UN-recordable.. x3

2010-09-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

today went to many shopping malls at orchard,
bought food at takashimaya first,
then walked around and found all the super ex stores ):
then to ion orchard,
got kinda lost before we reached far east plaza,
first time i spent quite a lot(to me,yesyes,imma miser)on food!!:O
normally,i would eat at home b4 i go out to spend money on things that will last longer,
like APPARELS!!!
but this time i only spent money on food,
had wanton mee and bubble tea in far east plaza,
in some grafitti cafe,damn cool,i sat on a chair which has writings of show luo,
and wanling sat on a chair which has writtings of shinee,
and of cos,the wall was full of other writings,
i saw alot about kpop groups and stars,
like 2am,2pm,wondergirls,shinee and many more which i cant rmb,
while walking along,
also heard alot of kpop songs,
wooooooooooo korean wave~ME LIKEYYYYY~:D
was sick of "can we pretend that airplanes hit the night skies like shooting stars"
and "love the way you lie" though,
too many stores playing and too much rap gives me headache!!T.T
far east plaza was a letdown to me,
other than food paradise and the nice looking cafe,
i didnt buy any apparels):
they either didnt suit me or was too expensive):
imma so sad now cos this is supposed to be my last shopping trip b4 o's!):
said to go out one day during September holidays though,
JUST ONE DAY,im telling you no one can study 24/7,you really will go mad,
oh,my prelims are OVER!:D
proud of myself to overcome the feeling of running from the examination hall,
gotta admit i was so tempted to,but it feels good once you finish,
studying hard and going for it despite fears is like half the battle won
you know,when you just dont wanna hurt your self esteem,your ego
you try to protect it,for me,these exams hurts,
those stupid mistakes always make me..
lets just say feel like banging my head on the wall and just bleed and die..
but well,in conclusion,no escapes,tried my best,enough for me :D

teachers day cards me and wanling worked on last minute,
didnt prepare any gifts and all,
few days before i had 2 teachers that disappointed me..
-vented and deleted :D-
sry you didnt see it,it was here awhile ago!
(oh,i wont answer anything regarding this!forget forget forget,takes time but maybe its possible)

Cherish time which flows through fingers like water

2010-08-30T07:59:00.000-07:00

nice pose, but why did i look frightened?!:P
LOL,theres a joke behind the hand sign adapted from beimin,haha,laughed so hard!!xD
blurry):
HAHA,advertising the drink?
damn candid1st take,its mine!:D
yiro'scakeeeee :B
ICE CREAMMMMMM!!!

wooooooo,
today had buffet at sakura part 2 with jingwen,minhsuan,michelle,yiro and wanling !:D
loads of pictures okay?!
cos i brought my charged cammy out!:D
know this is my last time eating sakura's buffet,
im cheapskate,heart pain when 50% discount no more you know?!):

totally no mood if using phone,off flash still got flash,
wth is wrong?!:/
anyway,blogger is pissing me off,
i have to upload the pics one by one and it keeps giving me errors!!>:(

damn glad today,
ate hell lot at today's buffet,not as much regrets as last time,
i stuffed myself with fruits the last time cos i thought it would aid digestion,
but it probably doesnt work):
went to wait early,but the queue was already very long,
luckily we still managed to get sits!!;D
this time dont feel as awkward and chiong to eat,
lol gotta get back my money's worth you know!
the other time so wasted, eat sooooo little >:(
laughed damn loud over there,
not sure about what,*sigh* funny things are easy to forget!!
anyway,enjoyable day,
but bloody full,so hard to move
like meatballssssss,
lol,my joke about our tummies being that ><

am damn tired now,
yesterday studied poa like mad,
still cannot make it,my memory failed me when i needed it the most,
still,its an attempt and lesson learnt,
cant wait for tomorrow!!
jingwen and minhsuan going for cooking competition against mdm choo,
hadi has dance and annabelle has singing,
good luck friends and everyone who is taking part,
may the best man win, but remember, competitions are not all about winning,
its about the process of the competition,to improve ourselves,
"winning is not everything,but the effort to win is" -Zig Ziglar
goodluck, im rooting for you all, will clap damn loud!! ;D

Unwind

2010-08-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging for awhile now,
facebook is more convenient,
haha,im a 100% supporter,
was anti against it because i thought that it will distract me,
but the games arent really fun for me after a few days):
so no worries,i just wanna stay connected w ppl i know though^^
prelims are keeping me busy):
however,today went to jurong point, bugis and iluma to unwind
was late cos i hate waiting for others and i figured they would be late,
but noooo,i got it all wrong again,
my theory doesnt work)':
*sigh* i reckon i better be on time cos i felt so guilty!)':
bought alot of things and im still satisfied w them!^^
most of the time i regret one or two stuffs,
but today,im not~:D
must be because i had all their opinions to help me,
yayyy me~!!!:D
talked abt someone hate-ious,
i feel like i bump into her alot,
wow,talk about unlucky like hell,
feel so much better venting,lol,grasshopper:P
ate dinner ard food centre near there,
? oh wait,i didnt eat cos i didnt feel like it, :P
but it felt nice to sit there,my legs were breaking apart,
would you believe the amt of time we shopped?!
from 11 plus i went out of my house and i came home ard 9 plus :O
cool much?!;D
took the bus back,(yayy bus bus bus,i love buses!^^)
i think we laughed damn loud,
when im alone,im always bothered by other ppl's noise,
but yet today still laughed damn loud,
opps:P i understand why ppl are loud alr:P
but funny whatttttt,
i think the bus should have an entertainer infront,
so everyone can laugh with us,the more the merrier right?
and no one gets bored:D
i love taking pictures nowadays,
cos i look back and find out that pictures have memories of the time spent together,
and i realized that most of my good memories havent been captured in the moment,
and i can vaguely remember the good times,its kinda sad right?):
eh,ask me take picture w you hor!:D

bye,shall blog when i have pictures of any occasion again,
i know everyone likes a picture filled post!!^^
*sigh* no time to study poa,
the feeling of running away is happening again,
but i wont,I WONTTTTTT,
shall try my best to memorise,
die also must die trying,
hardcore studying tmr,
"Problems are just opportunities filled with thorns"-i love this quote(:
study hard than i can have my buffet part 2 at sakura in peace,
YAYYY buffet!!!^^

omg,omg,OMG?!:/

2010-08-20T03:51:00.000-07:00

Havent been blogging for a long time,
been busy and all,
especially today,
ss seq 2 qns test,poa ratio test and o'level eng oral,
hectic?!:/
i actually said omg during the oral and dorene is teasing me):
i now have a facebook acct!:D
type eugenia tan and add me okay?!:D
nice,facebook keeps ppl connected!:D
there are some ppl i wont add and i hope you dont too,
those are ppl who use me like a tissue and throw me aside(:
btw,this is only targetted at one person(:

blabbered to ppl aft oral,
how come its easy for you all?:/
marriage?HAHA,why dont you ask me aft i get married?!:/
going out to lunch w xinyi and xinyao and maybe beimin?
tmr!!:D to replenish energy wasted by extreme brain cell use!
I NEED GOOD FOOD~:D

N'level is soon,
good luck to all!
especially to close friends,
i know you guys can do it~!:D
meetup aft your n level okay?!
i dont think i can wait until aft O's!!!:D
xoxo

LOL

2010-08-14T05:38:00.000-07:00

someone actually went to google to type "boys toilet"
and found my blog,LOL xD
checked through nuffnang,
ROFL,amazing,cos i went through 7 over pages on google and still cant find my site!
to the person if you are still reading,
im not some kinda perv who always go there alright?:P
it was to turn on the auto lights!(okay and my partial curiousity):P

prelims currently on hold!
YIPEEEE~
haishhh,im worried abt the papers i took though :/
today had chem remedial,
danggg!my chem class test got 33/40,
yet my mock paper failed by 2 marks!):
should have just studied chem,
like i only studied physics and a little chem on the morning of the test,
practically lost my mind trying to cramp words into my small memory space
*sigh*can only blame myself):
eng oral coming,
definite stumble and regrets for not saying more aft that):
tests are so irritating,i always get nervy and forget everything or get them messed up!

im boreddddd,
nobody wants to go out w me these days):
all because of the prelim craze,
oh come on!you dont study 24/7!you'll go mad!):

Never before

2010-08-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

class photo during national day celebration flag made up of wishes and decorated by every class in school mr aljunied and the bunny hairband!;D

All pictures credited to fazira taken from her facebook!

specially created facebook to get photos from fazira,lol
will go to facebook after o'levels,
im so afraid i will get distracted by the games :P
dont think im ignoring you if i dont accept friend request!
anyyway,those are photos from national day celebration,
arent you glad im blogging frequently? ;D
only for this long holiday which is becoming shorter by the minute!:P

waiting for rainbow after the rain

2010-08-07T10:08:00.000-07:00

given by mdm choo during f&n remedial
stupidly humongous umbrella!>:( (exaggeration)

was raining today,
zzz,raining makes me cold and angry,
took the big fat umbrella cos i lost my small cute and pretty pink checkered one..):
CURSE WHOEVER TOOK IT!
I CURSE YOU TO FALL EVERYDAY!>:(
my favourite umbrella lehhh!!
ughhhh,so pissed at myself and the idiot who took it!

finished research and food journal for today,
glad i stayed up til 3am last night to finish up to key factor 2,
so i get to go home early,which was 11 plus
YAYY!:D
mdm choo always give us treats!
although i always feel like i shld be the one giving her stuffs,
cos she's so nice and dedicated to our work~:D
from london choco roll to oreos to sweets,
yummmm~:D
the guys made jokes abt dating mdm choo's daughter again,
she told them never like always,but it cracks me up each time!;D

sleepathon once i got home,
i owe alot of sleeping debt its becoming bad debts which are very doubtful
HAHA!
wanted to do some homework for maths,
but i got lazyyyy:P
i swear to start tmr,i'll be letting myself down if i dont!
tuition at night again,
my teacher is the best,she always praises me no matter how small the achievements!
she makes me feel appreciated!:D
also mr tan said a little bit more and it echos in my head too,
yes, a little bit more to go and i'll hit my goal!
but for today, its Eugenia's time to self day,
been neglecting some alone time and caught up in studies and all,
i feel exhausted!
taking a break helps you go a longer way!but take adequate ones!
alrights,waiting for my hair to dry so i can sleep again,
i seriously need sleep!sleeping is the best!^^
and i will need it for tmr,
smth i call "power study" project~:D

If time stopped

2010-08-06T07:15:00.000-07:00

found this somewhere in school,cool much?
my bling bling toenails
summarising ss with cute notes!
buffet at sakura!:D
Me and wanling
minhsuan and jingwen
satisfied customers of the buffet!:D

today had national day celebration at school,
every year its the same,
that im not int in watching alr,
especially so after ppl chop our place..zzz -.-
explored the school with xinyao,HAHA!:P
concert was rather enjoyable,
we have talented ppl in our school :D
mr aljunied and the bunny hairband!
everyone got high and stood up and sing the songs,
i only stood up for "stand up for singapore" and sing~:D

after school,
rushed home to take a nap,
didnt feel like waking up,
but still did,
meet up with wl first,
than went to meet jw and mh :D
didnt queue for v.long to get sits,
you should see the food there!
wows!aft taking pic of my first course,
im too lazy to take more pics,
ate til my stomach was protruding out like mad!:P
had prawn soup,tomyam soup,steak,oreo cheesecake and jellies
and of course alot more,but im lazy to mention,
paid only $15 for that enjoyable buffet and we sat ard to gossip,
from 6 plus to 9.30 when the buffet ends!

tmr have F&N remedial,
zzzz,i havent finish editing research!!>:(
grrr at my time management and i still have maths tuition,
ohno,i havent do the homework.. ._.
poop,no sleep tonight):

BOO!

2010-08-05T08:56:00.000-07:00

prelims for eng and ss today were alright,
hope i pass with flying colours pls~;D
i kinda blanked out for eng though,
*sigh* head filled w ss stuffs):

today had f&n night class,the only night class i attend!;D
mdm choo said my research like writing a book!
too much info,she said im forever writing a book,HAHA :P
today sat with syasya act innocent face,
the new nicky i gave her;D
went downstairs to refill water,
i boo-ed her and she jumped,
rather good,if someone boo-ed me in the night,
i will scream!!:P
went to boys toilet to turn on the automatic light,
SO WE COULD SEE IN THE DARK,
COS WATERCOOLER IS NEXT TO BOY'S TOILET,
BTW,THERE WAS NO ONE INSIDE,THEREFORE THE DARKNESS..
ah what the hell?me and syasya were curious okay?><

the feast the feast is tomorrow,
what should i eat?!:O
never dined there b4,
wanling even placed plastic wrapping ard the pamphlet,
cool much?we got prove okay?!50% off~;D
CANT WAIT FOR THE GIRLS NIGHT OUT!;D
and i made plans to go for group studying on monday,
gonna try group studies to see if its effective! ♥

2010-08-04T05:28:00.000-07:00

Prelims are tommorow!:O
finished studying governance for ss,
and conflict in sri lanka,
slow right?but its time consuming to memorise,
so all in all,its alright i guess ;D
these days rushing like mad,
rushing in homework,tests,studying and all,
F&N cw B officially handed it up,
such a relief,one o'level thing down!;D
teachers gave alot of test on monday *sigh*
i screwed up for physics and chem,
im disappointed in myself in chem!
i should have studied hardier on methods of salt preparation):
for the class test,i only had one mistake to full marks!;D
(praise me please!)
*sigh,but screwed up this time's mock):
too much in the head causes these blank outs..
but ms tan said learn from your mistakes and i will..i feel much better alr!;D
maths mock test 4 more marks to pass!!
im stupidly careless,
felt the cosine rule gave weird number so i switched it to pythagoras theorm,
omg,what am i doing?i just threw 2 m out of the window!
im gonna bang my head on the wall today until brain juices start working!
some answers i gave made me satisfied though,
throw me the qns again,i wont know how to do,
it was all by luck,i guessed my way through,so dangerous!

friday might be going out to have buffet with my classmates,
50% off lehh!what a treat!^^
a feast a feast!me and wanling were alr salivating,
promise pictures the next time i post!;D

Accomplishment

2010-07-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

today had F&N night class,
submitted my final compilation for coursework part B,
feels like putting down a burden,so nice~;D
than went to watch korean drama, (EEP!my love~)
'bread,love and dreams' the other time was watching 'will it snow for christmas'
which made me cry like mad!):
but overall was a superb drama,a little draggy though..
hahas,f&n is to catch up on drama~
but its only cos i did my work at home what!my reward is sweet~;D
anyway,today,sat all the way back so i wont disrupt anyone or have to stop watching,
but guocong and azry still came to seesee :/
haha,our whole row was playing,
wanling watched hk drama,minhsuan and michelle played ds and jingwen played civilisation3,
after syahidah finished her coursework,
we went to play boxhead 2 online,
wtf?we like died at the 2nd-3th level when red devils appear,):
awww,damn agitated..and syasya that escapist ran away and abandoned me w red devil):
grenades are the best against army of zombies~;D
this game takes the stress away manszx!
we got oreos again, thanks mdm choo~;D
than homed,laughed alot w weiming, guocong and ivan making jokes,
rofl,sometimes i wonder how they think of things like those xD

*how could i be trapped in a lie for so long w/o knowing?
isnt it completely laughable?
i guess i didnt wanna know but subconciously i alr did,
doesnt ease the pain anyway..
i want this flood of tears to be the last ones..
PS:hey s,if only you were sincere,just this once,is that too much to ask for?
what is the true you?
i dont know and i guess i'll never do,
you always hide behind that facade,
but i strongly believe you cant keep your true self inside for long,
hyprocite,i'll be waiting for the true you and your downfall*

2010-07-29T05:20:00.000-07:00

Did you know our school's water cooler has fishes?:O
cant see?

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here you go!

hahas,joke of the day by wl,
me and yiro were excited and rushed over to see when wl said it,
like "really?where where?!!"
and not only 1 fish,there were six!
hahahas,i never noticed it before,
aft giving the -.- face,we couldnt stop laughing and pranked each other!;D
it was hard keeping a straight face,
we went back to the water cooler like 3-4 times!
weiming said "arent you gonna save it?!"
and yihui got a plastic bag ready to save it,
all these happened before physics remidial,
im sooooo tired and tempted to take a nap,
but today was a fruitful day and i wanna make it more fruitful!
yeayea,like what mr lim said,2000cc man!!
mr lim's talks are really inspiring,with whamming impact,
i wish that he could nag at me everyday so i wont stop working hard,
hahas,call me crazy,but i wasnt bored when he speaked,
hope some classmates are doing well and get outta trouble,
they laughed during the talk and were funny,almost making me laugh too!;D

2010-07-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging for a whole week,
*sigh*):
been busy with school,
revolving around studies,
everyday,it would be back from school,
eat,sleep,midnight do homework and revision all the way til morning,
hmmm and maybe 2-3 hours of sleep if i finish my work early..
then its off to school and start the cycle again..
i know i shldnt take a afternoon nap,
but i cant think straight when im sleepy):

i've been stressing and stretching myself,
mdm choo and wanling both said that im too stressed out,
why?i take a very long time to sleep,
cos my heart pounds so fast that i can feel it jumping out of my chest,
i cant get my mind off studies,is what i do sufficient?it feels like it never does!
i get really bad dreams of being late for school and the occasional maths nightmare,
i'm taking studies super seriously,
why?i realised that in order to get people to respect and realise your existence,
is that one cert,that o'level cert,
i want that from my mum,to see me instead of my cousins,is that too much to ask?
i may not be as good,but at the end of the day,i want to enter the exam hall w confidence,
and come out saying i have done all that i could and give myself a pat on the head,
so i really have to push myself,cos i want this,
i want this for more than anything in the world!!
im so not gonna take the easy way out or be an escapist!>:(

only good day of last week was friday,
i gotta go eat with my favourite ppl in the world!;D
although it was a long day packed with normal curriculum,poa test,poly talks& F&N night class,
if you get me to do it again,i would..
the satisfaction of doing smth towards my goal makes me feel at ease,
and eating w my favourite ppl in the world filled w laughter
makes me feel that i would never wish for better friends ;D
only thing abt night class is that it makes me uneasy..
i could walk among a sea of ppl in the night and it still makes me feel lonely...

Surprises

2010-07-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

Even week..Monday,
the beginning of the week again,
was supposed to have chem remedial,
but it was cancelled,only 5 ppl out of 27 turned up on time,
the rest were either late or went home,
teacher looked disappointed):
ohmanszx,i feel guilty for not turning up on sat,
i swear i definitely will not miss chem again,
even if i have to drag myself there...awww,i still feel bad):

today,
xinyao passed me the bunny bunny in the 3rd pic,
the last time we went shopping after our movie,despicable me(last fri),
i just briefly commented about how adorable it was and played w it in the store,
and she actually bought it for me and passed it to me today!
AWWWW,HOW SWEET CAN YOU GET?!
i still havent treated her to lunch lehhh,(she declined)
now i feel guilty T.T
what do you want teacher wang?!dont make me lug a big big present to sch one day!
and and and,xinyi helped me w my testimonial yesterday too,
ARE PPL WITH INITIALS XY ALL SO SWEEEEEET?!
OH MY GOSHHHH,I ♥ YOU GUYSSSS~;D
i need monehhh,so i can buy awesome things for these awesome ppl~;D
okay,im gonna start saving money~

today's epwl's birthday,
happy 19th birthday big bully~;D
i baked a cupcake for him,
well,you know,what can you buy for guys anyway?
i asked ard and no one seems to know,
not even the guys!!-.-
instead of cracking my skull to think,
i figured a sincere gift is the best,isnt it?!;D
i tried several failed attempts for cupcakes too alright?!
although imma f&n student,
still,no guarantees it's safe,i didnt follow a recipe(yikes!><)
BUT BUT BUT,i did try one cupcake luhhh,
wanna die,die together :P
anyway,went to bpp w him to get his cake,
chit chat,then homed and now im blogging!;D

wonder when's the next fire drill?
funny how teachers thought the every half an hour bell to be fire drill bell,
and very very funny how in the end all the students were blamed for it -.-
health check up tmr,
i dont like ppl touching me!!yucks!!><
and im pissed that im missing F&N,
the deadline is creeping so close for cw part B,
and cw part A is 2 weeks aft submission of cw part B!
luckily i did extensive research before hand,
but i cant stop wishing abt skipping other subjects
why cant it be..oh,i dont know,maybe English?
ya!why cant i miss english instead?!
3 boring periods,oh,can i even make it through tmr?:/

2010-07-17T03:53:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went out to watch despicable me,
supposed to be posting yesterday,
but had a slight fever and i didnt know it..
because i thought i was aching cos i walked ard too much at cck,
but then i had a terrible headache and sweated alot,
so i went to take my temperature,so yeap..):
took panadol and overslept..ZZZ..-.-
walao,missed chem and maths remedial!!T.T (slaps myself)
sorry syahirah my chem buddy,i promised to come):
and i hate leaving wanling alone too):
i feel so guilty im gonna dieeeeeeeee):
im so gonna make up for that with doing some practices of maths and chem!!

well,anyway,
despicable me was fantastic and awesome,
that meanie guy was mean because his mom didnt see his achievements,
and it seemed like being mean was a way of escaping,hiding his true self..
that part kinda pulled at my heartstrings...
and i feel that im a little like him too,not mean,but cold...
everyday,i feel like im just getting colder and colder,
i feel that im losing my feelings..
people fall?oh,they fall lor,in the past,i will help them out or smth,
but now?i feel that i just have to care more abt myself..
why?because when i fall,i dont see anyone helping me,i get up myself,
and well,i feel that everyone should just do so themselves too..
this mindset somehow feels wrong,but my heart doesnt listen anymore,
i dont even feel a slight pinch of pity..
anyway,i love the minions the most in the shows!
their cute language and blabberings are cuteeeeee~;D
if you have'nt seen the movie,go and catch it!!!
worth your money!!!
i dont mind if you call me for a second round okay?!!!
its totally awesome~~;D

after the movie with xinyao,
xinyi and beimin came and join us,
went ard shopping and i bought my assessment book for poa!;D
time to touch up on the topic i kinda put in the freezer,super left aside!
im broke manszx!):
im supposed to be going out again,
but poor plus sick totally ruined my mood..
omg,i still havent bought presents for july babies!):

Please take your pity away,
the way you look at me,the way you treat me and the way you talk to me,
pls take it all away,
i dont need pity,why cant you understand?!
dont you know your acts of pity makes me hate you more?
just leave me alone,
dont you know the happy family picture you show me hurts?
dont say things you dont mean..
stop giving me false hopes,
you dont know how much i believe in them and get hurt over and over again,
its absurd,the things you ask from me...
lonely?does that word even exist in her dictionary?
am i fool?someone you fall back on when you need and thrown when you dont?
i rather be left alone,pls,before i go mad...

