Sunday, July 25, 2010
*sigh*):
been busy with school,
revolving around studies,
everyday,it would be back from school,
eat,sleep,midnight do homework and revision all the way til morning,
hmmm and maybe 2-3 hours of sleep if i finish my work early..
then its off to school and start the cycle again..
i know i shldnt take a afternoon nap,
but i cant think straight when im sleepy):
i've been stressing and stretching myself,
mdm choo and wanling both said that im too stressed out,
why?i take a very long time to sleep,
cos my heart pounds so fast that i can feel it jumping out of my chest,
i cant get my mind off studies,is what i do sufficient?it feels like it never does!
i get really bad dreams of being late for school and the occasional maths nightmare,
i'm taking studies super seriously,
why?i realised that in order to get people to respect and realise your existence,
is that one cert,that o'level cert,
i want that from my mum,to see me instead of my cousins,is that too much to ask?
i may not be as good,but at the end of the day,i want to enter the exam hall w confidence,
and come out saying i have done all that i could and give myself a pat on the head,
so i really have to push myself,cos i want this,
i want this for more than anything in the world!!
im so not gonna take the easy way out or be an escapist!>:(
only good day of last week was friday,
i gotta go eat with my favourite ppl in the world!;D
although it was a long day packed with normal curriculum,poa test,poly talks& F&N night class,
if you get me to do it again,i would..
the satisfaction of doing smth towards my goal makes me feel at ease,
and eating w my favourite ppl in the world filled w laughter
makes me feel that i would never wish for better friends ;D
only thing abt night class is that it makes me uneasy..
i could walk among a sea of ppl in the night and it still makes me feel lonely...
