than i wont hurt as much..
Note to self for today:This world is a selfish one,i shld'nt be the fool to care abt anyone else first,if i dont take care of myself no one else would,i have to change this weakness or i will forever be used..thanks for making me learn the lesson the hard way,im thankful that i woke up to face this reality..
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Spot the difference game during F&N coursework evaluation yesterday!♥played using syahidah's iphone!♥
(played secretly with dorene and wanling,teeheee;D)
thanks syasya fierce!;D
nice phone plus phone cover!;D
coursework evaluation half done than i got bored :P
anyway,can copy last years coursework!wheeeee~
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Today's F&N o'level practical!i really hate the kitchen's stuff,
its so dirty!):
all the pots i got still had the oil and hard hard crumbs stuck there,
which made me really disgusted and scrubbed like mad at the pots,
but aft cooking,i still feel disgusted by the dirty pots and pans and houseflies flying ard!):
i didnt touch my food,lol,waste food but i really felt grossed out!):
most items were helped by mdm choo):
shucks,help=deduct marks..no free lunch in the world,HAHA
but it really improved the overall look i must say!^^
the o'level markers better be impressed!>:(
pretty pretty decorations!♥
if only i didnt waste food!):
i feel really guilty and all):
tmr gonna do coursework evaluation,
boohoooo,i dont know how to fill up the evaluation sheet,HELP!):
but i finished editing my compilation cos i changed recipe(which i regret!): )
looking forward to the weekend,BYE!(^.^)
Friday, June 4, 2010
love my shoes!;D
went to watch shrek forever after
On the way for lit seminar at one marina boulevard,cute right?;D
doggy bus!;D
nice scenery,im like a mad tourist!;D
chemistry in the morning for today,
F&N in the afternoon
Teriyaki salmon
Braised vegetable pot(opps,boiled for too long :P blandy bland)
ABC soup(just threw everything in :P didnt even cut the chicken into smaller size)Wed
upstairs renovating-.-
wish to renovate me house too,
but only just for the sake of spiting them!:P
went to cck's library with LXY,
did holiday homework,
then went to watch shrek forever after,
predictable ending but that happily ever after doesnt occur in real life anyway,
so watching felt like giving myself false hope that everything will always end up well..
*sigh sigh*just a cartoon eugenia,thats the point!>:(
cant help being pessimistic though):
walked walked,
than went to bpp,
had dinner w mama and papa,
they bought bolsters,
it looked weird to everyone when we carried it><
but who cares?had fun and thats whats impt!;D
Thurs
lit seminar starts @ 9.45,
woke up @ 9.30!>:(
(woke up cos i had a dream of being late and the bus leaving w/o me T.T)
was really late so i ran and was all sweaty,
but hey,at least i didnt miss the bus!;D
ended up in a jam for 1hr cos some other bus overturned>:(
so was late for 1hr plus):
but Mr.Darren shiau was so kind to repeat what we missed,
enjoyed the session and it really made me think through alot,
nice to meet the author of the book,
made us understand more of his stand,
and like what ms quek said before,
the singapore flavour and descriptive things he wrote is sooooo cool!;D
Fri
chem in morning,
i missed alot of ppl,
TWL and SS made me laugh alot!;D
was telling TWL how cute they were,
teeheeee,its true!!!!;D
you dont see me going ard saying that abt everyone!;D
F&N at afternoon,
thanks to syasya fierce and jingwen for helping,
i felt pathetic and lost):
well,what do you expect?didnt practice at all:P
o'level practical is closing up and i fear it*shivers shivers*
to sleepless nights for days to come!
& wahhhh,my leg is sore!>:(
tuition at night,
maths maths maths!@.@
when the hell did 6.0 become 0.6?!
must have been sleeping
pls call me crazy and whack me,
now the teacher to my parents are laughing):
-end here abruptly,wahaha!;D-