Potato crazeeeee!

2010-07-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

Raw potato,boiled potato,baked potato,microwaved potato!;D
i forgot i wasnt supposed to swallow raw potato cos its poisonous-.-,
gosh i swallowed alot cos i cant think of stuffs to write for it):
smells like...CARROT,taste like...idk,go try on your own!;D
there was a stupid housefly,of all my samples,you like the raw potato?!
omg,your senses must be failing youuuuuu!!!!(this is randommmm)
took home the samples,
am not gonna eat it again soon,i think i can go 5 mths(?) w/o it,
infact,i feel as if i never wanna see it again,
sick man,potato fever!!!!!>:(
i found out today if you did smth for someone,
its reciprocal,well,unless that human is an asshole,
but still,that was unexpected and it felt nice and warm inside,
probably because everyone seems to live their own lives w/o a care for others,
this is such a cold society that it is hard to find nice people anymore,
and i,i feel that i am becoming that kind of cold person):

after practical,rushed home for tuition,
i like maths tuition these days,
my tuition teacher helps to build up my self esteem,
whenever i want to give up,her words rush into me brains,
and i just know i have to keep going and success!
i finished maths paper 2,some practice qns and i'm gonna do 10 yr series!
am gonna start those prelim papers of other school she gave me!:D
and no,i do not let praises rush into my head and become mad proud,
im not good enough for that yet!
(haha,kidding!although i know i can be such an asshole sometimes,
well its cos im not good in many things!allow me to have my short joy luhhh:P)
and well,people these days dont carry around praises,
and i do like to be praised once in a while,i mean who doesnt?!;D
i'm not stupid,just careless,just careless,just careless,JUST CARELESS,
keep telling me that and i'll believe it sooner or later(:

watched melrose place,
nice show mansxzzz!
one part i saw was:
Lauren:"happy birthday elle!" *takes small cupcake with candles*
Elle:"ahahah,you know i dont play the wishing game,i want something,i go out and get it"
*Uses fingers to scoop cream and lick it in slow motion*
isnt this line like giving off cool attitude vibes?!
admire the self confidence,so coool,EEEP!:P
the show is about scandals,murder and making use of people,
wow,i guess thats how realistic it is,
no matter what,people will do anything to get what they want,
and no one is safe as long as they continue living!
cos people will go through whatever means to get you down,
how scary,but thats life,you have to live with lies,
its whether if you can see through those woven lies..

going out tmr,
hmmm,eclipse or despicable me?
ohgosh,im wavering and stuck!!!):

im losing my rational

2010-07-11T08:43:00.000-07:00

weekends are boring,
i cant go out cos i feel mad guilty afterwards,
i cant stay home cos i wont be doing anything except:
lolling around,watching tv,playing com etc.etc.etc...
either ways,weekends always make me feel like i shld bang my head on the wall!>:(
weekends always feels like a waste on me,
i made plans to do blah blah blah,
but i always nv finish them T.T
PLS DRAG ME OUT FOR GRP STUDIES,ANYONE?
I PROMISE I WILL GO ALTHOUGH IM LAZYYYYY,
SHLD HAVE JUST WENT TO THE ONE IVAN TEXTED ME ABT THE LAST TIME!>:(
(i was lazy the last time:P)

went out for a walk with lucky together with Epwl,
hahas,we stay so close but we never met for 8 months?
thats what he told me,idk,i alr lost track of time :P
we walked to idk where,but according to him,its bangkit,
total time we walked ard was one hour plus,HAHA,mad exercise!
hahas,im a road idiot,and i mean super bad kind!:P
he was worried i cant even get home when my hse is
across the road plus a few blocks down-.-,
okay,im a road idiot,but at least i stayed here for 10 yrs kay?!
and i proved i made it home,if not,i wont be blogging here,
i would be wondering in the streets!;D
(btw,i sent him home,cos usually its the other way round and i wanna check out the place)
and wth,we were comparing facilities,
how can his block be so colourful,convenient plus have vending machine?!
HAHA,he still wanted to show off his hse downstairs have playground,
HAHA,I ALSO GOT,SHOWOFF!!!!;D
shld get him to tutor me physics,
he said he and his sister was ms neo's top student last time,
gonna bug and beg him to take me out studying!!;D

-Although i cant,i still did and you still stayed nonchalent,pls teach me how you did that-

Bad things in society

2010-07-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

Today went for lunch after school,
walked to bpp w Beimin, xinyi and xinyao,
(never will i do that again,i almost melted T.T)
sad to say,
saw some inconsiderate ppl,
probably the ones slamming the names of teenagers being,well..

INCONSIDERATE

those ppl were hogging the chairs with their bags,
like hello?!ppl need the seats and both of you put both bags on each chair,
2 ppl hog 4 chairs?
2 chairs for each one of your bag?!
cant you put them on one chair?!
super tempted to take down the pic to put on stomp!>:(

guess where those selfish ppl come from?!
the school starts with a letter A
(wth,they were wearing uniform somemore!-.-)
i guess its easy to guess where those selfish ppl come from!

-btw,xinyi asked me to blog abt this,hahax!!;D-
ok,im gonna continue doing what im supposed to do,my F&N!!:P

More than i need

2010-07-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

~My dream home~

My "teddy"bank who is weeping cos its broke and left with pathetic $2,
i have to treat ms xinyao to lunch tmr,HAHA!<3
The sweet my tuition teacher brought from shanghai,
cow prints~lol,she had some duck's neck sweet,
she said it is made of real duck's neck?O.O
its really expensive?O.O
(btw,i didnt take that!)

feel so scammed-.-
thought there was chemistry test,POA test,chinese o'level oral today,
turns out there was only chinese o'level oral,
although lucky but my mind was crammed with all 3,
felt so wasted like i should have just studied chinese..
sigh,oh well~
chinese today went rather well,
at least i dont regret much,
i only regret not using those long long sentences i memorised,
but good enough for me to fulfil 3 reasons,3 consequences and 4 methods of improving,
and some random questions and things asked by the teacher,
(gosh,they are really nice)
well,overall i'm satisfied w myself,actually,quite happy too~
but i screwed the passage first paragraph cos i was too nervous luhhh,sheesh!
but its okay to be nervous,shows how impt it is to me ;D
topic is 青少年伤害自己?smth like that ;D

nice environment the library has and we all had a great time and laugh like mad
(secretttttt~;D whee whee wheeeeeeeeeeeeee~)
whenever im nervous,i blabber like maddddd,
so right after the test,i started ringing ppl up,
first,i rang up ms wang xinyao,my teacher in oral,
thanks to her for helping me yesterday on the phone
and comforting me not to be nervous!;D
(i'm treating her to lunch tmr!;D)
than i rang up xinyi,
hahas,she said i was madddd,well,what do you expect?
i have been tolerating silence for a few hours,of cos madddd~;D
lastly,i rang up yiro and we talked abt the oral and how blanked out we were,
and most of our conversation was "YA LOR YA LOR!!!!"
hahas,exams makes ppl freak out like maddddd~
we talked on the phone for like 45 mins plus,HAHA
my longest record is 2hrs plus,45 mins plus is crazy,
especially since i was the one who dialed with my handphone..-.-
im gonna have to pay for my phone bills again,hahax~

had maths tuition,
i blabbered non-stop to my tuition teacher and she told me some stories,
and inspiring things,
she said i still have hope,
not stupid,just careless...
that makes me feel better,HAHA!;D

Am i pathetic to you?

2010-07-06T05:53:00.000-07:00

YEEP!!
went to dig up some of my things,
like my journal to teacher in primary school,
OMG >_<
somethings shld be said and somethings shld not!!!
i soooooooo wanna dig up a hole and hide now,
(i always say this when i wanna be a escapist)
but seriously!!
somethings inside were cute,
but others just made me...
just...JUST...JUST JUST JUST...EEEEEPPPP!!!
imma blabbermouth,til now i have no idea why i did that..-.-
and i totally forgot for a moment why i was doing this,
but the journal woke me up and told me the sense in achievement i havent felt for ages,
and i really wanna go for it now...in search of that joy again!;D
so anyway,good and bad stuffs of the journal,
but it made me rmb some of the times i had,my ambitions and why i held on to them..
and the times where everyone was so innocent and truthful that i kinda miss it,
now you cant really tell what ppl are hiding in them,
kinda sad right?):
(anyway i dont rmb some names i wrote in the book?:P)

yeesh,
my phone didnt let me assess it..):
(heh heh because i press code stuff and press a series of nonsensical no.)

-i must be that pathetic to be pitied-

Before sch reopen post

2010-06-27T09:57:00.001-07:00

my completed homework!!!(*SCREAMS*)
feels weird posting pics of my homework,LOL-.-
but BUT BUT,
i completed all of them today and im proud of it!^^
my little babys~(hehs,let me be self absorbed in the moment~:P)
(okay not only today,yesterday started at ard 3am cos i hadda nightmare T.T)
of cos had a little tv break,computer break and nappy break in between^^
im glad i can finish them,the time now is 1am,
but now that i have finished them,i cant slp cos my hearts thumping too fast,
you know the adrenaline rushing through like mad,
seemed like mission impossible to complete all by today,
but i still did it,YAYY!^^ (still happy like madddddd)
but still feel that i should have done revision,
awwww,always like that,but when having holidays,happily forget all,tsktsk :/
nevermind,too late for regrets,just have to go all the way now w/o regrets,
chiongggg ahhh!

Im reluctant abt sch,
i miss my friends,i miss my teachers,
i miss laughing like mad til you cant laugh anymore and your tummy hurts in a good way,
i miss the funny jokes teachers and students converse with..
but,i really hate rushing to sch(im always rather late,or so i stupidly think),
i hate rushing classwork cos i'll be writing crap
(when teacher threatens he/she wont release us unless we finish it),
i hate tests...
ahh well,life cant just be a bed of roses can it?

Time is running much faster than i am

2010-06-25T12:10:00.000-07:00

Pause my playlist,its at the bottom left hand corner~;D

these are my keys,
I put my name there cos i left them behind at the com lab the last time
scared the shit outta me,
well,anyone see this ard,
pls give me a punch and return it to me,love ya~;D

-i just want to rip out those images from my mind-

Words left unspoken

2010-06-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

i srsly dont know why you give birth to me,
dont your children matter?WHY DIDNT YOU PROTECT WJ?!
how could you?!you will never understand,because you dont feel the loss,
but for me,whenever i think abt the times we could have,it hurts so much..
to you only your mother matters,every single time you go running back,
i'm not saying you cant,but dont you rmb you have a daughter?me?
only your side of the family matters,they are the top of the world,they are the greatest,
their achievements make you proud,
than what abt me?
im always compared to them,nth i do is ever alright for you,nth i do makes you proud,
im always blamed and in the wrong,why am i always the one deemed lying?
have you ever turned and look at me?
what am i for anyway?
for you to make use of when you are old?
than at least pretend that you care,
im not childishly venting my anger,
its just that im disappointed far too many times,
i feel stampled on and if i continue believing,im afraid i will really go mad..
i must have sinned like mad in my previous life like maybe burnt a country or smth,
but this system is ridiculous!
its all in the upbringing and brainwashing,
unfair to just put it all on me,
damn screwed!

i feel much better aft venting,
oh,and nice lecture LGJ,KGJ & KSM!<3
funny plus meaningful
i will always rmb it!^^
"Life is like a rollercoaster,full of ups and downs,you have to experience a high slide down to have the momentum to go higher,best thing abt rollercoaster is that it does not start without a safety bar so feel free to enjoy your life's rollercoaster"
"Will you live for envy of your friends?will you live the dreams of your parents?or will you live for yourself,finding what you like and can do best?"
super inspiring~:D

WHAT A PAIN

2010-06-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

My "neighbours" are being sucha pain again,
crazy kids running over other ppl's scandals,and damaging the walls with bicycles
if they did that to my sandals,i will kill them immediately!
guess i dont have the life of having good neighbours!
kids will be kids eh?but i dont see why they can damage other neighbours properties!
im so peeved!>:(

and when im peeved,i take revenge!

heh heh heh...

i have the perfect plan to pay them back...

I realised the reason i hated it all, was because i could never have it

2010-06-18T09:52:00.000-07:00

wheee cupcakes!^^
trial on coursework part B,
which is food science kinda thingy,
makes one feel important!;D
but so hate-ious that we have to be so precise,
but yea,have to be fair to compare results
and i seriously hate pastry margarine,
so sticky and gooey,i hope i never have to touch it again!(i know i sound so spoilt!><)
but im so proud of me and WL's experiment outcome!^^
it was messy and rough texture in the beginning :/
but it smoothed out and is a pretty brown shade,
im so proud!*sniffs sniffs*,so drama sio,LOL :P
but everytime i use the school's kitchen,i feel so grossed out,
didnt really want to eat but had to do it for evaluation,
after that,felt like puking and i didnt have lunch,
one thing good abt school's kitchen,can help you diet!;D
seriously,i dont know if its just me,
but place is ant infested and by the way i do things,i wont dare to eat it!(><)
for my cooking practical only azry ate it,
i warned him,shld have made him sign a contract too,
incase he gets food poisoning i shldnt be responsible eh? (><)
lucky for me,he is still living (okay im over exaggerating!-.-)
but looking at the way i cook,i feel full enough alr and grossed out by some stuffs :P
i've only found out today how i've been used,
seems like i was your friend,but only when you need it,
what a fool i've been,believing that you're my friend
only to find that everytime im called,its when you are alone...
i could put down the things im doing because you are important to me,
but can you?seems not,
seems like you are the only impt one revolving in your own world
seems like a woke up from a long dream and in the end,i still hurt more than you do...
from today onwards,im gonna put myself priority before anything else,
i have to be more selfish instead of selfless,maybe than i wont hurt as much..

Note to self for today:This world is a selfish one,i shld'nt be the fool to care abt anyone else first,if i dont take care of myself no one else would,i have to change this weakness or i will forever be used..thanks for making me learn the lesson the hard way,im thankful that i woke up to face this reality..

2010-06-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

Spot the difference game during F&N coursework evaluation yesterday!♥
played using syahidah's iphone!♥
(played secretly with dorene and wanling,teeheee;D)
thanks syasya fierce!;D
nice phone plus phone cover!;D
coursework evaluation half done than i got bored :P
anyway,can copy last years coursework!wheeeee~

2010-06-09T10:06:00.000-07:00

Today's F&N o'level practical!
i really hate the kitchen's stuff,
its so dirty!):
all the pots i got still had the oil and hard hard crumbs stuck there,
which made me really disgusted and scrubbed like mad at the pots,
but aft cooking,i still feel disgusted by the dirty pots and pans and houseflies flying ard!):
i didnt touch my food,lol,waste food but i really felt grossed out!):
most items were helped by mdm choo):
shucks,help=deduct marks..no free lunch in the world,HAHA
but it really improved the overall look i must say!^^
the o'level markers better be impressed!>:(
pretty pretty decorations!♥
if only i didnt waste food!):
i feel really guilty and all):
tmr gonna do coursework evaluation,
boohoooo,i dont know how to fill up the evaluation sheet,HELP!):
but i finished editing my compilation cos i changed recipe(which i regret!): )
looking forward to the weekend,BYE!(^.^)

2010-06-04T05:59:00.000-07:00

love my shoes!;D
went to watch shrek forever afterOn the way for lit seminar at one marina boulevard,cute right?;D
doggy bus!;D
nice scenery,im like a mad tourist!;D
chemistry in the morning for today,
F&N in the afternoon
Teriyaki salmon
Braised vegetable pot(opps,boiled for too long :P blandy bland)
ABC soup(just threw everything in :P didnt even cut the chicken into smaller size)

Wed
upstairs renovating-.-
wish to renovate me house too,
but only just for the sake of spiting them!:P
went to cck's library with LXY,
did holiday homework,
then went to watch shrek forever after,
predictable ending but that happily ever after doesnt occur in real life anyway,
so watching felt like giving myself false hope that everything will always end up well..
*sigh sigh*just a cartoon eugenia,thats the point!>:(
cant help being pessimistic though):
walked walked,
than went to bpp,
had dinner w mama and papa,
they bought bolsters,
it looked weird to everyone when we carried it><
but who cares?had fun and thats whats impt!;D
Thurs
lit seminar starts @ 9.45,
woke up @ 9.30!>:(
(woke up cos i had a dream of being late and the bus leaving w/o me T.T)
was really late so i ran and was all sweaty,
but hey,at least i didnt miss the bus!;D
ended up in a jam for 1hr cos some other bus overturned>:(
so was late for 1hr plus):
but Mr.Darren shiau was so kind to repeat what we missed,
enjoyed the session and it really made me think through alot,
nice to meet the author of the book,
made us understand more of his stand,
and like what ms quek said before,
the singapore flavour and descriptive things he wrote is sooooo cool!;D
Fri
chem in morning,
i missed alot of ppl,
TWL and SS made me laugh alot!;D
was telling TWL how cute they were,
teeheeee,its true!!!!;D
you dont see me going ard saying that abt everyone!;D
F&N at afternoon,
thanks to syasya fierce and jingwen for helping,
i felt pathetic and lost):
well,what do you expect?didnt practice at all:P
o'level practical is closing up and i fear it*shivers shivers*
to sleepless nights for days to come!
& wahhhh,my leg is sore!>:(
tuition at night,
maths maths maths!@.@
when the hell did 6.0 become 0.6?!
must have been sleeping
pls call me crazy and whack me,
now the teacher to my parents are laughing):

-end here abruptly,wahaha!;D-

Evil spelled backwards is live

2010-05-31T08:37:00.000-07:00

when i walked to school,
all kinds of ideas to run away and escape from this stress popped up in my head,
im so used to being an escapist plus coward who doesnt want to face up the truth,
i feel so "strawberry!" (chinese pupils shld know chao mei zhu)
what happened?!

today's chinese o level sucked big time,
paper 1 didnt come out on teenagers,
paper 2 lost 8 marks (I TOTALLY LEFT IT BLANK)T.T
FML,FML,FML
im sooooo gonna retake if im not getting an a2!>:(
sheesh,damn pissed!!!
i blanked out on easy words and wasted alot of time deciding on the qns,
1st time didnt finish p2,
last night whole night couldnt slp,
roll here roll there,roll everywhere~
now fretting over whats past(grr,stupid stupid me!)
and during the test i couldnt focus!>:(
damnination!

i wanna retake,i wanna retake,oh I SO WANT TO RETAKE!

feel much better aft venting my frustrations 1st thing to sihan,
and and and talking w my aunt,
she said huifang jiejie retook and marks jump from b3 to a1,
(not possible for me,BUT BUT,makes me feel better!;D)
im glad we have another chance to make it right again,
aft this incident,i will be careful of my time management!:D
i guess this is what you call you gain smth and lose smth,
i lost marks but gained experience~
WILL NOT MAKE THIS MISTAKE AGAIN!>:(
(better not or i'll bang my head on the wall)

byebye,
off to follow my idol's twitter,
ohmigosh,im sucha fan!xD
didnt expect that i'll go gaga over it,
wowzaaa,wonder when i'll finish reading all the twits?
i feel so out of touch w the world,
no twitter,no facebook just left w a blog,
HAHA,will get in touch w the world aft o's!;D

worried sick

2010-05-22T06:55:00.000-07:00

lucky ran out of home that day,
OH MY GOD,
we couldnt find him anywhere after hours and hours of searching):
we reported it to the police,
(i gotta admit,the policeman was kinda cute *giggles*)
BUT BUT BUT,
you're reaching the climax!
smartyass lucky ran back home in the morning,
THANKGOD HE KNEW HOW TO COME HOME!
as for where he went,its a mystery indeed...
only he knows and everyday i ask him where he went ;D
shit,didnt study that day for paper 1 test,
cos obviously i cried the whole night,
crazy lucky,went for an adventure!

i shouldnt make use of that person,
i shouldnt!i'm such a sick person!
they say its easier to be loved than to love,
but i guess i just have to wait for that someone who loves me as much as i love him,
thats why that will be that special someone...
yes...i shouldnt...i cant be cruel to do it for fun,
i cant step over his life,for fun..
yes,i just shouldnt..
sorry,i'll have to push you aside again,
only memories of him runs though my brain,if i could help it,
i would,but i stay helpless..

stop stepping all over me,
if you're as good,you wouldnt have ended up like a fking loser plus escapist plus gutless!
dont think you're at the top of the world,
everything can still change,
enough of the chit chat,
i guess i just have to prove you wrong!

You drive me crazy

2010-05-16T04:33:00.000-07:00

I.THREW.MY.PHONE.ON.THE.GROUND.AND.IT.FINALLY.WORKS!
my god!i was so peeved with it,
i tried master reset and everything blah blah blah,
than i got so angry(cos nth was working)i threw it on the floor,
it works!:D
bad thing is,i gotta reset everything in my phone cos i pressed reset -.-"
i guess i overthrew my phone..
i throw it when i get mad,
i throw it when i sleep(opps!)
i throw it when it doesnt listen
i throw it when i get your text or dont!
poor phone..):
but a throw helps!

i lost my pinkyzenstone):
i found my keys!:D (inside my shoe!HAHA!)
this sucks):

today i learnt something new,
isit the older you get,the more you forget your manners?!
went shopping w mama today(glad to say i bought 2 shoes!:D)
those aunties step,push,shove,squeeze and hit me and they still give me the black face!
but a teenager accidentally pushed me and said sorry,
ironic much?
isnt it the older ppl who preach and preach abt manners?
not talking abt all the old ppl but seriously aunties,you have children too right?
this is how you teach your children?!
if i can know so much to say a sorry,why cant you?!
the maddest thing was a lady ran her baby's pram wheel over me w/o apologizing,
i mean have you any idea how much it hurts?!
i bet if i was the one who did anything to them,
they will demand an apology..
typical aunties,grrrrrr!>:(

Sick and tired of you

2010-05-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

why must you talk back on every single word i say?
cant you just sit back,listen and console me for once?
every word you say seems to compete with mine,
and is that really necessary?
idk how much longer i can take this shit!
what do i actually mean to you?a punching bag?
does bringing me below your level makes you happy?
why do you expect me always be there for you when you are'nt for me?
you really take things for granted,i have my own life too
so what if i just wanna believe?
you cant stop my thoughts,run your own life!
didnt expect you to keep dashing my hopes,im so disappointed..
sooner or later,i will no longer be there for you,
you make me feel bad abt myself just so you can feel good about yourself..
why do i have to tolerate this pain?why must i let you feel joy at my expense?..

end of mye feels so nice,
but i feel bad,cos i did last min revision..
sometimes i will wake up in the middle of the night feeling startled,
and i will start fretting over the questions at exams,
makes me regret which sucks):
and my time management sucks which made me beat myself up):
sad sad sad...):
got no eyes to see the release of results..

Nice~

2010-04-30T07:34:00.001-07:00

From drama:Cinderella's sister
super duper nice drama,i cried like mad T.T
the songs are meaningful too~:D

Yeeouch!

2010-04-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Today had x-ray for my teethhhh~:D
if you didnt know,i'm short of 2 bottom teeths,
yeep,so i was to know the mystery behind it today,
and it turns out i was born without it ._.
screw the lady dentist,she was so impatient w me,
i wasnt even there for a minute!
compare it to the guy dentist who told me everything was alright,
like duh,i panicked knowing the fact that x-ray kills cells!
kinda funny how everyone scrambled out w/o telling me,
i laughed so hard!!;D

than off to my medical appt aft school,
i feel guilty for not staying in maths class):
haishhhh,nvm,shall ask my tuition teacher's help!:D
made the appt in time :D
another bo chap doctor,
say little bit and gt impatient(whats wrong w them?!)
so finally im officially "discharged"!:D
dont have to report back unless it comes back,
so YAYYYYYY!:D

tmr eng paper,
i want to do well in it!
its my best subject,
if i screw it up,i have no eyes to see the rest!>:(
wish me luck~:D

Emotions

2010-04-24T10:52:00.000-07:00

YAWNS,
most of my saturday is spent in school,
well,almost everyone has to,
so i'll spare the complains~:D
today was a rather nice session,
grudges shldnt be kept,
but i cant say so for a certain someone for her attitude,
grrrr,makes me pissed just by thinking abt it,
as if her body language is any better!
well,well,well
what i realised today was that it was all my mentality(screw it),
and well,for this,im sorry...
(not like some heartcore bitch demand apology when it wasnt my fault!)
soooooo~im gonna work hard!:D
i guess its all a matter of how you take it,
so i'll be thick skinned and hang on no matter what!:D
did 10 yr series maths,
i take back what i said abt it being easy,
paper 2 was a struggle!><
tuition twice a week, i gotta gotta keep telling myself
I.CANT.STOP.ANYMORE! (i hope these thinkings last*sigh*always talk big): )

chemistry was nice,
i just feel sad that ms tan feels demoralized,
the thing is,she just works so hard!
for us,not for herself or anyone else,but for us!
(compare this to some ppl who only wants to get credit!)
she says she lacks the thing to touch ppl's heart
and that she'll harm all of us,
but that really isnt it,
she's just soft-hearted,
and its all the memorising thats killing us,
we just cant get all the messy chapters!
and someday,im gonna let her know how great she is:D
actually,i think she'll find out soon enough,efforts will pay off!
jiayou miss tan,dont blame yourself!its not your fault!
no matter what ppl say,you rock!:D
your efforts will pay off!!
awwwww,im crying again...T.T
i cried when i walked home,
like what the hell am i doing when my teacher is working so hard?!T.T
GET.MOTIVATED!(if i really do due to ms tan,i'll buy her dinner,rofl!xD)
i got such a shock when she talked like she was quitting,luckily shes not*phew*
thankyou ms tan for all the patience and tutoring,
she sacrifices her time so much so imma gonna clench my teeth and go all the way!:D
papa told me such teachers are rare now,
and i shld protect such teachers with all my might,
and i will!:D

painting my hse toilet's ceiling tmr!^^
Whoooo weets!fun or what?!:D

you come and go as you wish,
i wanna let go,
but something in me tells me that once i let go,
you aren't gonna be there for me anymore,
and that itself is scaring the hell outta me..

Pissed

2010-04-21T23:33:00.001-07:00

omg.omg.OMG!
im so flabbergasted by your behaviour!
what the fuck is wrong w you?!
from the first time you stepped in the class,
i knew you were a mistake,
without you,we would have gotten a much more efficient teacher,
can you just roll back to where you come frm?!!
arghhhh,
you make me soooooo irritated!!
you want me to say sorry?
what bloody mistake did i make?!
well,im sorry i got myself a teacher like you!!
i feel sorry for everyone who has to listen to your nonsensical values!
i even feel sorry for your ears!
all i can say right now is thankyou,
thankyou FOR MAKING ME LOSE INTEREST!
you might say i can only blame myself,
than fine!who needs your bloody tongue lashing and boring shit?!
my attitude?my attitude?MY ATTITUDE?!!!!
well have it ever crossed your mind what made me like this?
as if you're any better!

you know what?
good teachers dont need to compliment themselves,
truly good ones receive compliments which are from the student's heart,
not like you!
if you're not happy marking,
give me the bloody script!
i can mark it myself,cos you know what?!
i have the answers too since you got it from the 10 yr series,
if it is such an effing pain to just put a few ticks on my script,
you can let me know,
dont need to act all hardworking than get credit
dont give me the crap abt my own good,
i'll be better off w/o you!

ps:not a good time to blog when you're fuming!
but it does make you feel better~:D

2010-04-19T11:48:00.000-07:00

DEAD BLOG!
havent been updating these days,
*sigh sighhhh*
packed with test week after week,
my brain cells are all dead,
and feel like i dont have a life!>:(
go home eat,sleep and wake up in the middle of the night,
time is running out and i dont feel prepared!
all i do is homework,homework and more homework,
no time for revision at all!
screw it...
okay,
im kinda losing it.. ._.

anyway,i have to keep moving on!
no matter what!i dont wanna waste my freaking efforts of 4 yrs!>:(
hope i can stick to that and keep telling that to myself!

okay,
blogging off,no blogging bug and i shld be touching up on my coursework's compilation,
tata!til the next time imma free!

grr..
I.MUST.STOP.USING.THE.ADDICTIVE.COMPUTER!>:(

2010-04-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

today's is yiro & hadi's b'day,
happy birthday~:D
hope you guys had a fun-tastic day!xD
anyway,
i have some photos to upload,
BUT I CANT FIND THE CABLE FOR MY NEW PHONE!:/
tsk tsk,im so pissed off right now imma fuming!!!>:(
blogger is giving me a slight problem too,
i cant upload 5 at one go,must 1 by one!(is it just me?)
ass anot?!ASS ANOT?!!!
anyway,i want back my sony ericsson phone,
i'm beginning to hate my new phone cos im not used to it!
screw it left right upside down!!
heh,i blabbered so much abt phone ><

yesterday baked cake for yiro & hadi's b'day,
walaoooo sian,keep on getting burned,
so again and again and i was so exhausted):
but the end was satisfying!;D
glad they all enjoyed it~:D
papatan was so jealous he gave me the guilty treatment,LOL xD
i gave him the guilty treatment back and he meihuajiang!YAYY me,i won!xD

today was really cool,
relieve teacher gave us 15 min earlier recess(he's the first!)
bwahahaha!!xD
but it felt so fast anyway):
than eng remedial teacher release late):
awwww..): seems like it balanced out in the endT.T

Happy happy news:
ppl i hate have gt retribution!!
who ask you all itchy hand?!
serves you right man!
if you dont do bad things,
you wont be afraid,
how could you live w a guilty conscience anyway?!
glad you ppl gt caught!^^

-type til here my photos cant upload again,bloody hell?!-
aiyo,i end here le luh,edit this when blogger is better!!>:(

Sigh

2010-03-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

woohoooo,
no homework today,
so imma blogging!:D
dedicated right?!
today's PE nafa test on 5 stations,
i passed all~
miracle,normally fail standing board jump plus inclined pull up,
good job eugenia *pats pats* (HAHA,CRAZYYYYY)
hooohummm,
school was fun plus funny today,
hmmmm,it was just plain funny!;D
*class's inside joke;D*

i almost went deaf at eng remedial,
im nv sitting infront again man,i swear!!
the rain soaked my books and shoes...AND ME!*aww*):
talk abt worse of the worse..

today's dinner was superb~
i ate like mad..):
im so growing fat,my tummy is coming out & im SERIOUS!):
i dont even dare to measure my weight *sigh*
i made azry tell me everyday im slimmer!:D
hahas,self-deceit!!
but seriously,dont you love a praise compared to an insult?!:/
even if an insult is true,it still brings you down...
so dont tell me im fat!

to some idiots:i hate ppl snooping ard my things,so scrammmmmm!

Empty

2010-03-28T08:59:00.000-07:00

The face,LOL!xD
machiam like a model posing!xD
bangssss,my aunt cut for him!;D
he keeps saying the pic of the train as MRT!LOL!xD

hi all,
imma now munching on M&Ms while typing xD
the week went fast and rush,
i just want to stop and take a breather *sigh*
i didnt go for chem remedial):
guess why?!
i set my alarm clock on me phone to PM!!!>:(
sheesh,dont need you to nag at me,
i feel like slapping myself already!!
*opps,type til here my m&ms finished):*
people downstairs are irritating me,I CANT SLEEP!
with all their crazy "wah WAH WAHHHH!!!"
whats so incredible that made them go so long?!:/
i guess im more irritated not knowing than w the noise :P

today is Joaquin Lim Kai Jie's 2 yrs old birthday party,
happy birthday kiddo~;D
he's my cousin's son(what do you call that?:/)
i must be crazy,
because after i got dressed,i didnt feel like going.. ):
someone use a pot to smack my stupidly crazy head pls!
papatan really wanted to spank me,
i made him wait real long because i was fickle abt going :P
but when he came back he said luckily i didnt go,
it was kinda boring xD
and papatan took the highlights on our camera,
so he kinda brought the party to me!;D
madly cute 2 yr old w squeaky voice!!xD
he wanted to chop the cake than slice it!xD

-Blogger is being a pain for not letting me upload all pic's at once!>:(-
would you believe i spent an hour plus on this post?!
bloody hell!>:(

PS:some asshole was sooooo full of himself and was soooo sarcastic towards my fellow schoolmate,man,who the F do you think you are?!get outta zhenghua if you're that GOOD,really pissed off,truth to be told,you arent something fantastic!dont talk abt my schoolmate like that,you have no damn right to do so when you're not perfect,if you are so free,knock yourself in the head luhhh asshole!>:( at least based on personality,he beats you hands down!asshole asshole ASSHOLE!(the most extreme word i wanna emphasize :P) try saying that abt anyone again im gonna kick you outta the country and send you rolling down the stairs and y is gonna kick your dick!(WAHAHA,feels gd just by saying:P)

everytime i want to hold on to you,
something in me tells me that i'm in no position to do that,
everytime i want to ignore,
you come and make me want to hold on tighter,
u cheer me up when im down,but you do it to everyone,
and its time i learnt how to let go..

Bless you!

2010-03-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

Today went for couzieee Isaac's birthday :D
he's 21!:D
happy happy birthday~
once i stepped in the multi purpose hall,i ran out!
it was so scary!:O
flooded with people and like 90% i didnt know):
only mama tan and papa tan are social butterflys~

hmmm,we talked about old traditions,
i heard once you're 21,you're supposed to have a key necklace?O.O
than i can just chain my hse key ard my neck!
hehheh,i bet you didnt hear of this b4!;D
joke joked ard,they said girls shld hold the key,
guys shld hold the lock,
so when guys lock the girls,the girls can get out;D
LOLs,i still dont get all of it.. :/

mama tan packed alot of stuffs and we were exagerating the jokes,
(omg,hard to say them all here)
tmr,i might just carry a table and all the food to school,
support and buy from me okay?!;D
LOL,FAT TTM!!!

i have no idea what to type alr,
and im tired..
and i still have alot of homework...
and i havent packed the stuffs in my room..
and SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!!!
and i dont know where to start ._.
let me end here first okay?
BYES~~

-Edit when imma free;D-

Does'nt matter anyway

2010-03-20T11:43:00.000-07:00

My march "holiday" is practically no holiday -.-
it revolved ard school(which sucks)
and i fell sick :/
when school reopens,i still have to take the stupid maths mock test,
confirm fail one,take for what?!:/
tsktsk,irritating to the max!

anyway,
today went out,TO BUGIS!^^
bus-ed to bpp first and the new 922 took me there to early..-.-
xinyi and xinyao havent prepare yet(tsk),
so what shld i do?bus back?):
nooooo,my itchy legs took me to an adventure,
and i ventured further and future away,
walked circles and went 4-5 blocks away,
i swear those roads are super irritating!!>:(
didnt go bugis for a long time,
so imma like a mad tourist!:D
i went "wahwahwah!!!"
but iluma is nothing much,
big space,but not many stuffs :/
i only love the longlong escalator,you can see everything there!:O
but i was a lil scared,xinyi was scaring meeeeeeeee!):
& i thought abt ahyong's toe *eww,dont ask!*
than if you stand too behind,you might tumble down for goodness knows how long!>:(
somehow aft typing this,the escalator feels more scary than fun):
went to eat,wanton meeeeeeeeeee~
not really good..):
but well,thats what you get for cheapo stuffs i guess):
imma getting depressed by the minute!):
crazy shopping for me,
haish,bought so many stuffs again,
i gotta get sihan to go out w me,
she thinks of stuffs more clearly and gives honest opinions,
AND DOESNT WALK AS FAST(HMMPH to both xy's)
if you ask me,i only have 2 words "looks good" ><
thats why imma going broke):
and i always deliberate,
so now im beating myself up for not buying somethings!>:(
haish forget this post,
im getting depression if i continue!>:(

Stop it before i wont wanna let go

2010-03-13T01:59:00.000-08:00

Everyone shld gather here,the end of school zone!
our school ended whatzzz,holiday ;D
(if you get what i mean)with xinyi ;Dwith wanling
with xinyao

-i tend to wanna take photos on a good hairday~ it looks long behind suddenly ;P-

Thurs went out for movie~
with xinyi and xinyao for...
alice in wonderland!
quite funny w the big headed queen,
she always says "OFF WITH THEIR HEADS!"
whenever she's not happy ;D
makes me kinda wish i had the kind of authority,
i'll behead so many xD
but kinda disappointed in this movie,
tim burton's corpse bride was so much better,
i cried when i watched it even when it was the rerun )':
although its cartoon,its real sad..):
i'll rate this movie about 3/5?middle was pretty boring..
anyway,enough of the movie,
we went shop shop around before and after movie,
i was kinda lost...
and imma tempted to buy lotsa stuffs again ;P
probably going back again w mama tan;D

OH!
when i went back,
i alighted the wrong stop -.-"
i alighted at pending-.- wth?i guess its cause i missed my pri sch..
luckily i didnt tap out,
but i did say rather loudly "OHNO!I alighted too fast!"
than w bright red cheeks i quickly ran up again,grumbling in the meantime..

today chinese mock exam,
did smth i didnt expect to do..
i mean the question!;D
was planning on gonghan and baozhangbaodao,
did the opposite :O
of course i had the choice since i studied,
but kinda cool i did smth unexpected,
oh and my brain was working well,
it was really awake and i thought of chim words easily,
if only today had maths exam how nice would it be?
by wed i wonder if my brain will die down?:/
paper 2 was kinda distracted,
the noise and all and knowing that aft sch imma going out,
well,paper 2 might suck,but it was easy..
o'level came out b4,
if only my o'level was that easy,
i might just jump up and shout "YES!!"
oh and the passage was about being positive,
inspiring~really if i get such cool passages(instead of boring one's)
i'll be so happy..
but i almost cried,
because the strongest ppl are the one's you least expect,
he's so pitiful but he did what most non-disabled normal ppl wont do,
touching~

anyway,today is officially the holiday for us chinese students,
celebrate~;D
i wanna go running w lucky tmr,
he is so gonna rot i hope his "prince" syndrome doesnt occur,
if not i gotta carry him and run!
okay going off,
happy holidays everyone~
relax while you can but must also finish the stack of homework..):
oh!analysis of 3 day fj for F&N done~
imma so happy~;D (thats why im bragging :P)
sheer hardwork sia and i did it for so many weeks):
and i chose my recipes!!;D
salmon,wholemeal bread cupcake(?weird?),braised vegetables and ABC soup,
oh i love ABC soup~;D
my chance to learn it well~:D

Sometimes unbearablebut turns out well ;D

2010-03-06T06:18:00.000-08:00

today had chem remedial,
the timing was so confusing,
so early morning text text text(why didnt i do it yesterday?!!)
found out it was 8.30am,
plop back to sleep,
mama tan not at home,and so i overslept xD
i just knew i shldnt have slept,
but my body just didnt follow my brain.. :/

breakfast at greenridge w syahidah meanie,
HAHA,its nice to irritate her and call her syasya fierce!!*TRY IT*
fufufu,she always snapped back and call me eugina(dont ask)-.-
it always feels like we can nv run outta topic to chitty chatty abt,
and i feel that even if we stayed silent,we wont be uncomfortable..
not as if we needed to engage in a conversation to impress each other,
its kinda cool,i mean you cant feel that way w everyone!
i like it when she say "yeah like totally!" and some other stuffs i dont rmb._.
like a totally different lingo(*heartland addiction!*)
*syasya dont let this get into your head!;D*
and we had issues,same problem,on diff ppl..
im glad i gt that off my chest!(shes the 1st i told)
haishhh,nvm,we earned some bonding time,i enjoyed it!:D
met syahir and abbas there,
and the whole breakfast thingy became more fun and funny!
exchange a bit of abbas's chicken rice w my carrot cake,
and i was tempted swap the whole thing!;P
i was complaining abt everyone being asleep and no one texting me):
than syasya texted saying "im up early morning to text u hehe.sweet uh"
awwwws,shes the best;D
hey,but whats w the self compliment of being sweet?;D
abbas bought milk coffee and its niceeee~:D
me and syahir were drinking it more than abbas!
than away we go back to school for maths,
b4 that abbas brought rollerblades,
*i persuaded him to let me blade home!;P*
and he and syahir took turns,
walao,act noob only,but skate like pro~*Jealous*
they pulled each other down and it was hilarious!;D
*i mean it was purposely and not painful*
played 5,10,15 w abbas,his reaction damn funnehhh!!;D
so i played v.long w him!HAHA*also cos im not willing to lose*

maths on vectors,
so far so good,but its only the basics-.-
still good basics develop gd foundations,
so far still maths enthu,
wonder how long it will last?:/
before it goes away,i better go do my tuition homework,
i cant believe im saying this,
but maths is kinda cool,
especially if you get it,
*if you dont,you whine like how i usually do*

wanted to post short,
but haish i believe i elaborated much more than i wanted to,
i guess this shows my character is observant,
ohmygosh!character?lit-ti-fied!;D
i better stop b4 i go on about settings,themes and what not!
toodles~

*i want the thing most impt to you,im gonna put up a fight to get it!once im determinded,my turn to mock you will come!*

Frustration

2010-03-04T06:57:00.001-08:00

isnt it cool?!;D i forgot what made this somehow.. ._."
Blue is copper!;D i rmbered!yayness!;D
if we cap it up,we could sell it,cos isnt it nice to collect?!;D (ONLY BLUE~)
shaoyang's one,MINE!!,hweemin's one,seeyun's one ;D like deep deep oceans!;D
like according to height right?~
mine!!;D (yes,those are my fingers,i cut my nails!)

Today i was feeling moody and frustrated,
for idk what reason!!
i'm probably crazy,
but i guess i did a pretty gd job of covering it,
cos no one asked like "why u emo?"
i still have to tell others myself b4hand i didnt feel like talking,
but i still talk so much.. :P
im not meaning what i say eh?
but i really feel that way inside and it kinda fumed up sometimes!!!
im giving up solving this mystery,
it just makes me more frustrated!!

anyway,
2.4 run today,
i swear i really didnt feel like running,
but everyone was so competitive,
it makes you wanna go too i guess.. :/
my legs ache and i suck at it now,
gonna train my stamina and hope i make it for the test,
I DONT WANT RE-RUN!!
but exercise makes me really awake,
(so does the foul smelling ammonia during chem),
i sound contradicting,run or dont run good? *sigh*
who really knows anyway?
hahax,i'm really abnormal today,
so forgive me?;P

today both xy and xx went for percy jackson and the lightning thief,
if only the show started later,
i would go..):
but sadly,i needed to go settle some misunderstanding w C,
everything was okay~:D
rumours are really scary stuffs!!
(and ppl shld mind their own business!!)
gossiping is bad enough(i admit i do gossip and quite alot :P)
but thankgod it was forgiven and forgotten,
also another beauty of life~
aft that lunched w C b4 going home~

im really irritated by smth i usually overlook,
(i must be crazy somehow)
and i gt really angry to the extent i felt my blood boiling,
you are being used and you dont even know it!
and when i see that kind of situation again today,
smth inside me snapped(i did keep a straight face though)
ARGHHH!!!you ppl are too much!!!
but since the person who is being used doesnt mind,
(and apparently doesnt realise)
i figured i shldnt care so much..
i have much to worry for myself anyway~
&,
i dont wanna fake it anymore,
i'm so tired of going according to some stuffs,
can i just follow what i like?!
i feel uncomfortable although i hide it,
but today i really had it!ARGHHHHH!!!
&,
i'm tired of de-coding your thoughts,
you nv say what you really meant,
your words always sound so mocking!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
you're making me topsy turvy!!!
im so tired of doing what you like,
accomodating also has an extent!!
dont let my acceptance of who you are let it get over your head!!
i have stuffs i dont like too!! (to: s)

idk what to do,
all i know is that i had it and smth exploded in me,
today really sucked,
totally not my kinda day,
and im tired of handling all these non-sense,
luckily,no chinese remedial tmr,
i will take this time to bring lucky for a walk and get a breather :D
then i'll think through my next step b4 i make my decision..

Balanced out the good and the bad

2010-02-28T05:48:00.000-08:00

I couldnt take it,
no matter how i told myself i didnt care,
i still did..):
soooooooo,mental breakdown on sat's remedial,
i just didnt know whr it went wrong,
do you know how frustrating is that?!
i put 101% effort,its wrong and no-one told me whr or how it did!
fuckyou man!!!
hot tears just rolled down my cheeks,
i admitted defeat..

BUT BUT BUT,
thanks to tuition teacher,i'm back on it!;D
the teacher was so nice!;D (btw,its a new teach),
she saw(apparently my face was red and i was still crying) how i was,
and encouraged me,
and of course,she help to undo all my knots of confusion,
she encouraged me to try,
i have never heard for such a long period,
that someone asked me to try and w/o pressure told me it was okay to get it wrong,
what she wanted wasnt the correct answer,
but my thinking processes and she really drilled it in me..
she recognized my efforts,not just the answers..
and she was really funny!(which will be our little secret*it was really evil*!;D)
so teach,i salute you!;D
i believe in you!!;D
you are the one!
the one which will help me to improve,
cos now,its definitely clearer than b4 a gazillion times~

anyway,
about gambling,
i didnt lose and didnt win ._.
papa tan won $20(he shared $10 w me:D)
uncle ahgong won $60 at the last round,
(he was losing in the first place,so wow!)
so,he happily went off to a pub to celebrate his winnings~;D
cos last round all of them "showhand"
damn cool luh pls,
the banker almost cried~!
i bought lottery,
1614,came out 1684(sat one)
wtf?!my pocket money~~):
what made me really pissed was it was by a mere digit,
curses!!!
*ohno,am i turning into a rotten gambler?;P*

today,
slept in late,
i felt so lazyyyyyyyyyy~
couzieee jolyon and Renee was holding a stall in flea market,
wanted to drop by and ask them to help me sell toos,(and shop ard in the meantime:P)
but why must it be soooooooo far?!>:(
lazy me forgo that idea too,
so lazy to travel cos papa tan dont want fetch me!!>:(
anyway,
the whole family went for dinner in fajar,
but i didnt wanna go(AGAIN its laziness)
mama tan also lazy,
so poor us stayed at home eat maggie meeeee~
i hate the stupid metal pot!
my noodles are soggy!!!>:(
anyway,
papa tan is gambling mahjong and blackjack now,
(win a few more $$ okay?!!!!)
and OH OH OH!!!!
he won lottery no.4865!!!!
$500 lehhh!!
he come back i wanna plead w him to share again,
i bet i'll be very successful!!;D
papa tan is generous~(infact sometimes too generous)
fufufu,POCKETMONEY RAISE!!;D

anyway,
photos frm last sat's gambling
(so my post doesnt look dull ;D)
me!(yes,i took my school bag ard,too much homework!!>:( )
with snowy!;D
gobbie says:"where is the food?!gimme gimme the food!!!!" *drools drools*
lining up for food

dayi who is making the pizza and saying:
"Dont take photo of me!i gambled all night and have panda eyes!"
wow,damn pro,go IR win $650 not enough,still go overnight mahjong!
rawrrss,gimme some luck too!!!
the mahjong pplthe poker ppl,
last round played "showhand"
thankgod,i won $4 plus due to that,
if not no win no lose again.. ._.
eating pizza when gambling!;D
*clench* guess how much i won?!
$8.40!havent included notes and additional $$ dayi gave me,
she regards me as her lucky star,
so mahjong winnings were all mine!!;D
uncle bet odd and even no. w me,
i won,it was even!!!
so he gave me all his winnings for blackjack!;D
i have a cool uncleeeee~
cool vintageyyy phones,
(apparently i was bored..): )

chio right this cat?!!;D
Rotting in progress...

chinese,what am i supposed to do w you?!!!Rawrrs

okayyyyyyyyyyy,the end of photo uploading,
going to slpppppppppppp~
tmr will also be a long dayyyyyyyyyyy~
i wont give in anymore,
i'll hold on w all my might,
and that will simply be tiring...
but worth it,
oh,and i wont rely on you anymore,
its my future,so i know how to handle it!
stop wasting my time and confuse me!
i'm much better alone!!
wait for it,wait for the big explosion coming your way..
i hope you get your retribution(i know u will)
i only wish i could witness it!!;D

Killing brain cells in progress:It's an all maths day! ):

2010-02-26T18:45:00.000-08:00

Going for maths remedial l8r,
after that having maths tuition,
*Yawns* how sucky can my sat get?!
cant i make a choice btwn the 2?
i rather dont go remedial,
still have to walk so far to school,
torture leh,
at least tuition is come my hse right?
i was whining abt it so long,
again and again,
i just wanna give it all up,
the harder i try,the harder i fall
dont give me nonsense that i didnt try hard enough,
cos you have nv seen how hard i tried to stuggle out of fail..
dont be surprised if i dont turn up for olevel maths,
cos i cant be bothered anymore!
today just go remedial show face,
i'm just gonna dream~
what for sia remedial!!$#$%&^*(#%#
im so damn pissed,im fuming!!!!

*okay,not a gd time to blog when you're angry*

today going auntie pengleng hse!
(My cupid papa's friend,he matchmake her w uncle royston & they gt married!;D)
gambleeeeeeeeeeeee~
blackjack again!!(mental calculation*WTH?!*)
but at least i get money for it!
who pays me to do maths in sch?!!i still have to pay sch fees!!!
dont give me the blah blah blah crap that its abt my future,
COS IM NOT LISTENING!!!
to suffer all these is not worth my future!!!!

*okay,im really gonna start smashing smth if i continue blogging,so im off to torture!*

2010-02-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

I HAVE PHOTOS TO UPLOAD,
JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME,
SORRY..):
TESTS ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!
THIS WEEK PACKED W:
POA,CHINESE,F&N,SS,MATHS
I EVEN HAD A DREAM;
ALL THE TEACHERS WERE CHASING ME FOR HOMEWORK,
MDM CHOO & MRS GOH ASKED Y I FAILED MY TEST WHILE STRANGLING ME,
(NOT AS IF THEY WILL REALLY STRANGLE ME IN REAL LIFE)
LAUGH ALL YOU WANT,
BUT IT WAS SUPER SCARY!!)':
(not to mention VIVID!>:( )

I HAVE MC FOR TMR!^^
~~ONLY GOING F&N FOR MY COURSEWORK!!^^~~
oh what the hell?my mom dont let me go..T.T

*Happy birthday to sandy 22/2!
i texted you alr,you nv reply..):
did you change no. ?*

Forgetful

2010-02-19T05:22:00.001-08:00

Im more confused in the month of feb,
i swear im not joking!
if i did that in jan,its understandable,
but feb?!Eugenia you're really nuts!!
1. SUPER STUPID;i actually brought last years expressions to school-.-
i nearly rolled on the floor and died w laughter,
i was still so happy in the morning that i rmbered to bring expressions-.-
2. I wrote the year 2009 on my paper,i didnt do it in jan,wth is wrong w me in feb?!:/
3. Guess what?!i forgot number 3 now,I REALLY DO HAVE IT,i forgot.. ._.

haishhhh,
i was still so happy my memory got a lil better in jan,
i could still memorise lil lil things,
now its back to square 1 plus worse off.. -.-

this is not the good period to test me,
and im sooooooo not study smart,
maths confirm fail like hell again,
win alr lor,i tried so hard again and again,
all i get is a freaking F..
and F&N,dont need say,
of all things test me maillard browning?!!!
wtf?i go memorise so hard the others sio..
and wth is w vitamin names?!-.-
i wanna die w tears drowning liao!!!!!!! T_T
someone tell me to work harder pls,
if not,im getting more demoralized..):

dayi said she went integrated resort in s'pore aka casino,
she won $500!!!
wow,better share and give me bigger angpow luhhh!!!
hopefully IR lasts until i turn 21 yr old,
dayi must bring me there!!!!!
i think by that time,
she would be filthy rich!!!

i hate hate hate HATE the new sitting arrangement,
such a pain in the eye that he is in my range of vision,
sucks ttm can!!!!!!
unluckily,it had to be him,
the person i hate the most,
and the person who triggered me to revenge cos i cant let him get away w it,
(if you have been reading my previous posts)
piss me off somemore,
i'll make sure you get it(this is probably the only benefit,TORTURE!)
this i definitely wont forget to do..
FUFUFU,
sweet revenge is the best!

第一朵不是爱情的玫瑰

2010-02-15T07:54:00.000-08:00

The food was much more than this,i was too hungry to take photo by the time it started xD

LOOK AT MY NAILS! *SQUEALS*
do i look different?xD

grey contact lens!omg,bloody hell difficult to put in!>:(

im sorry if me eyes scared you!>< I love my silver-y nails!plus my rose ring!xD

camwhore in car,i was rotting!

camwhore in car AGAIN or i would turn mouldy!

Shaky last shot ):
my CNY dress!;Dsnowy♥(HAHA,randommmmm)

my cute uncle started giving out gold bar chocos!xD

okay,

i put all photos according to date,

except for the 1st one,(if not how it fit the tittle?)

btw,that tittle is in chinese textbook too,

so credits to that!;D

hmmmm,

shld i go through the days one by one?
i'll try to keep it short and sweet ;D

Reunion dinner at my hse,

my mama was complaining about all the hard work,

so my ears suffered,

and i agreed to help out due to her using all the guilty treatment on me..

i vacuum-ed the floor and ironed the clothes and well,help out,

it was super hard,

especially since im on medication...AGAIN!and it cause drowsiness..

doctor said i exercised too much=swelling at the back of my thighs..

wth?!im not some kinda athletic!

i only played mini tennis,LOL!

although i admit,i did try a lil too hard that week xD

doctor wanted to give me MC for new year,

HAHA,that doc cracks me up!xD

anyway,i hate steamboat,cos the taste of everything mixed together is weird,

so kind mama cooked me a seperate tofu soup!

ALL MINE!FUFUFU!;D

on lunar new year day,

had..what shld i call it?..
new year blues?xD

i just blabbered and threw my temper,

cos my parents were forcing me to wake up,

i admit,i dont have any new year spirit.. xD

took hours to stuff in my contact lens(i was damn pissed)

then off we go,

1st stop tiong bahru,

i didnt even wanna get outta the car,lift or my shoes!

that was the most uneasy one okay?!

i havent been there 2 yrs,(i was sick last yr)

so my face was being squeezed ard like dough

(sooner or l8r they would bake me!)

MINGMING WAS THERE!♥

(so it was much better)

i missed him ;D

i was being fussed by my auntiesssss,

and they told mingming im not going there enough cos of him being unkind,

HAHA,at that time,

he was eating tidbits,

SO HE DUMPED A WHOLE LOT ON MY HANDS!

so sweet~;D

too bad no pics again,

i was so uneasy there,

i didnt even dare to move much,

call me coward,

but it was intense,

the ppl i hate were just so close,

if i lost control,i might just chop away at them,

im not exagerrating man...

2nd stop,

Jurong east♥

i could finally be me!

so carefree,not tense and excited,

i miss sihan man!!!!!!!

dayi was making alot of food,

so i fussed ard her and joke joke ard,

then off to ahma's room for aircon,

they were playing mahjong...

5 plus huifang jiejie's boyfriend came,

hope they'll last long,am so happy for them!;D

i bet dayi's damn happy jiejie finally found a boyf,

but she so chio,so worried for what?!

(btw,thats what i always tell her)

she just want to get her to move out,

so she have 1 less person to wait to..

haishhh,i'll never understand adults,

why cant they just say how they feel?

not as if i will laugh at her if she said she want jiejie to find happiness soon right?

i guess when ppl grow older,

not everything is appropriate to be said,

i too hesitate,but not as much as most ppl,

what shld be said will be said..

*sigh* when you r young,ppl forgive you,

but its different now,cos ppl expect you to mature..

it kinda sucks..

i guess im in alot of ppl's hate list for being sarcastic.. xD

this yr i dont need go ahgong there!;D

i hate S and E,but i miss jolyon..):

i knew i shld have just went,

my uncle always cracks me up there too xD

so daddy went himself and gt me my angpows!;D

3rd stop,

sihan's cousins hse,

i feel better w them then at tiong bahru,

her little cousins were cute!xD

slack at the playgrd,

shared some funny class stuffs while on the see-saw,

played some wild swing,

took some unglam photo(like LOL,we were in skirts!xD)

but i still wan some of them,

all w sihan,my lousy phone no batt..

sihan's cousin gave us roses,

thus the tittle (textbook you are so true!)

i think my generation of ppl are so lucky,

we experienced eclipse and now lunar new year plus valentines,

(actually is there more?suddenly cant recall.. :P)

cool much?!

the passing of time didnt change much,

it did for 2 ppl;the hate disappeared and we werent no.1 enemies anymore,

cos we grew outta it,

but for the rest,it didnt..

cos i was willing to forgive,you werent willing to forget,

and we're back at again..

so much for being friendly!

2010-02-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

kind xinyi who waited for the damn long bus w me ^^
LOL,screwed hair!>:(
we camwhored!and many ppl were staring 0.0
who cares?!
we love our wallets and am not afraid to showoff!;D

Lucky's weird ways
he likes sitting on top of a high high stack of newspapers,

he squirms ard and falls asleep like that.. -.-
mingming the leg slapper pouting!(unclear cos i gt it frm me mama's phone..): )
i wanted to take sweet revenge using this,but i gt no time to put the plan to action,
wasted right?!
and that person bloody made me pissed!!>:(
he's so messing w the wrong person!!!
imma bad bad person..
and im gonna think of another good evil plan..(ask me,u know u wanna know..)
fufufu,
wanna contribute?;D
i guess i'll miss this cute simpson the most )':

I think im blogging only on weekends/holidays,
HAHA,normal days can make me feel v.tired..):
school was pretty boring,let me summarise...
thankgod no chinese spelling or i drop dead there!>:(
teacher went off to hall,so i chiong my lit CA,
ohmygod,my setting and atmosphere!>:( 10m byebye~)':
nowadays is all chiong chiong chiong,
but it never really succeeds..i never really finish all!T.T
maths learning standard devision;i dont dare tell mr tan its easy,
i'm afraid if i do,all those stupid + horrendous mistakes will pop out!>:(
F&N i finished R&D and handed up;12 pg leh,im happy i finished it!;D
concert was so-so,i was tired and hungry,
so i turned grumpy and whined about those ppl!>:(
& i dont help rotten ppl to cheat,so there!dont irritate the crap outta me!

anyway,after school,
today finally went LJS to eat,
omg,been craving for it so long sio..
and lim xinyi got coupon!
hmmm,what else happened?
shop shop shop and talk craps,
time flew,and we went back ard 3 plus,
crazy much?!;D

CNY is coming to town~
ang powwwwwwwwww~
i miss sihan,i miss gambling,i miss my relatives(well,not all,but yea,in general..)
crazy shopping tmr,
i'm soooooo last minute,
research shows blood type O ppl are lazy,
wth,aft saying this,i feel like im blaming it all on my blood ><
i know for other blood types too,
ask me if you wanna know(there's more)..its coolszxsxz(and true for me)

now i cant rmb anything,
cos im tired,despite afternoon nap 4 hrs..zzz
i tend to blabber non-sense and repeat them over and over if i run outta topics..
so you better dont catch me in sleepy mode
is the above words all sleepy mode?
am not sure,i gotta check when im awake,
or i'll just add more and more crap,
lazy to look through again,
so if you detect errors,
just close one eye luhh.. xD

Every little thing

2010-02-07T03:49:00.000-08:00

Lucky in red!♥

Girlgirl!♥ what a good dog!:D *sigh,if only lucky is half as nice*

Chen yihui!:D ♥

hmmmmm,
let me see where i shld start from.. ._.??
that day went bangkit w yiro,hweemin & yihui,
was a super tired day,(but the only day we were all free)
grouchy old eugenia didnt catch everything they said ):
and they said my frequency range became shorter.. T.T
so i became their mom for the day (OMG,it sounds old!>:( )
told them only for that day,
if not ppl will start asking me whr 3 daughters popped out frm?!
okay,haha,who will really ask me that?:P
walked walked ard,i treated them drinks...
and we played ard the playground
*that day i wore PE shorts!:D so played wildly*
we were bored & sat there guessing how many ppl were in the lift/what floor they going to..

now,
some no linkies stuff,for a longer post :P

I burnt my tongue!>:( pain pain.. T.T
Ms rafiyah agreed im more of a writer than a summarizer :D,hmmmm,my writing style comes from own experience(i can give greater details),if i were to fabricate one,its just plain weird,to the extent that i myself also want to rip it,it sounds FAKE!(LOL ><)
Played heart attack on fri,with 2 grps of ppl,xiaoxuan's reaction was plain funny,when she saw i had both hands free,she looked as if she was watching a horror movie!i shldnt show both hands out,i keep hitting the book instead of ppl's hands..):
i slept almost the whole of my saturday away,sobs sobs.. ):
i wanted to go see mingming today!>:( screw it!i shldnt have slept so much on a sat..T.T
i wanted to go and see sales ard there too,next week will be packed w ppl,how to go?!):
Mama wanted to make me feel better,so promised to go bpp w me,but now,I'M ALL ALONE AT HOME ): I SLEPT AGAIN!!*^*(%^%(*&^#$!#@&( i admit imma pig..)':
I'm smacked w homework and test..)':
sometimes it just gets so hard to hold on to everything that i really want to let some go,but can i afford to let go?will there be regrets?...who ever knows anyway?:/

U-kiss new song!:D
i swear they always come out w big hit dance moves,
and the music is damn nice too! :D
enjoy~,btw,pause me flash fetish!:D

Hectic

2010-01-30T04:51:00.001-08:00

I ♥ my shoes!:D (although its a lil black frm being too long in the shoe rack)
We played soccer!♥i think i look man here(HA!)YAYYY!
we love the ball,whoever it belongs to♥
whee~ grp photo!!^^

today chemistry and maths remidial (ARGH!)
talk about torture.. :/
i actually wanted to post in ~~power~~point form again,
(wth am i doing?!powerpoint form?!&$%^$# -.-)
but i kinda forgot what happened this week,
i only know there's lotsa test next week(groans groans mumble mumble)
for this week,is lotsa hw but still kinda relax,next week is the worst!>:(
i seriously wonder why they didnt drill us during sec3 holiday,
i wont mind(maybe i would just nag and whine abit),but compare to now,
its seriously making me difficult to even catch a breather...
(and now,im cursing and swearing,you tell me which is worst..)

okay anyway,
quite a fun + funny week,
as in class-wise(definitely not lesson-wise)
remedial and what diagnostic test for eng(sigh,i'm even tied down on tues)
i'm not good at summary!>:( (cos im a naggy person who likes to add alot of words)
so bye bye HA(high attaining) grp~

maths is really hopeless,
when you dont get it,you just dont!
i'm really tired of it,
not as if i go out to work must say:
"oh lets make our life difficult and add a unknown when we calculate cash(algebra)"
so when i think about it,
its kinda stupid,well stupidly important!>:(
*sigh,im just pissed*
i really want to give it all up,
the harder i work for it,the harder i fall,the more i get demoralized..
some kind of rotten luck,
cant i be a maths genius for just one yr?!
unfair world...
still,i have to hang on,
if not all the yrs study maths is bloody wasted right?!
i must get back at it,i wont fall just like that!!
so watch out,cos im going all out,
even if i fail again and again,
i swear i'll get it right in the end..
*Quote: I have not failed,i just found 1000 other methods that do not work*
inspiring~:D
but all i know is that i keep getting the 1000 mistakes again and again,
what shld i do?!!>:(

okay,
aft i ranted,i dont know what else to type.. ._.
let me off today,
gt test to study and stacks of homework to do..
i feel teachers shld discuss how much hw each of them giving,
cos it feels like only their subjects are impt,
and all of them are suffocating me!!!
(and spamming hw like mad)
wth?wonderwoman ah?
*hitting the books,bye): *

When things werent complicated

2010-01-23T23:23:00.000-08:00

i drew the ":D" LOL,abbas~
our best chairman,thanks for making me laugh so much when i was down :D
mood aft that improved thanks to him!^^
abbas's phone,(the drawing was cuteeeee)
last min revise maths,i dont even have my own notes,LOL
lollipop by ms tan :D
but aft rmbering what huifang jiejie said,
im a lil scared 0.0

my lucky coin,MUACK!!(read on 2nd paragraph to find out)

Sch is only the 3rd week,
and im sooooooo tired,
how the heck did i spend my holidays?!:/
time seems to pass like a blink of an eye..
*sigh*

sat went back for chem remidial plus maths test(i bet im going in C grp)
i flipped a coin and it told me to go 3 outta 5 times,
than i asked if cher was teaching new stuffs?
4 outta 5 times,
woahhh,so i better go luhh.. ><
and it really was true!!
lucky 20 cent coin,i love you more than $1!:D (HAHA)
my mama was pissed i decided to decide like that,
what if it said no?but the main pt is,it said yes (:
but i bet many ppl find me ridiculous too><

lets just say i was pissed by someone's text before class,
and i felt my nostrils flaming,
plus smth little in class made me pissed too,
haishhh,i better control my temper or face the consequence..
quickly went home and asked in innocent voice:
"mummy,karma is gonna happen rights?
heaven wont be so unfair rights? they gonna get it bad rights?"
my mummy said yes
and i roared with laughter and said "oh,i cant wait to witness it!"
yea,and i felt 1 million gazillion times better,
what goes ard comes ard sooner or l8r,
and i feel much better.. i will wait to see you fall!!!!!
(evil to the max)

maths test sucked,
i finished it damn fast
(cos obviously i dont know how to do)
i stared ard few minutes,
mr tan just looked at me,
and i looked back at him,
than i figured i better continue doing..HA!
rmb bits and pieces last min,
so i guess not too bad,at least no single digits(maybe?),HAHA

today went to cousin's hse,
eewwwww,how i hate it..
dont be too aloof luhh pls,
you guys think you ppl are the best?
dont make me laugh!
and save the facade ppl,adults just dont understand, and i always get it!
*grumble grumble,whine whine*
stuck to my baby cousins instead,
cos the older ones were just plain proud, (i hate them ttm)
they were sooooooo cute(baby cousins) :D
mm was so naughty!!
he has the bad habit of slapping other ppl's leg,
LOL,luckily he doesnt do that to me,
he stuck quite close to me,
and i didnt wanna stay one second there any longer,
so i asked,and whole family took him out,
and OMG,I SPOTTED ANOTHER FLEA MARKET!:>
shop shop shop like mad;i gt shoes(damn cheap pls),dress for CNY,
alot of hair accessories,water bottle(YAYY),2 skirts
(i dont know if i missed anything but yea,generally)
one lady was super friendly,she could tell i was sec 4!:O
(do i really look old?) and she asked what sch i was frm,
and told me she give amaths tuition(sadly,i dont take it)
was nice chatting w her while waiting w mm :D
mm was bored,but yea,who understands girls when they shop?><
but he likes bling bling stuffs and just take!:O
i didnt even know can!!and he just gt away w it.. -.-

mm wanted icecream,
he used super sweet tone and said:
"jiejie icecream puhhhleaseeeee!!"
while tugging at my skirt, awwwww,who could resist?!:D
he ate quietly,
but aft awhile, he just poured some on the floor and giggled while watching them melt! aiyooooo,sooooo cute luhhhh,i laughed too and gt scolded
(i was supposed to tell him it's wrong)

sat ard the elevator w mm,
i was reminded of when we were all young,
when you guys werent so self-absorbed in your own world,
when we were all the same "rank",when adults didnt grade us,
when you guys and me were just innocent kids who loved hanging out tgth,
where did all that go? *sigh*
i guess you ppl just forgot how to be human,
and just showed off like mad,bragging like no tmr...
i hate you all..one lucky chance doesnt mean anything okay?

home-ed at 12.30 plus (we went bright and early)
first time took cab back by myself ^^
and ended the day w my happy loots :D
tuition was cancelled (MUAHAHAHA)
so i can rest b4 chiong-ing homework,
enough,charging up eugenia now,good night!!^^
-sad,no photo w mm,he doesnt like to take!!>:(-

mm reminds me of you baby brother,
would you have been like that and brought joy to me everyday?
i guess i'll never know,but i cant stop thinking...
you are always in my heart and mind,
nth will change that..

The end of toleration,the beginning of sweet revenge

2010-01-21T05:03:00.000-08:00

I'm have lesser homework today!:D
arent you glad?!because im bloggingggggggggggggggg!!
but,in point form again :P
this time w pics!(bottom)

I finish F&N coursework!task analysis(5 pg) and priority list(2 pg),well,almost everyone did,but still,pure hard work lehhh!!:D
i gt scolded by mdm choo): but it was kinda worth it,cos its really funny to the fact that i laugh whenever its mentioned!:D fyi,im talking about dorene screwing up my com's microsoft words for those in F&N shld know!:D
Physic teacher didnt come 3 periods(she went camp)!sat ard laughing with syahidah meanie/shasha fierce(HAHAHA),wl,azry,hanis,dorene and had a hack of a laughing mania
laughing mania at cme again,super high cos of weiming's damn funnehh racist joke!:D
chinese teacher is gonna make us write compo again,i hate the fact that i cant go home do,but need stay back on a beautiful friday..hate chinese compo..):
i keep screwing up tests after studying!im damn sad and i feel like banging my head on the wall til i faint!!>:(
can i just dont take the maths test?i wanna go c group,free tutoring lehh!!(lol wth reason?:P) just saying luhh,will still try my best to stay home on lovely saturday morning ;)
This week was fun,i laughed alot!but funny things are easy to forget eh?:P mostly jokes made my day..
i know i shld have blogged when i rmbered,now im blanking out ._.
new student in e1!:O he's currently the hot topic for everyone lol,and he's in my chinese class,and so many ppl asking me bout him,but he sit the other side of the class,so i dont know much or nothing at all.. ._.
I HAVE A HUGE URGE TO SUDDENLY REBEL AGAINST SMTH,(but i seem to be on the losing end each time i do),im tired of being a goody goody(well not totally good,but just feel like doing smth worse),i just wanna create a BIG scene,yes,you can label it as attract attention.. :P
Finally just one thing to ruin my entire mood..I was trying hard to tolerate smth,but i dont see why i have to hold back anymore,because it didnt solve the matter,but blew it up instead..those idiots are climbing all over my head!and im just super duper angry that my volcanic mouth just erupted before i knew it(LOL,what a way to describe!:P)

note to you: regarding above issue..
i'm not taking that nonsense anymore,
cos im as much human as you are,
and i havent done anything to deserve all that shit..
so,do it if you wanna test my patience,
now i want you to do it,
im not afraid,why shld i be?
i can show evidence to teachers and my parents
i will blow up the matter,
cos its not the 1st time and im tired of tolerating these gutless acts,
i dare you to do it infront of me instead of behind my back..
giving you chance does not mean i'll let you off everytime..
and never ever use that action to threaten me,who the hell you think you are?
i'll pay back whatever you have done doubly,
just that mere action to trigger me off..
if you wanna declare war,i will accept it and get back at you,
if thats the last thing i do..
-i hold a vengeful grudge-

lucky can advertise your pillows,contact me!(LOL)
Not that i dont like the gifts
(you know i seriously like them!)but just curious,why bears?:O
reminds me of a certain someone :'(
good hair day(or so i think),so i turned into a vainpot,must tolerate w me xD
i like doing the "moving ears of rabbit sign"(my own name for it xD) recently,
for maybe no reason hax!xD (VAIN VAIN VAIN) xD
Bear goodie bag,by 4 ppl,i loveee it,but i love the ppl who gave it to me more!:D
(touched right?!!:D)
actually i like all my gifts,
cos everyone who gave me smth bothered to take the time to choose it,
that alone is the best,the thought counts more than the price,quality or quantity;)
if it wasnt obvious,im showing off my sch bag,cos i add some stuffs to it,HA!

can you spot you?if not,ask me take picture w you luhh!xD
i will be happy to oblige if it adds to my collection of pics ;D

*oh!my green tee is p5 camp tee,LOL,it survived w all the signatures of my dear dear primary sch friends ;) i'm grinning like maddddd!!!*

16th b'day

2010-01-18T03:45:00.000-08:00

yayy birthday cake

group photo(thanks to everyone who stayed)love these gals

hadi and me!
crazy-ing ard

cake my parents bought

i bet i never wanna see a cake for a long time
social studies time ):

thanks to everyone who wished me a happy b'day,
first was ng sihan,right on the dot 12 am,
(love u piggy & dont be too upset about that irresponsible bitch
[we alr scolded and cursed her bad],
not worth it..karma will bite her in the very ass!!)
than yiro,hweemin next,
morning was sandy and kailun, (thankyou,love you guys :D)
night was cheekeong (thankyou evil buddy xD)
and the rest,ppl who gave me presents,
love you ttm!:D (in no particular order) :
Xinyi,wanling,val chew,Xinyao,yingyu,yiro,hweemin,syahir(hahaha,biscuits count)
sometimes i feel like such an asshole for getting angry over small issues,
i really dont deserve friends like you guys,im sorry,i swear i will grow up!:D
and those who wished on the spot (no particular order) :
azry(who kept wishing me and reporting to me how many hrs left of my b'day),abbas,syahir,hanis,hadi,seeyun,siti syahirah,syahidah(meanieeee!!:D),dorene,jasmine,val poh,sijia,minhsuan and well practically everyone in class..><
(cos i dont really rmb ><)
birthday song on first lesson,chemistry,
i really wanted to dig a hole and hide!!><
ms tan said i'm the oldest girl in class,yea,really am.. ):
but young at heart rights?:D (lol,act young)
did smth forgetful,
really dont admit old also cannot!!>:(

aft school,
surprise celebration plus cake,thanks to yihui,yiro,hweemin :D
really appreciate it,thanks(:
birthday song in eng,chi,malay(at almost the end,they anyhow sing,HAHAHA)
camwhore,mad laughters,crazy playing around
it was really great:D
really cant describe the joy and all of everyone's presence there,
4e4'10 rocks ttm!!^^

(short post,edit when free,homeworks are a pile!!>:( )

Life is fragile..
sometimes i look up at the sky,
and wonder if you're in a better place
my dear baby brother,
jiejie is sorry i couldnt do anything to protect you,
i can only wish the best for you,
hope you dont blame jiejie for having fun on her own,
because you're constantly in my mind,
you will always live in my heart..

You're messing w the wrong personi'm tired of you & im gonna show it

2010-01-16T00:54:00.000-08:00

so long no updates,
have been busy and is STILL busy,
so,decided to type in point form (;
(i swear i blank out quite alot while typing this post)

School is getting tiring,alot remedial plus homework,but i guess thats what it is for all sec 4
i submitted english holiday homework!^^ (i just threw it aside when i gt pissed doing it,so its a great accomplishment for me when i finished!)
received O'level F&N coursework,needa do like mad >:(
Mdm choo said i looked stressed when i was doing my coursework and told me to loosen up a lil,heh heh heh><
mr tan in good mood these days which made maths kinda enjoyable(OMG i never imagined that i would ever say this!:O)
my chinese teacher made us stay back on friday to do bao zhang bao dao!>:(
CME was funny that day when we did group work,weiming made me laugh alot for the ideas of civil defense day :D
In general classes are not bad,we didnt get any bad teachers,plus 4e4 is fun :D
i took my height and weight!i grew taller by 2cm and am lighter by 3 kg!:O (i still rmb i ate so much on christmas!and i just lolled ard in couch or bed all day!:O i still have no idea why i'm lighter and by 3 kg!!!!!:O)
smth pissed me off greatly,but i took sweet sweet revenge even though its not the right way blah blah blah,but i swear it feels bloody good!^^
i wanted to go see this yrs o'level result release(cos all the teachers told us to go see how the seniors did)but i hadda finish holiday homework,then again,i heard it dragged on quite awhile,so kinda glad i didnt go(:
i wanna go sihan's hse make pineapple tarts,but i have too much homework..): hope mama brings alot back so that maybe i can bring to sch(?):P
i cant get hardworking,i'm getting lazier by the minute!>:(
i got lotsa things to do,but the day is too short!>:(
i'm missing alot of ppl in sch alr):

i guess thats all,
my birthday is coming soon..):
its on monday..
its actually quite sad,
cos i still cant accept the fact that im sooooooo old alr!!>:(
pessimistic or what?!
but i really dont wanna grow old.. ):
who does anyway?:/
i just keep thinking of how good it was too be younger,
when you dont have to worry about things*sigh*
(just by saying this,i feel old!!>:( LOL)

New start

2010-01-01T12:03:00.000-08:00

lucky hates taking photos w me!!>:(
lucky:"watcha looking at gobbie?!>:("
the doggies(and the biscuits i was eating :P)
our sim;bread pizza(LOL at the name,but who cares?its special!i even thought of popcorn pizza,nachos pizza and burito pizza) btw,pizza is the surname!^^ and look at that,limelight snatching pooh..>:(

1st Jan
countdown at ahma house,
brought lucky to see other 5 dogs!
ohmygod,
lucky almost bite off their noses and legs!!>:(
so small still dare to do that!!>:(
took doggies out for walk,
sihan w lassie,siying w snowy,me w LUCKY!!(we even walked in this sequence)
(cos we got bored watching teley and watching adults play mahjong)
walk near sihan hse,
went to wade in the baby pool,
LOL,cos it was warm that night.. :P
i gt wet and almost went into water war w siying..
on our way back for the pizza aunt made,
lassie slipped off her collar and jumped into the pool to swim!!:O
we all went :O than started laughing,
lassie loves water,so cute!!:D
after that sims 2 at sihans house all the way~:D
2nd Jan
FLEA FLEA FLEA MARKET~
omg,crazy sales like mad!!:O
so many blogshops went down to the flea,
i bought 2 dress,skirt,tanktop,earrings,rubber bands,clips:D
so many stuffs i bought at $5 only!!:O
& THEY ALL GOT SOOOO MANY MADLY CUTE PLASTIC BAGS!!
wheeeeeeee,i love fleas,still can bargain for soooo many stuffs :D
going down another one w sihan on 8-9th jan(hopefully nth copes up)

3rd Jan
slept on and off~
it was horrible,my eye was swollen >:(
and i slept afternoon to night,
night time still can slp,
pig pig pig!!>:(

4th Jan First day of school~
i missed school,teachers,friends,noise even lessons~><
4e4'10,4e4'10,4e4'10,4e4'10,4e4'10
(almost went in the wrong class,ty siti syahirah and fazineee for saving me!)
sat at the seat i always sat at during exams(index no. place:3 row 2nd seat) but,most of today just ran to the side to sit w wanling,
w syahidah and dorene infront^^
it was funny and i missed them,
(but nth came outta my mouth,although i swear i miss talking to them so much) hmmmm then nth much,
teachers were prepared for lesson(wow),did classwork,bla bla bla...
assembly was longggggg longggg longggg...
my leg was sore and my shoe was thick and suckyyy,
principle was cute and funny,
thats probably all..
really cant rmb much(although it felt like there were so much stuff at sch) probably cos im tired,
shall edit when i rmb anything,
but just usual first day of sec 4,
nth much,probably more is coming,
tmr hair check.. *groans*
better slp now,so i can get up early to do my hair properly.. nights~

Sore loser

2009-12-24T05:59:00.000-08:00

yes,its affirmative..

okay,
im supposed to go ahma hse tmr!!^^
bake cookies,pizza,sushi...and maybe some others(so it would seem),
but i wanna go shopping w mama tmr toos.. ):
oh sheesh,
why cannot arrange on tues?!!:/
when is ng sihan coming back from her trip?!):
wanted to go her hse bake and maybe go out w her for a movie while im there!!):
*sulks*

merry xmas!!^^
well,belated..
i actually forgot this yrs xmas!!:O
kept slipping my mind.. :P
celebrated w family(*groans*)
Renee jie jie's boyfriend gave us roasted turkey or smth..
LOL,its wrapped so exaggerated(tightly)w aluminum foil.. O.O
and some kind of ham too(pretty scary,its in BIG chunks!!)
i think its cuz her boyfriend works there or smth,
but wow,sooooo much freebies lehhhh!!
i wanna work there too!!
(not that im sarcastic/not happy) (:

im arranging next thursday,
go out w jf,sm,hp^^
sch reopening soon,
plus next yr o's,shucks..):
wonder how many times i'll feel like giving up?
it'll be hard work for my tuition teacher(& me of cuz)
im scared of her reaction/qns..
very sudden,she will go "WAIT,WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
than i'll go "errrr..*this that this blah blah blah*"
and she'll go "YOU CANT DO THIS!!"
and i get frightened,cuz its always sudden..
i thought that my maths really sucked..):
but she said im good in basics,can answer her qns,
need more practice,but im better than her other students
(whoa,gt hope arhh?^^)
i laughed and she went "REALLY!!!"
haha,i think shes cute sometimes(her voice is like a doll/little girl)
but scary sometimes too..
(im really scared of making mistakes,she qns me like imma suspect)

after o's next yr,
during that longggggggg holiday,
if i can pass the parents interview,
im locked for teaching tuition!!!
YEAHHH,DONT NEED OTHER PPL TUTOR ME,
I TUTOR OTHERS!!~~yeayeayea
plus,i think tuition is really damn good to earn from^^
(HAHA,sounds as if im doing it for the money:/)
of cuz,
i'll be teaching primary sch!!^^
i wanna teach brandonnnnnnnn~
(one student my dad's teaching)
cuz i feel that he's really like me in the past,
(i can tell frm the symptoms!!)
but he's giving up too young and frm his work,he's really not trying..):
i really wanna help him,because in primary sch,
i had ms ang to help me,
i wanna return the favour back to society(:
i think i might be able to make it,
he will be p5 in 2011^^
but its a lil too early to talk now right?
i might wanna do some other jobs next yr :/
will try to stick to this though..(:

next yr,new start...
im gonna apologize for being such a petty person,
to certain ppl..
forgive me wont ya?(:
im sorry im such a small person,
angry at such a small thing,
i'll do anything to have you guys back,(if you still want me back)
i'm sucha sucky&rotten person..
arghhh,how come im pissed at every single thing?!!!:/
how can i only rmb the bad things and overlook the good things you all have done for me?
i'll try to fix the mistakes i have done..
nobodys perfect,the same goes for me..
i swear i'll rmb that...

syahidah,
i miss you loads too!!):
i wanna crap w you again,
and piss you off HAHA!!!;D
you're one of the ppl who makes me look forward to sch!!
so you better not try to absent yourself ahhh!!
gonna tag ya back soon!!^^

Because you're no longer worth it

2009-12-21T01:17:00.000-08:00

NICE SONG~

i went downstairs just now,
almost kanna hit by a soccer ball,(its a miracle it missed by a bit*phew*)
a malay boy(apparently the one supposed to catch the ball)
said "BOOOOOOMMM" really loud when the ball bounced off the floor,
and i was really stunned,
than he started laughing..aft that,he asked "hey,are you okay?"
and than i started laughing,
i dont know what was so funny,
maybe cos i escaped a bump on my head or cos his laughter was infectious..
whooooooshhh,my first laugh today,
i still cant understand why i laughed so hard,
but it felt goood,
although i dont think ppl will normally laugh in a situation like this?0.0
aiyahhh,who cares?
i had a nice time laughing,
instead of being upset like some kind of grumpy anti-social human being..

It hurts,because it matters

2009-12-20T09:42:00.000-08:00

is'nt it sweet?!

screw my fringe,so long alr.. :/ i really dont know what to do w it..
cut?NOOOOOO,my hair is on strike,it takes long to grow!!T.T
i guess this is the only pic i took successfully w my hair tied up,the rest simply sucked..
my hair is sooo damn hard to tie,sch reopen how?!!
*groans*
lucky camera shy?NOT!!he was rubbing his face w his paws!!
yes,im showing off my long nails!!:D

yeap,upload pics alr,
byes,wait til i go outing than i take more plus write words..
(if i can stop cancelling them!!>:( )
"home sweet home" is not there for nth!!

*PS:i hate zhenghua cc,why cant it shift somewhere else?!i dont even use the facilities,and it annoys the crap outta me (all the karaoke singing!^&%$$%) wanna know how i woke up today?!!one uncle was singing so horribly and out of tune plus its high note,i'm not a good singer either,but at least i dont wake ppl in the morning w my terrible singing!!pls lahhh,consideration lehhh..wonder if i can call the cops?0.0*

that uncle just ruined my morning and i got really pissed off..
well,you dont see me waking him up w high notes that could break a window,
do you?!!!
grrrr...

Because you're not the one not feeling it;it hurts more than you'll ever know

2009-12-18T07:49:00.000-08:00

nonetheless,
i still cared,
even though i swore i hated you right down to my gut,
i was still worried

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What kind of an idiotic fool am i?..
the kind that lingers on even when everyone moved on..
how stupid,screw it!!!!
*^#%%@)&_

I hate the way i dont hate you

2009-12-14T10:55:00.000-08:00

Sunbathing lucky,we encourage that,it kills germs and he enjoys it~^^

no lucky is not camera shy!!
he rolled off the cushion,scared me to death when i heard a *thump*,
when i on lights,he remained slping like that.. -.-
i was taking the pic of the sky,LOL at the bird passing by!!
one day i shall have enough photos of the sky for a scrapbook!!^^
3 dads 1 mom,
love this show to bits,
HILARIOUS,plus the guy in the middle so handsome!!^^

had tuition/pure torture today,
for emaths,next week POA,and maybe physics,
all under the same teacher,
WOW one heck of a superwoman!!:O
(and one hell of a time for me!!>:( )
2 hrs straight lehhh,
i thought she might run out of things to say,
but apparently not..
as i feared,she asked qns i didnt expect..
haishhh..
like i want go JC or poly,
than the big qns "WHY?" -.-
she said "actually maths is very easy to score"
i glared at her and she changed her sentence
to "but all the formulas can drive you mad,alot of ppl have that problem"
thats alot better!!must bring other ppl in,
make me feel better!!^^
but i still feel irritated,
MATHS REALLY SO EASY TO SCORE MEHH?!!
UNTRUE HOR SIHAN?!:/

in the middle of the lesson,
she suddenly said
"OHNO!I FORGOT PUT COUPON,
HERE GT ALOT PPL ON PATROL NOT?
OHDEAR,I RUN NOW TO PUT COUPON!!"
HAHA,CRACK ME UP,
and i did naughty stuffs,copy answers frm behind!!FUFUFU!!
but shes nice,she go through slowly by chapter^^,
(although i made her repeat,I GT CONFUSED!!><)
she made me realise,
its not as simple as i thought
(no wonder i always get wrong!!!)
but she give me soooo much homework!!X.X

ohh, NG SIHAN BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY(15 DEC)
i miss her soooooooooo much!!T.T
promised to meetup b4 holiday end,
(and b4 the terror of o'level strikes)
gotta move my butt on the last week of holiday,
full of outings for ppl i miss lehhh,
MUST MUST MUST..
i've been so lazy lolling ard at home that i kept cancelling plans.. >:(
*tsk tsk*
my parents thought theres smth wrong w me.. -.-
whats wrong w you ppl?!!!
i go out you all keep calling irritating the shit outta me,
(even went to the extent of calling ALL MY FRIENDS,JERK-CICLES)
i don go out,you guys keep forcing me to,and thought i was sick?!!!
LOL-ED,i suspect you ppl are the sick ones.. -.-
just wan to leave the best for the last week of holiday heaven~:D
AND DONT WORRY,
I WILL GO OUT,SICK OF STAYING AT HOME W YOU PPL ANYWAY!!

*if i close 1 eye & forgive you,does this means i have to close both in future?!!*
*does it feels nice to play w my emotions?!!may karma strike you,BAD!!*

-i feel evil,and it feels damn good-

LALA-FIED DAY~

2009-12-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

what i wore today~^^ and i dont know what to do w my fringe anymore..T.T i think i shld leave it long til i find a good hairstylist who wont ruin my hair!!>:(
lassie and gobbie
*yawns yawns*
my lunch,pathetic?T.T no flavour soup only eggs and noodles!!T.T
all bored to death,that makes both of us.. ):

so i didnt sleep the whole of yesterday,
(must be too excited!!)
too bad ng sihan that pig only turned up l8r in the night,
i was so bored..T.T

auntie came to fetch us,
(as agreed^^)
she didnt know i was tagging along,
SO SHE DIDNT BRING DELICIOUS FOOD!!!
WTH?!I STARVED MYSELF THE WHOLE DAY FOR NOTHING!!T.T
anyways we started chatting fast once i stepped into the car,
than my mom asked me to call them,
i really forgot since i was happily chatting w them,
i told them(since i was really sorry,like it seemed no manners),
and we laughed it off,
typical mummy making a mountain out of a molehill.. :/
*well actually,i dont like calling ppl,especially part of the family tree,it feels weird..since i dont really see them(except on probably new year?) and my dads side,every year we will shake hands,but it feels so foreign like we just knew each other.. :/ so much for that,but every year,my uncle try to crack us up and get us together(like giving us money to go buy smths at downstairs convenience store!!^^) that gesture is enough for me(:*

than they started mahjong,
i started off w playing w the doggies~!:D
than wrapping ng sihan's present i brought along,
(lol,i forgot wrap it at home!!:O)
since they were absorbed and ignored me,
first time i wrapped a present,
to me,it was horrible,so crumpled at the side..):
plus the note i attached i spent soooo long to write,
i wan it to mean smth,but not sound too mushy and gay..
it was so difficult!!!T.T

fell asleep on the couch,(FOR ABOUT 1 HR PLUS MINUS?)
was really grouchy abt them disturbing me now and than,
i guess i blabbered lotsa non-sense and gave some attitude.. :P
what is a person lacking of slp supposed to do?!:P
than when i was awake,
i was forced to play w them when uncle left,
by then i was seeing stars so gave it a pass.. :/
than they just played w 3 ppl,
like how the hell you do that?!:O
ask them,they are pros sio..

in the end,
joined them,
due to constant nagging and they provided me w winwin policy..
lost and win,lost and win..
the vicious cycle just went on,
so pissed!!:/
i only earned 30 cents in the end ._."

my meal was only instant noodles(lunch),beehoon(dinner)..
awww,
I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE A FEAST!!>:(
nvm,still gt next time..(:

am tired again and my head feels heavy and blank,
will update tmr if i missed anything out~
stay tuned all!!^^

Life stinks,get over it (i wish it was that easy)

2009-12-12T11:56:00.000-08:00

.....

i dont know what to post,
maybe i going my granny hse tmr,
aunt is coming to fetch me & mumsy,
so sweet *awwwws*
baking,cooking,creating
than maybe i have some pics to upload!!
ISNT THAT FANTASTIC?!
actually,dont you find cooking amazing?
something plain on its on can actually combine w other ingredients to make smth..
MOUTHWATERING?!
that,i'll never understand..

was smsing my errr,
sms pal?!O.O
haha,she sent wrong sms to me,
and we starting being friends there,
weird much?!:O
so far,i only know shes melissa frm eunos,16 going 17,
its kinda exciting,and i cant stop guessing how she looks like, :P
but i guess im cool with just the suspense..
shes so cute & funny,hahaaaa,was nice talking to her,
shes so open to share her stuffs w me too!!^^
hope she patch with her boyfriend soon,
she was soooo mad at him,(cant say why,its private)
HAHA,its weird how much stuffs she tells me,
but i find her very chattable plus friendly~
maybe we dont know each other thats why?
another reason to keep it a suspense,though i hope to know how she looks like one day~^^

okay,im talking too much alr,
will blog again tmr,(if i can wake up to go to grannies tmr)
will relink joan soon~:D (loves plus misses)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOTJ8kAJKZ8 --->its a nice song~^^

yamada toro monogatari(aka 貧窮貴公子 jap vers) its really cute plus funny~

3 fathers 1 mom,the baby's reaction is soooo funny!!

quiz show 2,its really makes your heart skip a beat,so unexpected!some of them damn cruel,make ppl cry..T.T

-now you know why i hate leaving my tele :P-

More than meets the eye

2009-12-07T05:17:00.000-08:00

you must be thinking
"WTF ARE YOU DOING W A LEMON?!!"
wait til you see its true colours

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look at lucky's face,he must be thinking
"what a phenomenon!really looks like an orange(colour) and also like a lemon(shape)"
thats why i name it
ORMON/LERANGE
*laughs at own joke*
ormon sounds better!!;D
i think im lameeee,but who cares?!i hadda good laugh!!^^
fufufu...
i found these gel candles the other day,
gt these frm someones wedding~
(don ask me,i didnt even know the human myself!!)
i did one in pri sch,but mines a mess..T.T
blood red juicy watermelon,
really nice to gobble it like no tmr!!^^

i just watch this on tele,
hana yori dango final or aka boys over flowers(jap version)
so cuteee luhh
gotta love MIO~
(omg,i like advertising for them ><)

spend my days on tele or com,
*laughs*
really a time of my life~:D
i think i can live like a couch potato forever,
ahh the harms of media~

that day chance upon a nice channel,
the guest on that show i think his name is 李准基?[korean]
i only rmb he acted in the show "my girl"o.o
so funny luhhh,
his reaction and all to taiwan food,
[spicy century egg,pigs ears,pig blood intestine,pig blood soup]
omg,it sounds scary luhh,(no wonder he like that right?)
he was like asking the host to eat first,
than he dared to eat,
but most of the time,
his eyes almost popped out of his sockets,
HAHA!!!
and he was teaching the host some korean song,
and the host gt the rhythm wrong,
than the host asked "is he gonna beat me up?*gives cute and innocent eyes*"
HAHAHA,than they laughed like mad~
so hard to describe here,its just plain hilarious!!
his reaction is always funny on the show!!^^
and he looks so much better w/o the long hair >:(

haha, am hooked on korean shows and idols,
(now i understand why so many ppl are,koreans are sooo good!)
(i bet their economy shooting up like madddd)
that day saw re-run of asia music award show or smth,
it was nice to see live performance of superjunior and girls generation~
ON BIG SCREEN TV(instead of unclear youtube)
love mostly the dancing luhhh,so together~!!^^
poor things,they were panting so hardly..):
but some of them sound different on LIVE(in a kinda bad way)..T.T

okay, i dont know what to say alr,
cos i just tonned at home and watch teley,
what do you expect me to say?
just found another weird(but sucky) thing about me,
i never get nosebleeds, bloodshot/sore eyes
(the natural way when staying up all night or smth)
(unless i deliberately go rub soap,and yes,i've tried and succeed!!^^)
that really sucked, cos in primary sch, so many ppl get it and can go home straight,
so good right?!:O
call me crazy,but i'll do anything to skip a days sch!!>:(

ohh!!
one funny thing,
guess how i lost my first tooth?!
WHILE EATING PORRIDGE!!!
pretty stupid luh,
since b4 i ate my lunch,i ate biscuits and an apple,
but it didnt fall,
LIKE PLS,PORRIDGE IS SO SOFT SIA..-.-
AND I SWALLOWED THAT FIRST TOOTH!!>:(
DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT DROPPED TIL I SAW BLOOD ON MY SPOON..
HAHA,
I RMB IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY,
LIKE DUHHH,MEMORABLE 1ST TOOTH LEHHH!!!>:(

this post is soooo nonsensical and no link!!! :P
ENDING WITH THIS:
"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it,
I hate the way you're always right, I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

-ADAPTED FRM MOVIE:10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU-

Uneasy

2009-12-02T21:15:00.001-08:00

The clouds looked beautiful that day,
too bad the sky was too un-blue-ish, *sulks*
if not,will be really pretty..
PS: The extremely bright thing is my light bulb *laughs*

i found these books at home!!
coooooool~,
but once i open the pages,
haishhh,forget about reading it.. :/
chimmmm chinese wordsssssssss,thick pages=sheesh!!

been sleeping longer hours these days,
when i wake up,
i get energy rushes,
*laughs*
lets see,
i just exercised yesterday,
like extreme exercise,
sit-ups,push ups,hoola hoop,jogging
for about 1 & a half hour,
HAHA,i keep this up,
i might get 6 pacs,IMAGINE THAT!!:O
i think i really went mad,
lucky stared at me,scratch,licked & jumped up and down my legs,
haha,poor lucky..(:

scary dreams on hold,
but still had ridiculous ones,
that day,
i dreamt about compo test,
chinese plus english combined,
i think the teach only give 1h 45 min?!:O
i cant rmb anything and i totally freaked,
in the end,i think i only write 1 para each,
(my dream didnt last 1h 45 min,felt like 15 min)
still,i woke up sweating...and swearing,
the thing i hate about my dreams is : IT FEELS FREAKING REAL,
you can feel the tension and all,
like reality.. :/
and i have a qns,WHY DO I ALWAYS FLUNK IN MY DREAMS?!-.-
anyways,aft i woke up,
i forgot i closed my door,
so i ended up with a bump on my head too,
talk about unlucky!!>:(
(lucky not doing his work of keeping me lucky!)

these days,
have been watching movies,reruns of drama online and searching for songs for zen stoneyyyy~,
love my alone time~:D
but side effect,
i think alot about things,
like what could have been if i didnt do certain things or actions,
crazy much?(:
also alot of day-dreaming,
but will always suddenly,out of nowhere think:"what was i thinking just now?:/"
seems like my brain cant go solitary,*laughs*

anyways,some nice movies i've watch,
to help if anyone out there is boredddd~
most of them from MIO tv or you can try youtube,
(1)Raise your voice [really saddddd,but nicee]
(2)Ice princess [sci-fi,about ice skating]
(3)Doctor dolittle1&2 [comedy]
(so ironic,how can he be called do little when he do so much?!:O)
(4)Daddy daycare [comedy]
[gotta love eddie murphy(i guess its spelt like tat?:O)]
(5)A cinderella story
(6)swan lake [its classic man]
(7)twilight [its on youtube like finally!^^]
(8)Lizzie mcguire movie [i like the songs ^^]
(9)Flubber [the name is cute,so i watched,fufufu]
(10)10 things i hate about you [NICEEEEE]
(11)101 dalmations(real life doggies)
(12)x-men
hmmm,than i cant rmb the rest,
(will edit post when i do..)
can try korean dramas on youtube,
NICEEE man,

okay,im blogging off,
gonna cook my own lunch,
will be careful not to blow me or the kitchen awayyyy~^^
waiting for my aunts call,
cookie plus pizza making recipe pls!!~^^

Biased

2009-11-27T15:38:00.000-08:00

-This is going to be my ranting/pathetic post,BE WARNED-
an eye for an eye,my turn to degrade these ppl..

THE MOM
This is really disappointing,
Is it MY fault i'm not good in maths?
so what?
my cousins say maths was easy and you just take it that it was?
its just not how my brain works!
but,i've tried,i've struggled,i hung on..
even mr tan said i was improving,(just that i screwed EOY)
In fact,
you have no bloody right to stare at me as if i was lying bout maths being hard,
it was like my fault that i had to be bad at it,
so what?ppl bad in maths shld just vanish frm the face of earth?
HA!I ONLY WISH!!
(no offence,but i felt as if my mom was hinting that,at least to ME)
u didnt even go to secondary sch!
You dont have the right to stare at me,
and say that my cousins said maths was the easiest thing in their life,
apparently,you were doubting me..
when i said they had to be bad at smth,
you flared up and said they are improving,
why arent you that protective of me?
ask yourself,
how can you do that?
you work your bloody ass off,
you dont even see my effort,
i even have to handle your stupid moodswings,
how does that make you feel if you were me?
(1)you always talked bad about me behind my back,
you think i dont know,
but you dont even try to be discreet,
does my pride and feelings matter to you?
does it make you happy?
degrading me,degrading YOU..
(2)you dont like anything that is against you,
you said im rebelling,that im bad,a horror..
you wanna know whats a true rebel,bad and horror?!
the day when i kill you is all the above,
not facts,just admit you dont like hearing them..
(3)you always mumble,
you think i dont know what you said?
well,all i know is you have no guts to say it in my face,
and well,hell yea i dare to!
than you will cook up some drama..
to gain pity,
once again,you always win,
can only blame myself for being a bad actor..
(4)you dont understand ANYTHING,
i cant slp cos of nightmares,
i didnt say,cos i dont wan you to worry,
or ask those gods;i dont like them snooping about MY dreams,
you just scolded me to stop wasting electricity,
oh god,why cant you just have ELECTRICITY
as your child?!!
BTW,JOLYON(DAD SIDE,COUZ) SAID HE WASNT GOOD AT MATHS TOO,
YOU JUST DIDNT KNOW...
WHY CANT YOU ACCEPT PPL WHO ARE EITHER:
GOOD IN LANG
OR
MATHS AND SCIENCES?
(SERIOUSLY,ITS HARD TO BE BOTH!!)

THE DAD
control/search/call to check where you are/way over worried freak,
apparently doesnt understand what privacy is,
cares too much from head to toe

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ALL NEED?
A PUPPET,
SOMEONE YOU MANIPULATE,
NOT A DAUGHTER WITH A MIND OF HER OWN..

NO PRESSURE?
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
LOOK AT YOUR OWN EXPRESSIONS!!
YOU ALL OBVIOUSLY DIDNT MEAN IT..

THE COUSINS (BTR,MOMS SIDE)
get a life,
is bragging your occupation?
who knows if you are as gd as what you say?
and you guys are definitely not flawless!!
AS A MATTER OF FACT,
YOU ARE LIVING OFF GRANDMA AND 2ND UNCLE,
ASKING THEM TO BUY WHAT YOU WANT,
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS ON THEM?
ASKING'EM 2 BUY SHITS LIKE PLAYSTATION,PSP,GAMEBOY ON YOU PPL?!
WHY DONT YOU RELY ON YOURSELFS IF YOU R THAT PERFECT?
PLUS,YOUR PLACE SMELLS LIKE LOOKS LIKE SOMEWHERE FOR RATS...
APPARENTLY,YOU ARE LIVING UP TO YOUR IMAGE,
SLY,DISGUSTING,BACK-STABBING CREEPS.. (OH,THE LIST GOES ON!)
i bet tuition is the only one that pushed you,
able to do all of these ON MY OWN,
is much better than what you can do ON YOUR OWN,
so shut your gap,
b4 you force me to shut it for you..

so now i feel better,
sorry you readers had to see this,
but i hadda get this off my chest,
and hopefully let those ppl above reflect,
so i can live longer/more peacefully...
WILL DO A PROPER POST NEXT TIME..

Cruel nightmares

2009-11-24T16:30:00.001-08:00

the crowd downstairs the other day 0.0
pic of clouds & sky in my room,i took the pic w me camera^^

im scared,
these days i kept having nightmares repeatedly,
in the past,most felt real,
but was funny when i woke up..
etc:
(1)i was late for sch,my bag was V.heavy,i tried to run faster,but i became a snail-.-"
i was like "wtf?!im going slower.."when i turned back,my bag was my shell.. -.-"
first i was puzzled and than i was angry,
like why the hell is this happening when im late?!^(*%$@#%
(2)i take lit,but the day b4 the paper,
i dreamt that i took the geog one!!:O
wtf?!!
and what was more maddening than when EVERYONE in lit class,
KNEW HOW TO DO THE GEOG PAPER!!>:(
invigilator was mr tan(the real test also,which freaked me out greatly) ,
i told him i took lit,
and he looked at me like i was mad!!!
he said things like what have u been learning?(let me see...err,LIT?!!!!)
how can it be?whole class take geog
blah blah blah,
so i just shut up and did it,
first qns,rivers and coast,what is part a?
err,lets see,i wrote land and soil.. ._.
than i gave up,
aft that i asked yihui,
and she said smth like "simple,it was all common sense"
wth?and i was awake.. ._.
i almost strangled yihui the next day,HAHA :P
-ps this was super vivid,which got me scared stiff the next day-
and i needed ppl to tell me there were ppl taking lit.. *phew*
(3)*recent*
in a room full of best things to eat,
and lucky just came in and ate everything,
i went :O

& some other funny dreams i cant rmb off hand.. :/

but recently,this kind was the worst nightmare in my history of nightmares,
all about supernatural;aka ghost..
you might not believe in them,
but if you had my dreams you might..
(2) & (3) are recent

(1)i was in a place of someone else,
than i suddenly(out of nowhere)I felt pain(mind you i really felt excruciating pain),
and before i know it,my soul was pulled out
(i dont know if ghost can do that,but well,i dreamt it)
and that bitch,just stepped into my body(aft pulling me soul out) and lead my life,
she could still see me,(due to the fact she kept smirking in my direction)
and well,no freaking person realised that wasnt ME!!!>:(
(2)this scarred face lady in red kept possessing other ppl,
made them jump down the building in front of me,
i cried and begged her to let them off,
i told her i rather she killed me,
(it was a v. gruesome sight)
but she just said(in chinese)"i want to make you live suffering,all this is your fault!"
and i was awake.. ._.
(3)weeping girl,
i tried to approach her slowly,
and when i was close,
she suddenly strangled me and said: "what have you done?!"
yeah,i would like to know too.. :/
i cant sleep at night,
without knowing what fucking dream is gonna occur next!!

sooooo,the other day, (which i forgotten when)
my hse downstairs gt some event,
wanted to go down,
but i was sick w flu..):
AWWWWWWWW,
downstairs had so much nice stuff sio,
popcorn,cotton candy & flea stalls,
looked so fun...):
i just kept standing there and staring down,
grumbling..):
luckily,
my dad brought some cotton candy up ^^
it was FOC!!:O
free flow sio,
my mum was in shock,
HAHA,she just kept mumbling:"never heard of free de",
super regret not going...):
*stomps feet and whacks myself*
but being kind,
i decided not to pass my flu to anyone..(:

these few days just stayed at home and stared,
wanna watch movie,
but waiting for nice ones to come out..):
so far nth caught my attention..):
anything to recommend?^^
i think i better get my ass off my chair/bed/sofa soon,
my thoughts are wandering like mad,
but go out also dont know go where,do what..
arghhhhh,
im going mad.. :/

<--*PAUSE MY PLAYLIST(left hand side bottom) b4 playing this!!*

btw,this is damn cool,
i was going through youtube to find nice songs to upload,
but i came across this,
and no curiosity did not kill the cat!!
this is damn cool,
23 songs mixed up!!:O
this songs are just nice sio,
i find them better than hearing each individual song,
(just my own thinking),
i went crazily bored when i listened to each song,
cuz all the good parts are in this video!!^^
enjoy~
& TAG ME B4 YOU GO!!!>:(

Officially lost it

2009-11-20T12:29:00.001-08:00

PS:READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
(WTH,YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!AFT THE AMAZING TITLE ABOVE!)

the only normal shot(read on if ya wanna know)
YAYY,i gt pink earphones~ ^^

cookiemonster got tortured!!;D

crazy idea of putting my slippers on doggy(what?!the night is long and cold,brrr**)

okay,saw and heard some crap,
so was in a foul mood,
or shld i say crazily abnormal mode?
btw jerk,
why bother lying?
i would've let you gotten away with the truth,
that bloody fucking hurt me,
now I'm definitely gonna get you back..
so,
(1)i cried like mad first,
my eyeballs felt like popping out of my sockets,
my face went really red
(2)i scribbled in a book like fuck,
(i was trying to write a poem,
but to hell with it,i ended up scribbling!!*%%&%)#&#)*#&#)
& yes,that page(or a few more) had a few freaking big holes
(3)i listened to my zen stone plus,sang out loud cried even harder,
i was singing lyrics i didnt meant ->[Its alright its okay by ashley tisdale]
& NO,ITS NOT ALRIGHT,NOT OKAY..
(thks to that jerk-sicle,i had a relapse of asthma,
fuck..was alr not using the inhaler for so long alr.. :/)
(4)Danced to the music like mad
errr,mostly just shaking my head,til my hair gt real messy :P
(really helps to de-stress...& makes you really giddy!!)

after the crying,dancing & singing marathon,

i went into the laughing & camwhoring marathon

(1)I was looking at a joke book
laughing my bloody ass off at things that i didnt even found funny,
but it did helped make me better,
well just laughing at thin air would even help,
if only the tears would stop!!
(i feel like a bloody fool,crying and laughing..-.-)
(2)I was doing the crazy toy talk to toy stuff,
and almost let them ripped everything out of themselves(of cuz i controlled it)
& going HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA all the way
(well,plus some evil statements like :"got ya good eh?!!****")
(3)I made ugly faces and took those ugly photos
(which i am not going to post the photo)
(4)i tried to do many weird expressions,
& laughed like mad

dont mind me,
i gotta have my moments too,
if not i will go mad,
hope this will be passe stuff,
but you know what?
i feel damn freaking good aft all the above stuffs,
why??
basically,i feel human again,(i emote what i feel)
that im alive..
you may not feel the same,
but usually,
i like to keep problems to myself,
being able to express it out feels damn good~
anyway,i shld be okay soon(:

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am v.happy that i vented,
fuck,dont mind vulgar post,
ya know when ppl lose control,
this is what happens,
oh,wth?
might just delete this irritating post anyway,
cuz its embarassinggggggggg the way i handle my emotions
(but me chose venting over embarassing,sheeshhh.. :/)
i hate ppl probing,so dont start.. *stares&points at you w index finger*

bad patches happen in life,
don go into mine,
or i will demand your's 1st!
*bleh bleh bleh*
right now,aft typing,i am amazingly calm and positive~ :D
wow wow,the power of venting your rantings~
[PS: will still bear the grudge,im a petty person,afterall,you got me so worked up!!]

LALALA,spring cleaning~

2009-11-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

vain pot,HAHA,show off his flower sticker!!^^ his eyes naturally brown~(no i did not force him to wear contacts!!)
ALL the paper we collected in our house
finally packed my stupid books(which were piled up on piano frm exam period til today.. :P),
kachingszxsz,my mom gave me $5 for packing!^^

okay,
im a happy girl today,
cuz i finally pack my books~!!:D
hate to see them sitting there(piano) collecting dust too,
but was too lazy to get my hands moving and pack,
(well,that was b4 my mom bribed me w $5 :P)
but it feels nice to organize stuff too,
no more confusionszxszx!!!:D
also found lotsa stuff that i didnt use,
my mom luhhh,
best things are all inside the store room!!>:(
and she stores them there til i utterly forget,
when i ask she will say "i throw away for you alr luhh!!" -.-
than i will go hysterical and say "what?!!!serious not?!!"
and she will say "YAH LUHH,lie to you for what?!!"
(ahem,with a smirk on her face.. :/)
to think i was tricked!!!>:(
well,i finally found all my darlings alr~:D
aft all that painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.. T.T

i am being force to bake stuffs for them!!>:(
rahhhhs,
i use the excuse of no ingredients,
and they went out today to get 2 cartons of eggs and packets of flour!!:O
crazy?!!
think i F&N not enough baking?!!!:/
im forced to be a labour worker!!
tsk tsk,
no peace,
*note:my mom is a clean freak,
so can you imagine baking in her kitchen?!
i dont dare lift a finger after the last nagging session!!

in a happy mood today,
why?because:
(1) I PACKED MY STUFFS!!:D
(incase you dont get it,im a really messy person,so packing=miracle :P)
plus i found alot of my past treasures~:D
(2) I searched alot of inspiring quotes!!
(which is definitely having an effect on me now.. :P)
(3) My mom made me laugh alot!!
(she actually threw away the door stopper during spring cleaning!!)
so now she's laughing and saying of all things,why did she throw the door stopper?!!
(4) My mom bought the iweekly and U magazine
(the horoscope encouraged me,plus it featured alot of movies,plus insights of idols~)
and yes,i do believe in horoscope(because its quite accurate to me),
even if it is hocus pocus to you!!:D
(5) I found alot of free movies on mio tv video on demand!!
->Doctor dolittle 1 & 2
->Lizzie mcguire movie

thinking of what to do tmr,
probably taking lucky for a walk?:/
that dog is sleeping like no tmr!!>:(
restless pigggggggggg~
stare and stare into space >:(
okay,blogging off~

Time out frm reality

2009-11-13T13:24:00.001-08:00

guess whos been a good girl this year?!:D *giggles giggles*
& OHHH,letter within a envelop and another envelop,FUNNY OR WHAT?!!!
HAHA,santa claus also have club~:D
this is santa's address,LOL!!!(seriously,dont even think about trying..-.-)
if you do,don blame me if santa didnt receive..
OHH,BUT TELL ME IF IT WORKS~:P
[im evil]

baby-fied Eugenia,HAHA!!!RAPE RAPE RAPE WHITE TIGER,THEY ARE SOOOO RARE~!!
our journal in pri 6,good times,good times~
done by:Jocelyn fong (cuteeeee~)

ps:I hated my handwriting in the pass.. :/,
& i realised we talked about anything and everything in the world,
HAHA!!
MISS YOU GUYS~):

so,
i have been scratching my head,
found out another fun fact~
i laugh/giggle/burst into laughter when im nervous,
and aft that,i will blabber non-stop,
I CANT HELP IT,
(which sometimes really gt me into trouble)
like before oral,
i rmb i had hiccups(horrible timing),
and i couldnt stop giggling,
AT THE SAME TIME,
luckily,stopped in time,
had ppl calm me down,
(by saying sweet nothings)
pheww~
that was a relieve.. :P
[this is quite long ago]
oh at home,i will pace up and down.. :P
(guess some ppl like that too huh?)

i cant sleep~
my MOM woke me again,
i swear its her hobby to just stand there,talk & wake me.. :/
in the morning,she will always say the usual:
"(1)ah girl,i going out ah,
(2)close the window when it rains,
(3)lock the door if you going out,
(4)feed lucky,
(5)call me when you think of what to eat"
SHE BREAKS THIS SENTENCE INTO MULTIPLE TIMES,
so,in the end,i get up.. :/
one day(i forgot which),
she did this and i had multiple good dreams,
but most of the time,
i just gt pissed and forget about slping.. :/
tough luck eh?:/

MISTAKEN

2009-11-11T16:31:00.000-08:00

LIES,
LIES,
LIES...
THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME,
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WE PLAYED PRETEND,
EVEN IF IT HURTS...
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BUT,YOU'RE
NO LONGER WHO I KNOW YOU TO BE
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ITS TIME TO LET YOU GO,
NO LONGER HAVE ANY SPACE TO BREATHE,
THE HARDER I'M CLUTCHING,
THE PAIN GETS MORE EXCRUCIATING
BYE STRANGER
NO LONGER BOTHER WHATS HIDING BEHIND,
THAT MENACING MASK

-STUMPED,AT A LOSS,CONFUSED-

Lets play pretend

2009-11-11T14:54:00.001-08:00

Lucky's typical morning ~ :D
It starts with....

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The heart shape treat!!isnt it adorable?!;D

waking up lucky,look at his unglam sleeping posture *tsktsk*
eyeing the heart shape treat..
"actually i dont really need to have it ya know?"
"on second thoughts,snatch liao than say!!!"

above heart shape treat by BURP! chicken with cheese surprise!!:D

what am i doing with cat food?:/

wonder no more!!!this is dog food,see?fish4dogs!!!:O shocking news not?!

1 small tablespoon into the bowl...
"i cant wait!!" *puts nose into packet* food,FOOD,FOOD!!plus abit of royal canin food,

dry food heaven!!*chomp chomp*
"can i have snacks aft breakfast?!*slurps slurps*" (greedy lucky)

into the container you go treat!!

"OMG,is there an opening?!!dont go back food,feeeeed me!!" T.T

-Aft breakfast is toy time!!-3 normal toys sitting on comfy chair,
up comes lucky,pretending not to care (it rhymes yo~ :D)
"hello,think i still baby?!,what up with toys?!"
took a glance,
than looked up thinking "eh,you were looking?!:O" *gives innocent eyes*
finally tired and calmed down..(:

okay,im done,
hope ya enjoy the above!!:D
it was tough taking the photos kay?!
lucky didnt exactly co-operate that well,
he acted up his prince symptoms,
aka 王子病... >:(
PS:brought him for walk,he insisted i carry him(he didnt move at all)
so,at least leave a tag that you were here okay?(:
show some appreciation to my hard work luhh,
try so hard to post ya know?!(:

did a little packing at home,
ehhh,just admit that i failed,
IT WAS MESSIER THAN BEFORE!!!><
really not a tidy person,
need to find smth,
throw here throw there,
(i really like it messy,but my mom doesnt.. :/)
haishhhh,
but need clear lehhh,
down there collect dust.. :/

day-dreamed again(well,most of the time),
oh,had one of those
"life-flashes-b4-your-eyes"= realisation of time waits for no one moment,
and well,nth much,
life gets boring when one doesnt feel like moving,
i feel just like a lump of fattttttts~ :P

anyway,
found these:
ribbon flats!!:D
in the storeroom,
so wasted right?!>:(
dont know how long that poor thing was in there,
well,fear not,
im here now!!!
my mom always keep stuff and forget
btw,my mom was the one packing store room,
PS:she gt her punishment,i shocked her with my screams of joy.. :P
shoes~shoes~shoes~ (its a girl thing to go kuku over shoes~:P)

i wanna go out~out~out~,
but havent plan yet *faints*,
must be trouble proof,
sudden shocks always occur,
so this time,
my planning must be:
UTTERLY IDIOT POOF,
nervy plus negative much?
HAHA,
just want it to be perfect for fun mahs.. :>

okay,guess i gt no more crap,
thats what happen when u stay at home too much,
bored bored bored,
do what leh?!:/
tsk tsk,
will figure it out,
so for now,blogging off~
:D

Over-reliant = Utter disappointment

2009-11-08T03:44:00.000-08:00

okay,
im still aliveeeeeeeeee~
these few days nothing much,
stare into spaceeeeeeeeee..):
and well,
planning outings,
who could ever expect that planning for group outing was so hard?:/
later ppl cannot make it,or it will just be an utter chaos thing.. :/
on the third pic you see my trusty planner,
and well,my fav plastic bag,
HAHAHA,soooo randommmm~ :P

lucky still trapped in his buster or aka little trumpet,(2nd pic)
he is such a naughty fellow,
keep licking his paws,which have injuries,
which might lead to infection,
(plus,he is so much calmer in little trumpet,oh N plus cuter.. ;P)

read finish prep,
well,i understand the girl,
who can deal with hectic life?
it is understandable she wants to find comfort,
and is careful with her every single action,
but seriously,too careful..
i mean who actually notices everyone?:/
i for one am too busy fussing over myself to...
well,notice much about my surroundings,
i sometimes don even know whats happening under my nose, :/
so much for that...
but yea,i cant seem to voice my opinions at some moments too,
it makes me utterly mad inside!!!*pissed*

okay,im boredddddd~
charging my zen stone,
did you know i did smth which seems cool but freaky?!:O
it was on shuffle mode,
so i was pissed with all the chinese songs,
so i was like "come'on!!give me [fireflies->song]"
and it REALLY did,
and my zen stone repeated this song thrice,
doing as it was told!!!:O
(although i didnt say thrice,which pissed me off)
i really freaked out and threw my earpiece+ zen stone down,
(which might explain why my zen stone is failing on me now.. :/)
mind you,it was in SHUFFLE FOLDER MODE,
NOT REPEAT MODE!!
and this happened in the middle of the night,
(which freaked me out greatly)
well,hope that its fine?.. o.o
and wont haunt me to feed it or smth,
in the middle of the night..0.0

fun fact 01 live frm ME :P
(LMAOS,IM BORED TIL IM CRANKY)
so anyway,
one weird fact about me,(this is sooo random.. -.-)
i cant get eye bags,
i only get black panda eyes,
but not exactly that bad panda eyes,
when i was younger,
i really wanted to get eyebags(im like soo weird..LOLS)
so i like didnt sleep for how long?.. :/
a few days bahh(holidays of cuz)
and just played and watch videos on com,
ended up with dark eye circles instead.. :/
i used to cry when i couldnt get eyebags
(LOL,THIS IS SO EMBARASSING!!><)
and well,partly cuz i gt eyecircles instead..
am i cranky or what?!!!
hope that now i said it,
eyebags don suddenly pop out,
it would seem that i was lying than, right?.. :/
still,its weirdo fact 101 frm Eugenia's body... :/
shall post weird facts of me frm time to time,
cuz its funnnnnnnnn~ :D
stay tuned!!
PS:eyebags still seem cool to me~.. dont know why..!!><
-omg,i didnt share this to anyone before!!-

okay,
lucky is playing with his squeaky toy;hotdog,
better shut him up!!
fufufu,
blogging off!!:D

-MANAGED TO TALK CRAP,MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!:P-

THE END OF WHATS LEFT

2009-11-04T08:57:00.000-08:00

Loss for words,

I really don’t know what to say,

Let’s just stay silent,

Least we break what’s left of us.

I’ve been waiting for ages,

Waiting for an answer.

But til now,

I’ve been pretending nothing happened.

So much to say, so much to tell,

Yet, nothing simply left my mouth.

I turned around to give you a chance,

But you let me down, on and on.

I glanced at you with a lump of pain in my throat.

It’s hurting me; I just can’t seem to let all this go.

Every time I try to forget you,

You will crawl right back into my mind.

Hitting me back to painful reality,

Each and every time.

It’s really hard,

All of this is tearing my heart apart.

Each time filled with hope,

Pinning up again and again,

Yet, the situation remained the same.

Thoughts of you kept flashing back,

In your heart I know I’m no more there.

But in mine, you can’t imagine how much you worth,

More than diamonds and rubies; anything in the world.

We were meant for each other, I thought nothing else mattered.

But fate tore us apart, as soon as I thought we were in love.

We have been made a fool, by fate itself.

I’m still here, picking up pieces of what’s left of us.

But without you, everything seems meaningless.

Eugenia.siti.syahidah

(forgot this poem we wrote one boring day..(: emo notsxzxs?!:P i started it!!!:D but,i think its really cool,3 brains are better than one,syahidah keeps complaining that i end the poem.. :/ so,i split into sooo many stanza's.. :D i rmb ms kuek's expression when she saw this she was like "ooooo~colourful,LET MEEEE SEEE!!!"HAHA,when she wanted this,she stared with her eyes big,looked all innocent and said "can i really have this?colour and all?!!:O"HAHA,she's damn cutesxsxzz!!:D)

writing another one,

im damned bored,

and well,feeling emotional... ._.

keep telling me its more healthy to keep hanging on,

SOMEONE PLS,SOS...

Sometimes,I feel that:

I get tired of giving without returns,

I get tired of clutching the things dear to me too tightly,

I get tired of persuading myself time and again,

I get tired of putting on that facade,

I get tired of pretending that everything is fine,

I get tired of falling down time and again,

I get tired of pulling myself together,

I get tired of reassuring myself,

I get tired of being too positive,

I get tired of expecting more from myself,

I get tired of blows of trauma i am given,

I get tired of obstacles,

I get tired of wondering what my next move is,

I get tired of being lost,

I get tired of feeling like the only loser in the world,

I get tired of telling myself "I CAN DO IT"

I get tired of not knowing how to continue my life,

I get tired of facing my problems,

I get tired of obeying others,

I get tired of never standing up for my rights,

I get tired of being controlled,

I get tired of never feeling at ease,

I get tired of fearing that everything could be gone in the next moment,

I get tired of never daring to make a difference,

I get tired of losing my determination before i even realise it

I get tired of knowing my fate lies in my every move,

I get tired of ALL THESE THOUGHTS TURNING ME UPSIDE DOWN..

sometimes,

I just wanna let everything go...

well,guess thats just life..

what to do,what to do?

sometimes,i really wish to give my life to someone who treasures it much more than me..

some ppl fight to hang on,but i cant find the key/reason to hang on anymore,

im sick and tired of handling all these crap that runs through my brain..

*sigh*

what shld ppl do when they feel like giving up?:/

sometimes,i lose the spirit to fight on,
sometimes,it just rushes to me..
Quote:"a persons ability is not in the lack of knowledge,rather in a lack of will.."
true?:/
still,hope these emotions help me write a good poem,
i once wrote til i cried,
hope it happens again,
its good for letting out stress.. :D

PS:(no link)

planning for outing in progress~

shall date my darling wifey first,

fufufu... <3

PROMISES MADE,ARE JUST MEANT TO BE BROKEN...

2009-11-02T19:30:00.000-08:00

PS: Title plus pic not meant for post below,just that recently im reminded of that empty promise...

sooooo,
i was supposed to post yesterday?:P
heh heh..
it completely slipped my minddddd~
anyways,
yesterday went shopping ard neighbourhood only,
like bpp and cck,
i swear,
even though its soooo close,
i havent been to these 2 places like for 5-6 months?!:O
shocking right?!:D
i feel soooo out of touch like i kid, T.T
i was like "OH MY GOD!!WHEN WAS THIS HERE?!!:O"
yiro and i took the lrt,
saw the guides at jelapang,
first reaction was:
ME:wonder where is wanling
HER: dont know how is yihui
AT THE SAME TIME,
HAHAS!!:D
than at bpp,
saw some unique uniforms!!0.0
and yiro didnt keep the lift door open for me!!
(thought she was pressing it)
& it almost got my nose!!!T.T
hahas,but it was funny~
okay,
nth else alr,
everything looks so nice and expensivesxzsxz,
we just like roam here and there and went:
OHH,THIS IS NICE!!
when we asked how much,
haishhhh,it was like forget it..):
no mood to buy liao..
(oh yah no money too..): )
went home,
fell asleep,
and my mom just hadda wake me!!!>:(
to think i so good buy her curry puff,
but that just gave her more energy and she hadda wake me..>:(
aft that couldnt slp,
yiro smsed to watch mermaid girl,
it was soooo sad..):

SPOOKY WOOKIEEE HALLOWEENIEEE~

2009-11-01T17:56:00.000-08:00

Custom of celebrating halloween is becoming hotter in singapore,
agree?YES/NO?
i'll say yes,
omg,peepos invited me to night safari,
for halloween celebration,
(they said there were deco's,were there?:/)
but gave it a pass, ):
sorry,
lazy to go so far and back at sucha late time..):
also,partly cos of ms wong's scary tales~
WoOooooOOO~
still,hope u had a great time~,
next time alrights?(:
still have our yearly christmas celebration~:D

HAHA,
check this out,
my dad saw a chinese vampire(dressed for halloween),
flagging a taxi,
he got a shock of his life!!!
but still,
he decided to be a kind human and fetch the scary fellow(late for a party)..
but he did ask if that fellow was a human...
HAHA,WHAT IF HE SAID NO?!!!:O
omg,got guts huh?:O
if it was me,
i will open,
screaming at that fellow's face "GETTTT LOSTTTT~!!!!"
slam,than lock the door and speed off in my car(if i had one),
and i'll probably pee in my pants,
HAHA!!

PS:i actually forgot it was halloween.. :P
(until late at night..)
i didnt have plans,i didnt have plans,i didnt have plans,I DIDNT HAVE PLANS FOR IT!!!!):
(shld have done a party or smth right?!): )

2009-10-31T18:45:00.000-07:00

JOEY!!:D LONG TIME NO SEE,YOU GT FATTER!!!:D
(OR IS IT MY LUCKY WHO ISNT GROWING?!HMM.. :/)

went to reborn my hair,
near my cousin house,
it was sucha bore..):
saw my cute cute cousin's baby :D
he was sleeping,
HAHA,
so i don wanna be a maniac and snap snap away,
so awwws..):

baby and aunt went to visit reborning process time to time,
aunt said baby cut hair cut halfway don wan cut,
HAHA,
his hair really unbalanced,
whoa,this baby gt attitude huh!!:D
laugh til i tummy ache and the hairstylist ask me to stop moving..
(OPPS!!>.<)
than after that to cousin's house,
ton ton watch tv talk talk..(:

okay,short post,
cuz yesterday was really boring...):
just sat and stare for 3 hours!!:O
but worth it, (:
although i feel like a doll,
the hair i mean.. :P
tata,blogging off,
post on mon or smth,
cuz im going out with yiro for shopping!!:D
maybe interesting things will come up and i'll blog..(:

ohh yarh,
maths class on 10th,
(if im not wrong)
bring 10 yr series!!
(here u go dorene.. :D)

Facade

2009-10-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

Puzzle we did at botien old folks homeee~!!:D
Wanling and me on the bus(short journey,but i get bored easily.. ._.)!!:D
syahidah MEANIE & me(we gt v.bored,self entertained :P) lookie behind,guocong's "talk to my hand.." -.-
Lucky up close,freaked out?NOT!!(btw,i was trying for THE DOG series,ya know?the big nose stuff?.. :D)
stupid pink crayon didnt work its magic,botien visit was supposed to be a v.COLOURFUL day!!):
(pardon zilian-ness,havent done it like for..FOREVER!!)

YESTERDAY
okay,
was supposed to post aft botien OFH visit,
but was shagged, ):
can i rant ALOT on that day?!!
syahidah does it with ease,
sooo much i wanna go into detail & complain bout..):
awwws..):

okay,set off with determination & happy note..
still,all was ruined..):
first it rained like there was no tmr,
i gt wet shoes,sock,shirt&skirt,
what a way to start the day!!
right place,wrong timeeeeeee~ T.T

off to botien,
games,colouring & stuffs..
me & syahidah were A-W-K-W-A-R-D!!!
than smth smelled,
phewww ewwwww..(bad smell.. ._.)

break time,
eat the biscuit we brought for the old folks,
they didnt wan it,
so we "tried" to see if they were good,
in the end,
finished it all,
guys like syahir and hanis started dancing while eating!!:D
ahahaha!!
biscuit gives energy!!:D

than we started on puzzles;
(when on break)
Daniel,Munjun,syahir,syahidah,dorene & me + 1 auntiee,
plus we were given drinks;greenteaaaaa~!!♥
we just did that for 30 mins,LOL
F was KPKB-ing,
like syahidah said,
step only luhhhhhhh,
pls,ppl were int in watching us do it dear,
don be a wettie blanket!!):

mr ang was funnehh,
with all his big action!!:D
(cant rmb.. ._. funny things=easy forget)
hahas,
i miss him being our chem cher loads,
can i have both ms tan and mr ang?!):
awwwwws,they both rock~!!

TODAY
LOTSA STUFF FOR FFTH,
mama had to help me carry.. :P
loves~
syahidah (a real) MEANIE overslept again..):
awwws,im sad..):
than finally knew whats EAS appreciation,
can only say we were really really evil!!

cleaning was smelly,
ammonia sucked!!!>:(
& didnt work like MAGIC
(was really expecting it to,considering the smell!!)
tinner wasnt exactly smelling like heaven too..):
what a hard day..):

aft sch,
yiro came over,
lucky went mad..
(he loves visitors to pounce on!!)
usual chit chat session,
(today no tv)
and played downstairs..
shared smth which i forgot but was linked to topic we talked,
so i suddenly rmb it & shared,
omg,it suddenly hurts again,
even when i decided to approach it positively...):
words are worst than throwing stones!!
still,thanks S will rmb your advice!!:D
i'm readily on guard..(:

tmr report cards,
not gonna be a pretty sight,
but ohh well,
thats what i get for skiving~
expensive lesson learnt..
btw,
today's talk by mdm chong and ms wong,
=inspiring!!:D
loves~

2009-10-27T07:56:00.000-07:00

Yiro says my hair looks better messed up,so there!!:D

hahas,
changed my blogskin,
gonna make it a point to post everyday,
hopefully~
to keep track of my days,
what i do daily,to keep memories,to treasure sweet times spent with friends..
(does this by any chance sound cheesy?._.)
BUT will try to post only when i have pictures,
you gotta admit,everyone loves to snoop ard and look at photos,
rather than a wordyyyyyy post,
(i mean yahh,i do that,i admit.. :P )

anyways,
today went for walk with lucky & yiro,
it was all a very very last minute thing,
like urghhhh,the rain dampened the mood,
so i just slept and slept,
but poor lucky just stare and stare into space,
& im worried bout him developing depression,
so asked yiro if she wanted to join me for a short walk,
since we stay close,
it was more convenient.. :D
okay,the walk didnt turn out that short,
went ard zhenghua park,
it was really a new discovery for us,
found a playground with lotsa sand,
a hammock and challenging pyramid(needs lotsa climbing)
more pics at yiro's side..(:
wait for her send me b4 i add on more pics..

than went my hse,
watched tv,laughed laughed laughed,
gossiped gossiped gossiped,
just regular girl stuffs,
than mama made origami,
cuz i begged her to,
i don understand the steps,
its oh so complicated,
and in deep chinese,
my mama is gd with her hands and is patient..(:
me,definitely the opposite.. ._.
than decorated the huge and cute crayon bookmarks,
asked her to do and do until she gt sick and suddenly stop and pangseh..):
tmr will be miss santa's,
giving out the origami's to peepos..(:

tmr,
can slp in late!!!:D
botien old folks home,
more pics will be update!!:D
hopefully co-operation from them this time round,
carry a positive note to start anew with them,
we can make this whole thing fun!!:D
hope we have a great time!!
signing off,xoxo

2009-10-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

Aunty baked this cake!!(omg,i am such a show off,showed it like to everyone)
apple look-alike mooncake,cool and ex manszxszx!!!
i wan this kind of cat in future!!:D damn cool,i named it ginger..(:

gobby & buffy,probably thinking of food..hmmm... :/

lassie confirm thinking bout food,i was holding one at that time... -.-

OMG,its a miracle im posting!!!:D
hahas,absence makes the heart grows fonder,
yes?no?
oh,forget it,dont tell me,in case it stings..T.T
anyways,
hate EOY,
i suck at exams,
despite studying like a mad woman,
(who now feels like a corpse woman)
alot just pass niaaaaa,
but oh well,
my brain always freaks out,
and my intuition always fails on me...):
gotta try harder next year!!:D
by december,
gonna get tuition teachers to boost my brain,
and get revenge!!!MUAHAHAHA
(opps,my evilness came out again..)

went for gathering on sat;
thanks to aunt,huiling jie and huifang jie for fetching..(:
had a nice chat with huifang jie, (:
funny and interesting...
met pig and siying aft a longggg time,
all my fault for attending so little of gatherings.. :P
went for an emo walk alone downstairs,
cuz everyone absorbed in TV,
kinda nice;nice breeze,nice getting my thinking sorted out,
but didnt walk for long,
(afraid i would get lost,that would be bad.. ._. )

today
saw videos of food from the heart,
poor families,
seriously,i almost cried,):
so,you might see me lugging alot of food on thurs(:
(i ransacked my own hse for that :P)
but,felt a warm feeling of satisfaction.. :D

borrowed a book from ms kuek,
called PREP,
small words,thick book=WHOA!!
but interested to know what happens to lee fiora,
generally a timid,non opinionated,likes only to fit in girl..
wanna know how she overcome her obstacles,
and well,read the book to know,
i don wan my post to be a book review,
& be a spoilerrrrrrrrr...):

Lit made me sad..):
wanted to break my record of 30/50
but ended up having 29/50
infuriating nots?!T.T
i wrote like HELL..
hate novel:heartland ):

school is interesting these days,
constantly,i moan and talk aloud,
HAHA..
miss syahidah MEANIE,
no one to bicker with me...):
really needa bring sweets daily,
don care if i get a sugar rush as said by seeyun,
im getting a tired rush if i don nibble smth!!!!>:(

okays,
my plans for holidays,
next week thurs,
to East coast park with girlfriendssssss;
Yihui,Yiro,seeyun,wanling,hweemin,jingwen,minhsuan
oh,but afraid i will screw up in front of so many peepos..):
i mean disasters prone to stick to me..):
(OMG i sound so emo..-.- so negative)

I MISS I MISS JOCELYN FONG,HONGPING & SHUMIN!!!
MSN-ED WITH THEM,
goes like this with JF:
(ITS SOOOO FUNNY!!!)
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
any ideas to what to do?!(:
Jocelyn. says:
lets bake cupcakes
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
0,0 where we get the oven?!-.-
Jocelyn. says:
ya hor
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
HAHAHA
Jocelyn. says:
hmmmmm icecream?
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
ice cream wont last for a day for going out..or DO YOU MEAN MAKE ICE CREAM?!!!:O
Jocelyn. says:
YA!
Jocelyn. says:
Lol!
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
YOU SERIOUSLY MEANT MAKING IT?! :O
Jocelyn. says:
hehe i never try making before
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
OMG,YOU WERE SERIOUS?! :O
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
HAHA,SAME OLD JF..
Jocelyn. says:
HEHEHE
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
BUT I DONT KNOW EITHER LEHHHH,l8r all we get is stomach ache >.<
Jocelyn. says:
hahahaa wont de lar
(ISNT SHE CUTE??!!!:D)
&

Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
kays,now i ask hp!!!
Jocelyn. says:
okay
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
oh,her msn there write away,and im still stupidly wondering why she never reply..-.-
Jocelyn. says:
LOL! still as blur as ever

&
from hongping(soooo sweet) :D
D & P. says:
i'll try my best to go out with you all! : D
D & P. says:
*hug*
D & P. says:
really missed you guys
D & P. says:
: D
Eugeniaaa❥不能说的秘密.. says:
YAYYS,same here,soo sooooo much!!!!

i missed them so much,
glad we are still getting together,
& keeping the promise of keeping in touch!!:D
except for shumin,
shumin ar shumin!!!
i waiting for you online,
roffles!!!):

meetups with my pig : Ng Si Han
i miss going out with her too):

read finish Prep,
& do reflections plus check for foreign(to me) words

lotsa running and jogging with lucky tan chun chun :D

get a job,
get more money,
go for more shopping & outings!!!:D

do volunteer work,
best is for orphanage/SPCA
it really warms the heart..(:

December;
chiong studies with tuition teacher,
maths plus poa,
sharpen heartland knowledge,
words knowledge,
books knowledge

OMG,holidays seem so short!!!):
hopefully all this is not big talk,
i MUST do all these!!!:D

next year o's,
running out of time,
(Jf its plain cruel reality..)
but first,
getting a lil worried bout promotional day,(tmr)
hopefully everyone gets through,
love 3e4!!!:D

botien old folks home this wed,
hope they co-operate to make life simple for us and have fun with us!!:D

2009-07-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

LUCKY DESPERATELY WANTS MR.MANGOSTEEN!!RAWWRRS..
Today homed 1 hr earlier!!:D *screams!!*

thankyou o'level(which i wont be thanking next year)

found a good website for recipes,

which are easy to do,and proven it actually CAN be done,

happy happy :D (its damn colourful you see..)

here i go(again)coursework!!

gonna get youuuuu!!!!!!rawwrrs.. :D

finished my ST presentation today,

haha,i was stuck at 1st(no idea how to start).. :P

i was practically shaking in my toes,(sweating too :P)

glad i could(finally)put down all the nervous feelings i bring to EL lessons.. :D

(and glad that i no longer have to search like mad for interesting arcticle)

its hard to decide between articles,i mean its all interesting,

thats why its in the newspaper right??!!(how ironical.. ._.)

OR buy lotsa greentea to calm myself down.. :/

screw it,i spent quite alot on green tea.. :/ ^%&_&^%$#

my allowance is being cut cuz im lazy to go down and eat(& its troublesome to queue):/

someone enlighten my mom pls?):

maths level test was the pits,

i memorised things i shouldnt have,

and forgot things i did for hw the day b4,

(which apparently came out..): )

ss was okay(based on the time),even though half of it i didnt know what im writing about..):

no time,and ended up quoting wrong stand and wrong evidence..):

test shouldnt come 2gether in a day!!!:/

(fri:POA plus CHINESE(AHHHHH!!!)

awwww,hope the sad virus stops going ard,

alot of ppl are pulling a long face..):

come'on,it isnt the end,

tommorrow will be better..♥:D

so gogogo,smilesmilesmile,laughlaughlaugh,

cuz even if you are downdowndown,sadsadsad,crycrycry,

a day will just pass like that,

why not make the best outta it?(:

2009-07-19T05:13:00.000-07:00

its a matter of choice to breakdown or stand strong..(:
dedicated to passerby:(arent you glad?:D)
thanks for your feedback passerby,(:
i mean it..
i admit i have alot of bad points,
but thanks to your feedback,i have taken note of it..
cant say i can definitely change,
but will rethink your words..(:
might not be the me who you exactly want me to be,
but just want you to know,
i just wanna be me,
even with the bad points,
im still me..
the me once in a lifetime,the me i wan ppl to know me as..
no matter how much you hate it,
you cant change me as easily as you want,(:
just like i cant change you..
pls keep in mind that the world isnt so simple,
ppl arent made the way you like..(ouch,i know this hurts,but its plain reality)
live with it for just 2 more yrs yeah?(:
hopefully,i'll be out of your life by than..
still,tagboard deleted,
no matter what,
it still spoils ones day,break my determinded thought,
and most of all it hurts..
still,i will live with it..(:
comments are what makes ppl better..(:
so,thankyou passerby,(:
for making this dead blog and (previous)tagboard alive!!:D
once again,sorry i make you feel this way..
still hope all the best for you,for meeting ppl better than me..(:
keep hanging on!!:D
work hard in beating me in every aspect,
than you will feel that satisfaction yupp?(:
swallow that hate,don let me get the joy of ruining ur life!
remember,there are sadder stories being written in the outside world):
you gotta hang on for the sake of the other ppl,
who cant even hang on if they want to..
(sniffs related to show:1 litre of tears),
(do catch it online!!): its sad..): cant say i cried 1 litre of tears,but almost..T.T)
wish ya all the best from the bottom of my heart..(:

2009-07-11T06:32:00.000-07:00

Nostalgic feeling ....
(lucky when he was small and cute!!!:D)

(just an old pic i dug up for the sake of posting a pic.. :P)

Posting today after 123456789 years,
didnt feel like blogging..):
awwws,my blogs turning dead..):
cuz i hate replying tags!):
anyway,
its better to have a longggg longgggg post right?:D
wahahahas..
sat celebrated suling's birthday,
*happy birthday gal(:
they planned lotsa surprises,
but shes simply too good a guess-er,):
hahas,went to valerie chew's house,
and whoa,it was like big big BIG!!:D
got down to work,
got "stung" by the irritating spattering oil,
&^(*^%(*^(*) screw it!!
the rest baked oreo cakieeee,:D(it was yummy!!)

and made jelly,(which i helped to violently stir.. :P)
took us very long,
cuz we didnt know what to do first,
and we forgot to bring some things..=.=
but soon settled that and was shagged..):
ate alot while preparing,so i was full by than.. :X

feel damn fat after our mini buffet..):

NEVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!

really alot alot of stuffs prepared..

walked home(taking lrt alone,always makes me feel so weird),

so would rather walk,

saw some weird ppl instead,o.O

hahas,lol,indians plus malay talk chinese,

as in common nowadays,

but so didnt expect it,

like duhhh,we are strangers!!:X

suddenly say "ni hao xiao jie!!"

made me burst out laughing.. :X

which kinda shocked them too..

they said smth like "whoa,she laughed,that was the 1st.."

HAHA(:

all kinds of ppl nowadays..

kinda love the friendly ones..(:

do you know what pisses me off?

people making use of others,

hypocrites,

judging others cuz u dont like them..

no particular person whatsoever,

just things i see and hear everyday...

doesnt it happen in yours?

vicious cycle of siblings,neighbours&friends..
(RAHHAHA,vented the irritated feeling:D)

(pls ignore me..)

i love love love lit, :D

did script today,

ms quek was as she said,

oh so random!!

suddenly need add in:

sang nila utama,michael jackson,facebook&engage and create..

oh well,very fun so hahahas..

lately into nature,

love walking back,rising my head up high,

shouting:"tomorrow will definetly be a better day!!wheeeee~!!"

(crazy,haha,luckily no one heard.. O.O)

feeling the wind,sun or rain,

feel that so much is not expressed,

while mother nature has the better hand,

wish i could vent my emo like her..(:

*passed many spots we used to hang out,
read through many stuffs,
seen through all the presents(& some letters..)
brought back many memories..):
i miss you people;

but i have to live on anyway,

you guys just made it all the more possible,

thankyou..(:

*dont you feel just so lost on days like this?

in this world where everything,everywhere is a stage,

a competition,how do the weak survive?

should one take it in their stride,or get bothered,

should one try harder even if its alr their limit,

or just cave in?

should one find excuses or face up to the cruel world,

should one be themselves or someone others wan?

i don wanna give expectations cuz i don wan dissappointment..

what shld one do,to satisfy ppl?to satisfy oneself?

if only able to choose,

would u be superficial or true to yourself?(:

i've decided to be someone i will be proud of when i turn back,

with no regrets,you?(:

i sounded so emo.. ._.

wahahahas,

but it felt nice.. ^_^

must be all the lit-ish talk getting into me..LOL

bear with my rantings okieeee??(:

ai ni men wor!!:D

2009-05-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday had trip to ngee ann poly,
went for biomedical engineering science course,
very satisfying!!!!!:D
can see my mouth keep opening there when the lecturer was talking..
i didnt understand or remember the super chim words,
but it was quite cool to see how our heart and blood vessels work,
i kept saying "whoaaa!!" if not,i was opening my mouth like an idiot,
kekekekes,
i like the practical the best,
can play play play!!!!!:D
after that,had buffet at there,like WOW!!!!
the place is big and they are so generous,
had a sort of magic show,
which kinda played with the theory of science,
mostly physics..
so worth it to go,whatsmore,it was free,
guess its to attract ppl to join ngee ann,
well,they did a damn good job of it.. :D

homed on the bus,
(for a moment,i thought we were to go home ourselves,u nv know..)
rushed home to bath and change,
than headed to cousin:ng sihan's house.. :D
skipped the talk by principal about aus trip,
(awwwww,hope i wont get it frm him.. :/)
than chit chatted with aunts,
mostly gossiping,haha,i needed alot of catch up with them..
so interact lor,got entertained too,
except that they thought everything was funny even when i was serious..:/
sat there for hours..

than talked to ng sihan,realised our grades werent that great,
but also cant compare,
her school more elite..
conclusion:
when u realise u cant do it,might as well safe energy and sleep..
ohh well,whats done is done,who cares bout that now?:D
than told her about my trip to ngee ann,
than she said she had a friend who studies there,
so she msn-ed with him,
so his exact words were :"oh zhenghua ah?they made a pathway for us to walk,MACHIAM LIKE RED CARPET LIKE THAT.."
okay,so maybe i combined his sentence together,
but no difference right?!
grrrrr,now u know why our uniform sucks?
it grabs attention,
but so what?nth to be proud of,its attention in the wrong way!!!!!
continue to be red if u wan sch to get insulted..
don care so much anyway,
i'm left with approximately 1 year 7 months in that uniform.. :D

had dinner there,
after that,nth to do,
so watched boys over/before flowers (not sure which yo)
hahahas,u should've seen us watch together,
laughing like mad,shouting and the constant awwws and comments..
ohh yarh,the most violent one was hitting each other with a pillow..
watched til like 12.30 plus,
than homed,
about 1 plus,
than fell on my dear pillow,totally shagged,
so today couldnt wake up,
skip school again..arrghhhhs..
was thinking of going for the sake of going,
still,the plan failed..):
ohh well,gonna get it again..
shucks..pls dont torture me too much,
post exam activities are not as fun as sleeping..
*constant groans coming out*

2009-05-23T08:45:00.000-07:00

lifes boringgggggg..):
doing the same things again and again,
just when i thought no more F&N coursework,
there it goes again.. :/
just when i thought no more writing of sooooo many words,
there goes lit correction again..
so no lifeee..):

i dont get why the school plans so much post exams activities..
i'm sure no one will like it compared to nice holidays..
well,i dont..
so boring..makes me regret going zhenghua..):
no offence,but i rather be with jocelyn fong..):
ohhhh,feel bloody hell like wing now,misfit..
homesick..and zhenghua doesnt feel like home..):
the demands i made upon myself,is crushing me down..
no matter what,badge of belonging=awkwardly worn.. T.T
what the crap?now look what happened!i'm turning emo..

anyways,happy news first,
still going aus(not really that excited,the feeling died down),
but the change of plans is interesting..
visiting chocolate factory,
(not good,gotta buy more souvenirs,mum forced me to buy unique ones=very expensive!)
*okay,this is sooo turning into bad news..):
ohhh!&,i got in biomedical engineering for science enrichment!!:D
i'm going highhhhhhhh!!!:D

dont want monday to come,
father going to zss for career talk,
some smartass right?!
like he got the best job in the world to talk cock?!
to me,his job is being as despicable as he can,even beyond..and ruining my peaceful life..
i'm not talking crap,u just havent met my "ol great father"
wait til u meet him *slaps own face and faints*
can i skip school on mon?
what are post exam activities for?!
make me embarass and faint on the spot?!
RAWWWRRRS!!!I'M GOING MAD!!!!

ms quek,thanks,but that grade is not good enough to me..
on average it is okay,
but i gotta do better!!
thats the only thing i can ace in and thats the only thing i enjoy,
gotta prove that lit isnt the wrong choice of subject!!!
don wanna turn back and regret!!!
don wanna disappoint u and ur efforts..
do lit proud!!!jiayou eugenia!!!(talk big to encourage myself T.T don think its possible)

;i'm all about studies,awwwwww,i'm becoming a nerd(on the outside)which is empty in substance and all talk,useless to memorise(mixed up),useless to try..trying to give up yet acting strong on the outside bitch..what will be my next big step?breaking downnnnn alr..life's just so unfair and not worth to live..):
*mops around whole day..*

2009-05-14T23:42:00.000-07:00

yayyy,
exams are over!!!:D
i guess thats what everybody's saying anyways,
so if u cant beat them,why not join them??:D
havent updated in 123456789 years..
what can i say?lifes boring..):
its test test test and still,TEST!!

siannnn..how not to get bored lehh??

test after test..when its over,

theres still end of year to think of..

*plops and faintssss*

haisshhh..tough life for all of us..):

unless u are some jerk who can memorise every thing..

which im not..):

i get mixed up!!!

speaking about mixed up,

i mixed up Iron and phosphurus in F&N!!!):

(sounds scientific eh?but it came out in F&N)

shoot..i feel like slapping myself..

wrote a whole lotta crap which are wrong & makes no sense..

F&N no hope,confirm fail liao.. X.X

met sandy go to school on thurs,

oh god how i missed her!! ♥

actually she came to my hse on wed..

hahas..i brought lucky along to fetch her,

which was nice

(1st time traffic light was green when i wanted to cross,often,shuay shuay red..i believe i shld bring lucky to sch every single day!!:D)

after exams stayed back for F&N...the agony..

exams over,still stay back til 2 plus.. X.X

i conclude that sitting at the backseat during exams is such a nice change!!:D

can talk & play without teachers knowing..(:

not that i share answers,cuz F&N more often than not,

have to write alot of info = hard to copy..

so might as well have a nice time sleeping,talking,drawing & camwhoring around..(:

waiting for my lunch to come home now(LOLS,no link.. :P)

damn hungry..

its exactly 3,

and i havent ate!!!):

pro right??

nothing to eatttttttt..

):):):):):):):)):):):):):

(heys so coool,it kinda looks like a smile from a frown..lols-.-)

blogging off ppl!!!(: